MIA

Run away with my love....



Run away with my heart!!!



Xoxo

You've got mail

On vacation in Italy but my heart is simply not here with me! I lost it to a different continent!

Xoxo

International Love

"U need my spontaneous self to balance u out" ...LOL!

I guess at times I need to loosen up and not be so rigid in life! 

You only live once baby~~~ go for it! 

Perhaps we do make a good balance together :)

Thinking of you

It hurts to see you sick and in so much pain!

Happy Birthday from the land of char kuey teow  :)

Get well soon!

xoxo

Durians, char kuey teow & tigersssss

Good things come to those who wait!!


Glad you came
The sun goes down
The stars come out
And all that counts
Is here and now
My universe will never be the same
I'm glad you came

You cast a spell on me, spell on me
You hit me like the sky fell on me, fell on me
And I decided you look well on me, well on me
So let's go somewhere no-one else can see, you and me

Turn the lights out now
Now I'll take you by the hand
Hand you another drink
Drink it if you can
Can you spend a little time,
Time is slipping away from us so stay,
Stay with me I can make,
Make you glad you came

The sun goes down
The stars come out
And all that counts
Is here and now
My universe will never be the same
I'm glad you came
I'm glad you came

You cast a spell on me, spell on me
You hit me like the sky fell on me, fell on me
And I decided you look well on me, well on me
So let's go somewhere no-one else can see, you and me

Turn the lights out now
Now I'll take you by the hand
Hand you another drink
Drink it if you can
Can you spend a little time,
Time is slipping away from us so stay,
Stay with me I can make,
Make you glad you came

The sun goes down
The stars come out
And all that counts
Is here and now
My universe will never be the same
I'm glad you came
I'm glad you came

I'm glad you came
So glad you came
I'm glad you came
I'm glad you came

The sun goes down
The stars come out
And all that counts
Is here and now
My universe will never be the same
I'm glad you came
I'm glad you came

The land of Jack Daniels

Apparently partying till the wee hours of 4am is not normal behaviour!!! Says who? Says my dad~~~~

Had an awesome & fun filled weekend..

and yes I enjoy babysitting!!!

Besides, Expendables 2 was amazing and funny at the same time!!!

We only live once...therefore enjoy while we can :)

Wild one

It was an awesome Friday celebrating Aida's birthday at the Castle - Healey Mac's - Sheraton and lastly Desire! Wow...club hopping could never be more fun than this especially if you party with the right group of friends :)

The crazies @ The Castle

Aeen-a is too adorable

Aida was trying to introduce my left booby to everyone :)

Nice shot of me and Aeen :)

The highlight of the night! Imported male strippers all the way from Italy and Russia..Oohhhlala!

Parties babeh!!!

The happening parties which I've been attending for the past few months! Mostly farewells and BBQs. These are the most awesome people whom I've got to know for the past few months and sadly people come and go and more often than not it's always saying goodbye which is the hardest part. Awesome people, fantastic parties and great drinks guys xoxo

Luca's "I'm sexy and I know it" birthday party

My favourite favourite couple and people in the whole wide word!! Love you guys so much and YES we will have a reunion with the boys in Switzerland ya!!! :)

The craziest bunch of people but yet the most awesome friends!

One crazy night out @ ZOUK

BBQ friends @ Havana partying!!!

Ochoa, Michele, Patrina, Thomas and me at Ricardo's BBQ Party

My dearest Rachel and me @ Vasily's BBQ

It was a pool party for BOYS!!! I got thrown into the pool too :)

Biggest Mojito ever~~~

(L-R) Opium Persian Mafia, Koi fish fake DVD Mafia, Jesus Mafia, random, fried tomato, and cotton hindi Mafia =D

Meagan dearest's Birthday dinner

2 beauties with Ali

Fabi, Aeen-a and me @ Natalie's

Future rave party with Sasha, Fadz and Aimee

Kenny & Arichi's Farewell Party at Rootz...

BBQ gang @ Ricardo's place

In a nut shell, “Our true friends are those who are with us when the good things happen. They cheer us on and are pleased by our triumphs. False friends only appear at difficult times, with their sad, supportive faces, when, in fact, our suffering is serving to console them for their miserable lives.” - Paulo Coelho, The Zahir -

Flying high

Lulu showing off his awesome skills in using the chopsticks!

Perfect night! Din Tai Fung was awesome and Spiderman 3D was beyond words! Superb dinner :) oh not mentioning the after party of the superb night---- ZOUKKKK!

The Italian Charm

Lulu: Noooooooo Mattia is having the last pork rib! Damn it!

