Tuesday, April 08, 2014

Surprise Surprise

Birthday definitely came early...I think I am officially making it an all month long - APRIL celebration!!!

So present #1 - mum gave me a pair of turquoise earrings on 28th March which I LOVE LOVE LOVE!!!

Ok and I thought the first pressie would be coming all the way from US.

Wait...wait...let me back track slightly!

26th March 2014
Z: Got you an early bday present it'll be there before the 19th

V: Yay!! haha I'm so excited now!!

V: U rmb my bd :))

Z: Haha Yes I do!

....few days later after mum gave me her present

28th March 2014

Z: Maybe your present will be in next week u may need it for your actual bd lol!

V: Ur making me so curious now

Z: Haha it isnt that cool however very practical. It may have sentimental appreciation.

....*so I'm thinking why is he so efficient for the first time and seem more excited about it*..then....

V: Haha guess momma beat u to it :)

Z: Haha mines better

V: Haha I'm pretty sure it is much better.


V: Need to talk to you...viber date!

Z: Ok deal! When?

V: Tuesday when I get back from Phuket...

Z: Havent talked to you in a long time...

V: Excited!! I'll see you real soon "Optimistic much" Haha.

Monday came and I was heading towards KL Central to meet Pin for dinner!! She seemed so excited to meet me that day...even played the guilty card on me saying if I can't meet her that night, she would only see me after she comes back from her vaca the following night....

I was pretty pumped up taking the ERL all the way to KL central and then there HE was at the ERL exit with Pin!!! OMG i swear to GOD I thought I was seeing double or perhaps because of exhaustion I was imagining things...

............but NO.....Zack was standing next to Pin and surprise surprise!!! I was SPEECHLESS....these 2 monkeys played it all well. Generally, it's really hard to keep anything from me and for them to come up with this PLAN and executed it so well...they really got me!!

and there he was talking bout viber date, me getting my pressie early...ahhhhh the puzzle is solved!! So sneaky!!

It was the best birthday surprise ever!!! Seriously.....it was such a sweet gesture from the bestie to come all the way to Malaysia from US and all in all for only 6 days!!

Ahhhh it still feels so SURREAL that he came. Well, best memories in 2014 esp for the birthday girl...I deserve to be HAPPY! Haha... *I'm blessed to have 2 besties in my life that would do anything for me*.....

Thank you y'all xoxo............
We are good at not being very sober...cheers to more tequila shots!!

Friday, March 14, 2014


Z: I think Define needs a security guard on duty at all times :)

V: Why is that so?

Z: Cause expansion means added security


Z: One of those luxuries that's needed lol..

V: oh yeah...like times when I work till 12am..hmmm you got a point

Z: See lol

V: Shall convey that to the boss :p

Z: Haha yes you should

V: and what kind of security guard are you thinking of? Hmmm say US Army trained?

Z: Aha definitely so!!!

This whole entire convo just cracks me up every time I read it over again and again.

Y U so Fannneeehhh?

................................ I'm so speechless............................................................



Monday, February 24, 2014

Because of You

The thought of you being so far away kills me all the time. I do think of you and miss you every second of the day! Oh why why why??

Life is such and I just have to suck it up I guess!!!

Ya allah tuhan ku.... just kill me now...RIGHT now!!


Monday, February 03, 2014

Wednesday, January 22, 2014


Hyperventilation is rapid or deep breathing that can occur with anxiety or panic. It is also called overbreathing, and may leave you feeling breathless.

Panic Attack at its best!!!


Monday, January 20, 2014

Love of my life!!!

Only you, you & you!!! You will always be the love of my life...the key to my heart!!!

Wander lust!!!

One day I will find a traveling job....and travel 365 days of the year!! Yay!!!!

On the other hand, I do miss him but I don't normally talk about it..sooooo

I sorta quit drinking beer for now and let's see how long that would last :)

Thursday, January 02, 2014

Happy New Year - 2014

 Wrote this on fb so I thought I'd share it here!

Looking back at all that 2013 has given me.... I can only say that it was truly an awesome awesome year that even words cannot describe how great it was! Tho at times it was challenging but overall it was a good year!! I sincerely thank the good Lord for all that I have today!

2013 gave me the opportunity to be promoted at work. All the hard work paid off and I'm truly blessed to have such awesome colleagues and bosses to back me at work.. Go Go Definers!!!

2013 introduced me to few wonderful people in my life that I did not even envision that would change my life these much and become so important to me! To Robin Luke Thomas,and Aben Samuel, thank you for staying in my life and being there for me throughout all my ups and down. You guys rock my world totally!

