The dying flame...

I find writing or blogging very therapeutic but i'll only do it when ever I feel like it. So much has been going on recently! I've finally graduated and when I thought that my life will be moving on to the next level, think again coz another part of my life is crashing like the 9/11 World Trade Centre in NY!



6 years of relationship with a person whom you've shared your life with is a long long time and not an easy one to give up on too. Perhaps the distance, perhaps the miscommunications, perhaps anything! I wonder what went wrong?? Right now we are just having some time out and not sure of what the status of the relationship is I decided to call the shots. I'm going to NZ! Yes...I mean it! I don't know when but I'll be going! Ha! What a decision to make. I've been contemplating to go or not for a long long time and recently a church member of mine saw me and something that she said left a very big impact on me. This is what she said :"Vera, you are a very talented young girl, more than you know actually! You will succeed anywhere you are. Just pursue your heart's desire. What is STOPING you from going to NZ?? Wow! This sentence just hit me straight to the head like a slap on the face. What is really stoping me from going over JUST now. I always thought that I'll have to advance in my career first then maybe only go over after 2 years. S0 many thoughts running through my head. How am I going to leave everything here? My parents, my life, my friends, my career?



My heart's desire is to be with you. Yes you! The one and only love of my life.



Dear God, let me find peace in you and when I feel that deep sense of peace, I'll know that is the best decision! :)



Surely God is my salvation; I will trust and not be afraid. The lord, the lord himself, is my strength and my defense; he has become my salvation." - Isaiah 12:2