Well, I couldn't resist myself from putting up this pic! Lulu's expression is insanely priceless coupled with Mattia's cheeky face....This picture could easily win "Malaysia's funniest picture of the century"!!! Ahhhh my Italian boys!!! I love you guys heaps. What would life be without you both monkeys...LOL

Green Fairy

Saying goodbye is always the hardest thing to do! Thank you for all the memories and keep in touch! Have fun and all the best in Russia. You will be missed :) You suck big time :-P

Mr. know it all

Well, happy bday to that bast*rd

-Anonymous-


He just makes my day every morning!!! :)))

Nooooo Silly.....

"God puts people in our lives for a reason"

 -Anonymous-

 #Imsurehedoes

The dying flame...

I find writing or blogging very therapeutic but i'll only do it when ever I feel like it. So much has been going on recently! I've finally graduated and when I thought that my life will be moving on to the next level, think again coz another part of my life is crashing like the 9/11 World Trade Centre in NY!



6 years of relationship with a person whom you've shared your life with is a long long time and not an easy one to give up on too. Perhaps the distance, perhaps the miscommunications, perhaps anything! I wonder what went wrong?? Right now we are just having some time out and not sure of what the status of the relationship is I decided to call the shots. I'm going to NZ! Yes...I mean it! I don't know when but I'll be going! Ha! What a decision to make. I've been contemplating to go or not for a long long time and recently a church member of mine saw me and something that she said left a very big impact on me. This is what she said :"Vera, you are a very talented young girl, more than you know actually! You will succeed anywhere you are. Just pursue your heart's desire. What is STOPING you from going to NZ?? Wow! This sentence just hit me straight to the head like a slap on the face. What is really stoping me from going over JUST now. I always thought that I'll have to advance in my career first then maybe only go over after 2 years. S0 many thoughts running through my head. How am I going to leave everything here? My parents, my life, my friends, my career?



My heart's desire is to be with you. Yes you! The one and only love of my life.



Dear God, let me find peace in you and when I feel that deep sense of peace, I'll know that is the best decision! :)



Surely God is my salvation; I will trust and not be afraid. The lord, the lord himself, is my strength and my defense; he has become my salvation." - Isaiah 12:2

Iphones, exams & sheeps....

I'm kinda stressed up thinking why am I not stress at all for this coming exams? Is it because I've done this crap for the past 4 years and we are just immune to the feeling of anxiety or is it because I have quite many days in between papers to study??


Arggggg.....Stress tak habis-habis!!! Left only 16 days to exams!!!


Watched Red Riding Hood, Source code & World Invasion Battle Los Angeles recently!! All good except red riding hood which was predictable as the director is the same as Twilight. the wolfe in the show is human by day and wolfe by night...this is so Jacob (OMG)!!!


I just turned 25 last week!!! I'm freaking out at the fact I'm a quarter of a century. I feel very much ready to have kids..such weird feeling. Guess it's the hormones playing up! Yes it's true I can't wait to be a mummy. By just looking at Marc's pictures every day makes me smile so I think it's time J makes his move *wink*

Till then...EXAMS!!!!!

Books, eating and hills...

Started studying at the library today...I guess I had to start some where and once the engine has started it won't stop! The new college library is awesome. However, there are some set backs such as the noise and the distraction from outside. The college should install blinds and also sound proof doors and windows!

I hope tomorrow would be a better and fruitful day! More productive too...


Better stop talking too:)


Must at least finish my notes on Matrimonial Causes Act and Family Law Act in divorces by tomorrow.. MUST!


Friday would be exciting as a group of friends from college including me would be climbing up Broga hill in Semenyih! Gotta wake up at 5am so that we can hike up Broga hill in time for sunrise :)

*Sweat*

3 options :

1)Telephone
2)Webcam
3)Email

Can you beat it! James asked me to chose one of these 3 options as to how I would want him to propose to me!!! We were just joking on the phone and I asked him to think of a romantic proposal in which he would propose to me and he cheekily came out with these 3 option =_="...


Guess this guy only speaks IT language...sigh!!! LOL!

Time for mugging

Gotta start studying...That is what I tell myself EVERYDAY!!! I have exactly 3 months till exams and I personally think I'm already running out of time. Sigh...Why do I feel so lazy everytime the thought of studying comes to mind? I can't go on like this...It's time!


Yet another Valentine's Day without you :(



Lalalalala...I'm waiting for my iPhone 4 *Grins*

19 weeks and counting!!!!

We have officially 19 weeks to our LLB final exams! I can't believe I'm actually counting. Reason being so is because I'm counting down to the time I meet James so might as well think of my exams as I have to study and sit for my exams even before I fly to NZ to see him.