2013 blessed me with such an agel of a friend and an awesome travel partner to US! We might not have agreed on certain things but overall it was an incredible trip! Amanda sweetie...remember how we got close 1 year ago during New Year's eve party? Happy 1 year friendship anniversary ♥♥

2013 has also shown me an ever supporting & loving family and friends! Special shout out to Pin Tan, Zack Flippin and Mellissa Lee for sticking by me, my crazy self, my emotional moments and my stalking ways!! Lol.. I would have totally drown and gone insane if not for you guys that are always there listening to my rants and also putting up with my funny idiosyncrasies! Heart you all very much!! Best besties ever ♥♥

and to all friends and family not mentioned above, I am truly grateful for your friendship and how you have touched and blessed my life! I'm sure yall know who you are

2013 is ending today but fear not, let us go and make better and greater memories in 2014. I truly believe it will be an even better year!! I have no doubt!

Happy New Year everyone ♥♥♥


So I had a quiet new year but it's not where or how we do it but who you do it with!!! It was a nice dinner with Pin & Katelyn and watching the fireworks at KLCC!!! To top the cherry of the night... I received a viber phone call from the other bestie all the way from US to wish me Happy New Year!! The year couldn't end any better :) I'm so grateful I have these people that hearts me lots!!

I simply can't wait for the adventures that awaits me in 2014 :)))


Friday, December 13, 2013

Mi Manchi

Can't believe it's 5 months since the ultimate US trip!!! Time does fly doesn't it? :(

Bridesmaid for Amy's wedding!!! We certainly had a ball :)) I had fun!!

It's the end of the year again and I feel I need yet another holiday....life is just too short to not enjoy right??

Christmas present for bestie 1 settled.....now what to buy for bestie 2??? Aiyoooo problem!!!!

Thursday, November 28, 2013

This is why I do what i do

Been feeling a little troubled lately. actually to be precise since yesterday morning.

The heart seems to be playing tricks with me. Something I read made me realise why am I doing what I do...*LOVING* you.I only want you to be happy and if you are then it's time I take a step back and let you go

Time to move on babeh....

By the way, I'm so excited I finally managed to buy my very first car, a Honda Jazz Hybrid!!!! *Screams in excitement*


Can't wait to see my baby next month :)))

Monday, November 25, 2013


I love my best friends and you know who you are :)))

Love ya!! muakz muakz



Thursday, November 14, 2013

One Word

“As my sufferings mounted I soon realized that there were two ways in which I could respond to my situation -- either to react with bitterness or seek to transform the suffering into a creative force. I decided to follow the latter course.”

Martin Luther King Jr.

One word.......FORGIVE

Friday, October 04, 2013

loving life

This is the life I chose and therefore I will live this life to the fullest!!!!

It's almost 2 years now and strangely these has been the 2 best years of my life and I can't describe how much I've learned, discovered and also loved myself more than I've ever asked for.

In these 2 years, I've realised how big my heart is and at times I slipped and give my heart away to easily and too quick for my own good so much so getting hurt is ultimately unavoidable.

I've heard people saying that there will always be that someone that you will always love and have a soft spot for. I never believed in that until it finally happened to me. This person means the world to me and at times I wonder what would I do without him??

Oh....here comes the weekend!!! I'm uber excited to meet mua bestie....can't wait, can't wait!!!!

Friday, September 20, 2013

Explore. Dream . Discover

I wanna fly away and discover the world...I wanna be a wanderer....The world has no limits and I can achieve all this by exploring the world!!!!

I need a holiday BADLY....yes another holiday again!!!

Life is too short...enjoyment brings longevity!!!

Hearts everyone ....

Wednesday, September 18, 2013


I have a new name.,...apparently it's the hip version of my name..

Only a bestie can give me weird names like this...:)

Simply in love!!

Swallow Tatts simply represents freedom, love and hope!!! Something very like me!!! Next??? Hmmmm......

Wednesday, September 11, 2013

My best friend's Wedding

Drinking much? Haha
A big shout out to this boy... Happy Birthday old man! A year older and wiser :) 26 is the year to finally learn to grow up. Glad you went back to studies...I'm proud of ya!

Sending my one long-distance hug....

Miss and love ya lots!!!

"best bff ever" - i know i am :)


Monday, August 05, 2013

Monday blues

Memory Mondays, Throwback Thursdays and Flashback Fridays......Ahhhh good times!!!!

Crazy times...

Train concert 1 year ago...