2011 is going to be yet another better year than 2010 for in Hebrew 11:40 it is said that God gad planned something better for us so that only together with us would they be made perfect! Amen!

I'm so looking forward to the great things planned out for me this year. I'm finally graduating and I'm so looking forward to my NZ trip to visit James and also the Thailand trip with the girls :)

Besides, I've also been givent the task to organise my cell group annual trip in September. I can't wait for all the holidays...gonna really burn a big hole in my pocket for all these trips :( I'm already starting to save!

On a lighter note, I'm kinda addicted to the smurf game on my ipod touch. It all started when Carol said that she was hooked so I was curious and decided to download the game. Nothing special bout the game just that it is something like farmville which requires us to harvest berries in order to gain points..*duh*

2011 will be a great year!!!!

My lucky charm

If you were a charm,
I'll hang you on my charm bracelet.
I'll wear you on my wrist daily,
I'll carry you every where I go,
This will remind me of you all day,
I'll be able to see you all the time!

If only you were a charm,
I'll carry you round and cherish you deeply,
I'll make sure that you are close to my heart,
I'll be able to touch and hold you tightly.

If only you were my lucky charm!!!!!


It's been just over 4 months since you left....
Oh, I can't wait till the day I meet you again ( 6 more months) :(
I just wish you were here!


Ps:// I heart You heaps!!!! XOXOXO

Pandora my love

I'm touched by the very essence of the content writen in this card

Yay! Finally received my x'mas presents from James. I'm overwhelmed and beyond words! I don't even know how to feel. I'm just too surprised! I thought he send my pressie earlier in the month but he actually only fedex it last Friday and it was a pleasant suprised when I received it Monday morning. First, he said he sent it to my aunt's address then he said it was to my house in Melaka. He actually planned the whole suprise to a whole new level when I got the package while at work. *Screams with exitement*  

Pandora Charm Bracelet
1) Evil eye charm - First evil eye bracelet from Turkey that James gave me

I love how James is so thoughtful! He actually gave so much thought when buying this gift. Accroding to him, every charm represents significant events for all the time we've been together. *Cries*.

Mini 14crt gold with 0.05 carat diamond cross charm
2) Cross pendant - First cross swarovski from James

3)Book & 4) mortar hat charm - pre graduation pressie :)

Sorry peeps...Not very clear
5) Chimpanze charm - Our first outing to the zoo & James was born in the year of the Moneky
6) Aeroplane charm - James travels alot so it reminds me of him

The whole set :)

14crt gold with 0.5 carat diamond studded cross pendant

Wow.."Love" his wrapping.LOL! I'm loving the charm bracelet =)

Darling, I'm blessed to have you.

My best friend,
My partner,
My hope,
My joy!

Wishing everyone a very blessed Merry Christmas and Happy New Year!

The only exception

The Only exception!
(Glee version)

When I was younger
I saw my daddy cry
And curse at the wind
He broke his own heart
And I watched
As he tried to reassemble it

And my momma swore that
She would never let herself forget
And that was the day that I promised
I'd never sing of love
If it does not exist

But darling,
You, are, the only exception
You, are, the only exception
You, are, the only exception
You, are, the only exception

Maybe I know, somewhere
Deep in my soul
That love never lasts
And we've got to find other ways
To make it alone
Keep a straight face

And I've always lived like this
Keeping a comfortable, distance
And up until now
Paramore The Only Exception lyrics found on http://www.directlyrics.com/paramore-the-only-exception-lyrics.html

I had sworn to myself that I'm
Content with loneliness

Because none of it was ever worth the risk

Well, You, are, the only exception
You, are, the only exception
You, are, the only exception
You, are, the only exception

I've got a tight grip on reality
But I can't
Let go of what's in front of me here
I know you're leaving
In the morning, when you wake up
Leave me with some kind of proof it's not a dream

Ohh---

You, are, the only exception
You, are, the only exception
You, are, the only exception
You, are, the only exception
You, are, the only exception
You, are, the only exception
You, are, the only exception
You, are, the only exception

And I'm on my way to believing
Oh, And I'm on my way to believing


Recently I've become a GLEEK and I find some of their version of songs are so much better than the original ones. I love this version of The Only Execption sang by Racheal in Glee.


Everytime I hear this song it reminds me of YOU. By this Christmas, it will be 4 months since you left for NZ. I can't wait for JUNE! I really can't. Can I just fast forward time? Please God! Plwease...........

Sheeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeppppppppp!!!!

*Yeh*....It's done! My ticket to NZ is finalised thanks to James. I'm glad that now Air Asia flies to Christchurch, NZ. The only set back is I will have to get a connecting flight to Auckland. Not a biggie but I would have preferred to fly directly into Auckland. The only reason I chose to fly Air Asia was because It was amazingly cheap and also wanted to save some money for James. All in ticket inclusive of meals, 25kg luggage, pre-booked sit with extra leg space and the comfort kit cost only RM968! Ain't that ridiculously cheap?

I really can't wait to see James! I'm so excited *grinning*. This coming trip will be my 3rd trip to NZ. The first was summer 2008, second was winter 2009 and my coming trip will be winter 2011. I've decided to stay for almost 5 weeks this round. My reasons are that I just want to spend real quality time with James and also to visit Lissa and baby. =)

I can't believe we are already in December! This would be my last month at work and I will definitely miss my colleagues. However, comes January I would be back studying as a full-time student. Exams will be start on 11th May and my last will be on the 31st then off I go to Sheep land.

Ps:// I'm all set baby!

Mortar boards flew into the air

Congratulations to all Brickfields LLB graduates! I'm extremely happy for you guys :) I can't wait to graduate next year with Mun. I REALLY can't wait :) Mun, time will fly and by then it will be our turn to throw our mortar boards to the air.

Our turn shall come..............

Personally, graduation is a time for me to have a sense of achievement. To feel that all the hard work we put in all these years are well paid off. It will be the best part of my life for my parents to witness this proud moment of my life. To see me walk down the aisle and go up stage to receive my scroll*empty at time of receiving*. It will also mean alot to me if James could make it back for my graduation. I always teased him that besides my wedding and proposal, probably my graduation will be the ONLY few occassions that I would receive flowers from him. It's not only for the flowers, I just want my love ones to witness my proudest moment of my life and what more to ask then for my boyfriend to be present. *Fingers cross*

Now, I'm super excited about my Christmas present from James. :) It is meant to be a BIG suprise according to him but he has been enticing me and keeps hinting to me what is it. Ie: Can open and close, has nine parts, like this like that...For sure he is not that good at keeping secrets and surpises. Hehe! Anyway, I can't wait but for now I don't know what to buy for a guy who has basically everything and also that has REALLY expensive taste :(...

Any ideas?

Better than any other Christmas!!

I'm very blessed to have you in my life & I can't ask for anyone better than you. You're the very special someone that no one could replace because you make my world a very happy place. A BIG hug and kiss for being the most wonderful bf ever! XOXO

Ps:// I love you and miss you very much!

Under my Umbrella..ella...ella

Singing in the rain



This is like the best song and episode ever of Glee Season2. Blame it on my cousin...I'm officially a GLEEK!!! This song really brings the original Singing in the rain by Gene Kelly from the musical Singing in the Rain to a whole new level. Simply jaw dropping!!! Love the fact they brought in Gwyneth Paltrow into Glee to co-sing with Mr. Shoe. They shoud like totally hook up but unfortunately neh....no sparks flying in the air! The choreography for the whole dance was just awesome not to mention though the whole theme was in black and white and yet they even incorporated the yellow umbrella which makes both Mr. Shoe and Gwyneth look so sexy under it. Hmmmm...I'm loving it!!!

Miss Dior Cherie!!!!

Dad just told me that he bougt me a Miss Dior Green Cherie perfume from Langkawi Duty free aiport as my Christmas pressie :) Yeah!! Another one to add to my collection of my Dior Jadore Perfume, CK summer and DKNY apple (Broken) :( .

I heart Dior & Dad

I'm sure you guys know that Miss Dior Cherie Eau De Toilette 2010 (PINK) is a new fragrance from Christine Dior. The  fresh and elegant floral-chypre pink cherie aims at younger women who enjoy freedom and independence. Transparent notes of freesia and lily of the valley start this spring, feminine composition which lines up accords of jasmine, orange blossom and tuberose.

However, dad bought me last year's Spring Miss Dior Cherie L'Eau Eau De Toilette Spray 50ml/1.7oz

• Embraces you with floral, fruity & gourmand notes
• Joyful, delicious, refreshing & comfortable to wear
• Starts with Bigarade orange, fruity notes
• Continues with gardenia, floral notes
• Dry down to notes of white musk, patchouli, caramel, dry woods

FYI:
Miss Dior Cherie editions:
Miss Dior Cherie EDP 2005,
Miss Dior Cherie EDT 2007,
Miss Dior Cherie Eau de Printemps 2008,
Miss Dior Cherie Blooming Bouquet 2008,
Miss Dior Cherie L'Eau 2009.
Miss Dior Cherie Eau De Toilette 2010 

Reasoning from Dad fro buying MDC L'Eau was because it smells fresh and it is more "ME" rather than this year's MDC which leans towards the floral and fruity side. Haha..


Thanks DAD!!!



*Thanks darling for the Kathmandu bag too*



Big hugs and kisses to dad and darling.

Have you ever really loved a "Man"

My all time favourite love song is Have you ever really loved a woman by Bryan Adams!! I practically love all his song i.e: Summer of 69, please forgive me, straight from the heart and etc. Really good old songs from the 90's :)

Anyway, had a really good half an hour conversation with darling on the phone. Felt so good just chatting with him :) It feels like just yesterday when he left for NZ but to think about it how time flies as it is almost 3 months already. I'm surpised that I've lasted that long. :( I've got another 7 months plus before we meet but somehow I feel the days to meeting him is getting so close. I can just feel it :)

He promised that this year will be the last time we will ever be apart. He is tyring to make me happy coz I know for a fact it will not happen. I still gotta do my CLP and chamber once I finish my basic law degree. I probably will need another 2 years or more before I am considered a full fledge lawyer. It is unlikely that he will be base in Malaysia anymore except for short holidays so looks like we will need to stick it out for another 2 years being apart :(

How do you know if he/she is the one? Somehow I just know! Love was just made for you and me. Darling, the days are long and I can't stop thinking bout you every second. I know you feel the same way too. We just have to stick it through and have faith that everything will work out just fine.

****Family law is killing me softly ****

Thailand "Backpacking" Trip

Oh I can't wait for next year!!! I will be finally graduating and will be taking the opportunity to go on my well deserved holiday :)

July - August (1 month) - Will be flying to NZ to meet my darling and then traveling down to the South Island visiting Lisa and baby! *Hope Carol will be able to join me then we shall have a road trip all over NZ :)

 
September 6 - 13 - Me and my bunch of girlfriends from school days would be going on a backpacking trip to Thailand. Not literally backpacking but will be traveling to a few places in Thailand. Our plan for now is to take a train all the way to Hat Yai and stay for a few days then head on to Bangkok via train or bus. From there we would be using Bangkok as a hub and take day tours to Ayutthaya (Ancient City), Kanchanaburi (Border to Myanmar) and etc. I would love to go to the beaches as well :) The real reason why we wanted to take the train to Thailand is because it's an experience we would never do once we start working and why not? I think it would be so much fun. I seriously can't wait :) We knew we would be shopping loads so we decided to fly back via Air Asia. It was really timely for Air Asia to have their annual RM0 fare tickets...We managed to get Bangkok-KL (One way ticket) for only RM156. Oh happiness :) Thanks to Carol and Ita!


Next year seems like a long time more but before I can go on any holiday, will need to start mugging on my books and pass the exams first :(


I miss you so much that I can literally cry *sobz sobz*

Emotional Coma

I'm missing you badly :(





I'm incapable of structuring my thoughts as how to describe the feeling of missing you. I'm only capable of only using word but sometimes words just don't do justice to how a person is feeling!





Another 8 months to go....That seems pretty long at this moment. I guess that will just do for now...Counting down the day till we meet again :)




Por que? Tenho muito saudades de voce. Grande Beijos e abracos. XOxoxxoXO

5 years & 1 month

Well....I'm not kiasu in counting the days, months and years I've been with him. I know my previous post I said that what's the point in counting when you know that we will be together forever. Yeah , I know I said that but I can't help but to feel that Wow...we've been together for so long already.. 5 years!!! Looking back , time really flies! :)


So now it's the 5th year...8th year then 20th year and so on......





“Grow old along with me! The best is yet to be, the last of life, for which the first was made. Our times are in his hand who saith, 'A whole I planned, youth shows but half; Trust God: See all, nor be afraid!'”
-Robert Browning-

The little black dress

I bought a dress!!!! A black one to say. I'm never a black person...I've always bought clothes in other colours and not black! I was at little black book, Hartamas and came across a black dress and the design was superb. It is seldom that you come across an empire line little black dress nowadays. I loved it so much but I didn't have black in mind. I immediately asked the salesgirl if she had some other colour other than black..sadly I was so disappointed when she said NO! Nevertheless, I tried on the dress. Syazmeen was quite insistent that I buy the dress as it really fitted me nicely. Wow!!! I can't believe I could fit into an M size....*grinning*. Thanks to the diet :) However, I'm still not too happy bout my *Butt*. More exercise needed but I think it will be quite hard to have a smaller butt as I come from a family of big butt and big thighs genes. The price wasn't that bad. It was reasonable..only RM39.90.


The rest is history. I finally bought the dress. You know the saying that every girls closet has to have a black dress? I actually do own a black dress but it's a long one so I decided why not just get a knee lenght black dress this time...Yeah!!! I got a dress to wear for the PRCAM dinner at MO :)

Hollywood diet

I've been just sipping juice and drinking cabbage soup through out the whole week and I've lost 2kg so far :)


This is happiness yet crazy!!! I need to go back to an average of 55kg. 2 kg more then toning up!


Yes..I need to be able to fit into my dresses again ^_^


It's a torture to go on a diet but for the sake of beauty, we girls would do anything..

Baby can I hold you

Baby can I hold you
"i'm sorry,"
It's all that you can say
Years gone by and still
Words don't come easily
Like "sorry" (like "sorry"..like "sorry"..)
"forgive me,"
Is all that you can say
Years gone by and still
Words don't come easily
Like "forgive me" ("forgive me"..."forgive me"..)
Forgive me..

But you can say, baby
Baby can I hold you tonight?
Baby, if I told you the right words
Oooh, at the right time
You'll be mine

I love you
Is all that you can say
Years gone by and still
Words don't come easily (words don't come easily..)
Like "i love you", I love you..

But you can say, baby
Baby can I hold you tonight?
Baby, if I told you the right words
Oooh, at the right time
You'll be mine

(baby can I hold you...)
But you can say, baby
Baby can I hold you tonight?
Baby, if I told you the right words
Oooh, at the right time
You'll be mine

(baby, if I hold you..)
(baby, can I hold you..) you'll be mine..
(baby if I told you..)
(baby, can I hold you..)
You'll be mine..
(baby if I told you..)
Baby, can I hold you.

Ps:// Baby you can't just choose one, if you want both, then you have to learn how to balance out your time coz I miss you too much! I will not make you choose...Ultimately it's your choice but just so you know, I'm here!

Awessssooooomenessssss!

I think this guy really has alot of talent! I admire people like this. At first, I thought this will be the typical ABC who doesn't know Chinese but I was so impressed by his cover of Lee Hom's song. Can't have enough of his songs now...I'm so addicted to Jason Chen :). He is such a heart breaker!

Now...I too have to find what is my hidden talent!

Cheat my feelings

I've recently come to realize that you can never put your hopes and expectation on someone so much becasue there will come a time that you will feel disappointed if that expectation is not met. We can only trust in God because our heavenly father will never ever fail us..Just believe and pray!

It's been a week that I'm feeling down. I know I should never let my emotions be affected by others and yet this is happening to me becasue it really matters to me esp when it has got to do with someone you love and care very much for. You asked me to understand and think about your feelings. I'm proud to say that I've changed alot and been more understanding and considerate. Since you wished for me to see things from your point of view, have you ever thought about my feelings? I'm all alone here without you. I only asked for you to call me or the very least text me once in a day. I think it is only fair we make compromises. Don't you think it's fair? I've gone through alot lately and been thinking hard about our relationship. If you can't even give me 5 minutes of your time in a day, then do you even have the time to spend the rest of your life with me?

I'm a girl, I'm a beautiful one, I'm smart, I'm funny, I'm loving and most of all I'm your gf. I'm nothing close to being irritating, disturbing or a bugging gf . If you see or feel this as who I am then you don't know how to appreciate me for who I am. No one loves you more than I do..*exclusion clause..your MUM, DAD & GOD*. All I'm asking is to treat me better, with respect and love. I just need reassurances from you. It makes a different because you are so far away. I only want you to have some form of communication with me. Don't forget, my only way of communication with you is by phone. I can't swim or fly to NZ anytime to see you. My way of "lepas rindu" is to only talk to YOU and when I say YOU means a proper reciprocal conversation. Not just you listening to me talk. At times, It's nice to have someone be concern and ask how was my day and just to see how I am...It would be nice:)

Men are from Mars.....

I hate it why men are so diffferent from women in the emotional and communication aspect. Honesty, men do not know how we, women think! They know nothing! They do not know how we feel, even if we are disappointed or sad. They just don't catch these emotions.


Guys as they are...Top 10 list
1) Guys don't realize a simple text message makes a different.
2) Guys think that by not telling us something to not make us worry but in fact it actually worry us more.
3) Guys can compartmentalise their feelings and not think of us.
4) Guys think by giving lip service on how much they love us will do, we need to see it too.
5) Guys are egoistic beings. Naturally are.
6) Guys think that buying flowers is a waste of money.
7) Guys always think that we are complaining but in fact we are just telling them how we feel.
8) Guys always use the lame excuse of being busy and can't or won't call us.
9) Guys always thinks we are DISTURBING them.
10) Guys will never appreciate a girl not until they loose her. 

I seriously cannot understand when you say you are busy. In terms of work, I do but busy the whole day? Don't you have lunch breaks? Toilet breaks? Dinner breaks? Ciggies breaks? You can't even give me 5min out of 24 hours? Is 5 minutes even too much to ask? Do you think I am unreasonable? I've waited 4 days for you to call me. I dare not call you in fear that I will disturb you. Every night I wait in excitement for your call because you always call me before you sleep. I texted you but to no avail...I will never get a reply. The most astounding text I ever got is "I'm very tired, going to sleep now. Will call you tomorrow!". You mean you have no more energy for your voice to come out to talk to me or is it that you are lazy to talk to me since you are very tired. You promise me every day that you will call me at night before you sleep and when I remind you, you answer me in a very irritated tone. Promises are just promises and it will always be broken. I don't know if I can trust you anymore when you say you will call me later. If tomorrow you don't call me, then I fear that you would have created a wall in our relationship. I know long distance relationships are never easy and alot of compromises have to be made to please both parties but it takes 2 to tango and I can't be the only one here holding on to the fort. You need to play your part too. I've never been so disappointed and upset before. I've never shed as many bucket of tears before and cry myself to sleep. I'm just speechless at your attitude towards our relationship. 


God I need your strenght to pull me through. Amen!

Saudades

Saudades in portuguese means Miss but its not an accurate translation because there isn't a correct word to really explain the meaning of the word saudade. It is something more than just missing someone. It's a passionate word with deep meaning.

Today's post is about great people that came into my life, be it friends since school days, or some that I've know along the way in college or even friends that i've only known for not too long. You all have touched me in various ways...be it by your act of kindness, your generosity, kindness and self-less ways....I love you guys very much. I'm touched and grateful that I have such wonderful friends in my life...few that will go all out to genuinely help you and just be there as a listening ear or shoulder to cry on. Thank you :)

M & M

Mellissa, though I've only known you for 2 years, I'm so grateful and touched for all that you've done for me and James. Be it your generosity in hosting us and buying clothes for me all the times :) or your kind and caring ways towards us. Though we chat almost every day...I miss you so much. Can't wait to see you next year in NZ. I've known you like forever. Always listening to stories from Caroline about her cousin, Mellissa since secondary school days. Never did I imagine that I would treat you like my sister and someone that I look up to. As a person, you showed me all the good attributes that a person should be and I wanna be like you. Mellissa and Melvyn, thank you for just being there.

Carol & Ita with a breathtaking view of Bali

Carol oh Carol...I've known you like since when? Hmmm....since Form 1. Can't believe it has been that long. Time does fly huh! Thanks for sticking by me through everything and being such an understanding person. I would have had such a terrible experience in school had it not been you being there for me. From helping me see the board when I couldn't see and also always putting up with my self-made lyrics that I used to sing in class. Haha...
Though I've hurt you before because of my blunt ways, you always forgave me. I'm sorry for being too straight forward at times...I guess you know me and accept me for who I am..I'm trying to better myself too. Thanks for all the lovely meal that you belanja-ed me. I promised that when I'm a successful lawyer, Abalone and sharksfin --- I belanja you! No problem ok.. :) Don't forget, the Maid of Honour's place will always be kept for you unless you reject it la..

Ita, our friendship wasn't a smooth path per say. I remembered when we first knew each other, we were always at each others head. I guess friendship is not something that you cultivate over night. It's a process of getting to sync and adapt to each person's idiosyncrasies and ways. I'm glad we became close around 3 years ago.

Thank you Carol and Ita for being such great friends! There are much more things I would love to say but at times words can never give justice to the things you both have done for me. What would I do without you guys?

We girls at 21 tables + terrace

Jo, you are one of a kind. You are considerate, you are patient, you are kind, you are hardworking, you are warm...you are everything I want to be. Thanks for lending your ears all the time. You speak words of wisdom all the time and you never fail to show me a different perspective of life. You never impose your ways on others and you always make a point to remind us that everyone are just different. Jo, by God's grace, you will go far! This is my prayer for you:)

Mun, my other half! Why my other half? It's because we are quite alike. We speak too loud, we speak too much, we speak too fast! We look young and never look our age. People always think we are still 18. Haha. We gossip like nobody's business and laught too much in class till we kena la scolding from the TAXI UNCLE ..Hehehehe

Amy, the sweet one. You are the organiser of the group. You are the leader. You know when I'm feeling down, you are the one that can always sense something is not right..I can't believe I'm having a writer's block just thinking of what to write about you. I can tell you though I'm stuck here with words, my heart about you feels right. I know you are a great friend. I can sense it too :)

Girls, a BIG thanks to 3 of you. With all the different attributes and characters, you girls make very good bridesmaids and organisers for my wedding...:)

During my visit to NZ in 2008 Summer

Lastly, to the one I love. Thanks for sticking by me through thick and thin. I need not elaborate further ya. You know what I mean la..:) I love you!

ps:// written in no particular order ya :)

We'll be a dream......

I particularly love this part

Do you remember the nights
We'd stay up just laughing
Smiling for hours
At anything
Remember the nights
We drove around crazy in love

When the lights go out
We'll be safe and sound
We'll take control of the world
Like it's all we have to hold on to
And we'll be a dream

Do you remember the nights
We made our way dreaming
Hoping of being
Someone big
We were so young then
We were too crazy
In love

Basically I love the whole song!

I wanna dream....have BIG DREAMS...without dreams there would not be goals and achievement...so why not?

Overindulging in Mooncakes

Time to hit the gym this week...been having all sorts of flavoured mooncakes within the span of 2 weeks and not to mention great food since was squatting at aunts place for a couple of days. Last week, uncle bought some mooncakes from Resort World Genting Singapore. Tried some with Lotus and salted egg yolk. I'm not a big fan of mooncakes with egg yolk so it didn't really leave an impression. This week, boss brought some pure lotus mooncake from Mandarin Oriental Hotel..I must say it is so far the best I've ever tried.The paste was smooth and the pastry was very light. Not to mention that is was not very sweet. Yesterday, went to aunt's house for Mid Autumn Festival dinner and ate more mooncakes from Concorde Hotel. Let see she bought 1 big box that came with 6 small mooncakes with different flavours. There were mix nuts, lotus paste with egg yolk, charcoal yam, pandan, lemon and hmmm...gosh I forgot what's the other flovour. Anyway, we only opened the lotus paste with egg yolk, Pandan and Lemon ones. Personally I thought it was not that fantastic but since aunt bought it at 30% I guess it's worthwhile. I thought the mooncake craze and nightmare was over not until when I came in to the office this morning that Boss offered more mooncake. This time she brought Tiramisu and blackberry flavoured mooncakes...It's so tempting since it is just left outside. Guess just have to wait for someone to "officiated" the opening of the mooncakes then I'll just take a tini-wini bit..

Let see, for the pass week since I was staying at aunts place as Dad came down for a course. My other aunt from Melaka came along and *yum yum* had delicious & glorious home cook food. In a span of 3 days, I had sambal udang, fried gragau, ginseng soup, beggars chicken, sweet & sour fish, chicken chop, pumpkin soup, mash potato, salad and pasta.

Yes, it's time to go back to gym screaming *aarggggg*. Need to watch the expansion of my waist line, hips & buttocks  :(.Guess I have to go back to my diet and no carbo at nights.

I guess I have to tell you this, I'm really sorry If I will hurt you but I've decided to break our perfect relationship.








I don't wanna ever see you again!









Bye-bye FOOD!

The journey of faith

This is an ancient pic during the early days of our relationship

It has been exactly 5 years since we first met. The memories are crystal clear as to what you were wearing during our first date and also what our conversation were. I remembered you wearing the Seed shirt with jeans, Rolex watch and also your police boots. My heart was racing while waiting for you to pick me up. Well after all it was my first date, I'm entitled to feel nervous and yet excited at the same time.

Fast forward 5 years, here we are still together and I know I love you more and more as each day passes. I admit our journey is no fun fair. It's not smooth, it's not happy all the time, there are ups and downs occasionally but yet we managed to concur all of our differences, understanding each other better. Love is self-less! Sacrificing is part of the game..We don't complaint but go all out to pleased our partners.

Though we are apart all the time, I guess this is how our relationship gets better. As a saying goes.."If you love someone more than anything, then distance only matters to the mind, not to the heart." It's true! Every time I hear your voice, I feel you close and near to me. I look forward to that very call everyday. Anyway, I can't deny the fact I miss you every day but I'm strong and I know I can survive through this ordeal. Just looking forward to get my LLB Degree and doing my CLP. :) 

Celebrating his 30th birthday this year :)

Darling, I just want to say I will hold your hand till the ends of our life. I will love, cherish and appreciate you in every possible way. I'm sorry If I previously hurt you so deeply. Every day is a learning process for us to strive to be a better person and I want to do it with you. You once said that we have a long road to go and that you would want to walk it with me.. Fate brought us together and I have faith that the Big Man above knows what is best and has great plans for us in the future. Right now, right here...I just want to wish you a very Happy 5th Anniversary. I don't know why am I even counting the years as if it really matters. What matters most is I know we have along way and more years to go so why count in the first place. I know we will always be together despite what may come our way.

Ps:// You said you loved me for these 5 years...I will say I've loved you for 5 years and will love you forever!