Bali Bali Bali.....I can't wait!!! Besties forever :)

Monday, July 29, 2013

Post holiday blues

-To Travel is to Live-

Traveling is like an addiction to me. It's like a cure to all sadness in the world.

Travel is the only thing you buy that makes you richer...*so true*

Anyways, I have a bunch of pictures from my recent  US trip but I would like to share a few which would probably sum up my whole 2 weeks adventure. It was swell and wicked!

Met up with good friends, made new ones and also probably found my true self along the way.

Soldier boy goes  - "Ms. Tay, are you doing alright?" every single time I put my glass down. We were bushwacked, fireballed and etc. What a night!  

Santa Monica Pier - reminds me of Private Practice

My poor Elvis all chained up along Broadway in Nashville
Gorgeous Belagio in Las Vegas all lit up at night!
Hollywood Walk of Fame with Tim Mcgraw
More wine please! Best tour ever to Napa Wine Valley
Another past time activity which all Americans go to - Baseball game!
My dearest dearest friends since we were standard 1

Perfect sum up of the epic trip!

Monday, June 24, 2013

Heart on wings

It's 9 days to the land of free!


I cannot help but to feel anxious about it! I was very excited but I guess as the days come nearer, I'm feeling more nervous.

What if I don't get to see him?


*finger crossed*

Thursday, June 06, 2013

Extraordinary Human

Woo hoo.....#27 days to USA!!!!

The Venetian Hotel Las Vegas ----- I can't wait :)

Travel in style and in luxury!

American Baseball game --- Badgers vs Giants ( Oh I so can't wait) *excited much*

It will be epic - I'm pretty sure it will be!!!!!


Thursday, May 23, 2013

Are you ok?

I've been struggling with a lot lately! I don't know what I should do or say....

The myriad of emotions I'm going through is just crazy!

I have to be strong for my friends! I cannot be weak and yet at times I just breakdown because I am only human and I too need someone to be there for me!

Countdown #40 days to US!

It's not a dream anymore....it's real!


Tuesday, May 07, 2013

Heart Attack

I know I cannot babysit him

I know he is a grown man

I know he is more than capable of taking care of himself

I know I will never be the one for him

.......but deep down I still care very much and I can't seem to let you go!

A Little Too Not Over You"

Oohhhh oh, oh..

It never crossed my mind at all.
It's what I tell myself.
What we had has come and gone.
You're better off with someone else.
It's for the best, I know it is.
But I see you.
Sometimes I try to hide
What I feel inside,
And I turn around.
You're with him now.
I just can't figure it out.

Tell me why you're so hard to forget.
Don't remind me, I'm not over it.
Tell me why I can't seem to face the truth.
I'm just a little too not over you.
Not over you....

Memories, supposed to fade.
What's wrong with my heart?
Shake it off, let it go.
Didn't think it'd be this hard.
Should be strong, movin' on.
But I see you.
Sometimes I try to hide
What I feel inside.
And I turn around,
You're with him now.
I just can't figure it out.

Tell me why you're so hard to forget.
Don't remind me, I'm not over it.
Tell me why I can't seem to face the truth.
I'm just a little too not over you.

Maybe I regret everything I said,
No way to take it all back, yeah...
Now I'm on my own..
How I let you go, I'll never understand.
I'll never understand, yeah, oohh..
Oohhh, oohhh, oohhhh..
Oohhh, ooohhhh, oohhh.

Tell me why you're so hard to forget.
Don't remind me, I'm not over it.
Tell me why I can't seem to face the truth.
I'm just a little too not over you.

Tell me why you're so hard to forget.
Don't remind me, I'm not over it.
Tell me why I can't seem to face the truth.
And I really don't know what to do.
I'm just a little too not over you.
Not over you, oohhh.. 
USA ----> 57 days!!!!! Woot woot

Monday, April 29, 2013

If I Lose Myself

Countdown 65 days to USA!!!!

Woot woot....

Uber excited!


Love it!

Only for someone worth it!

Friday, April 26, 2013

Shitty Day

I don't ever recall feeling this shitty! I also don't recall someone ever making me feel like this ever....

This effect is indescribable! The emotional turmoil is crazy! I feel betrayed, hurt, disappointment, pain...everything!

I can't believe I allowed myself to be this vulnerable. Now I feel like my heart has just broken into a million pieces. It's hard to not even think about it..

What have you done to me???!??

Thursday, April 18, 2013


Goshhhh......I gotta take the 21 days challenge more seriously! I can't give in just like this...


You have no idea how all this is making me feel....you absolutely have NO freaking idea do you?!?


Tuesday, April 16, 2013

Have some balls!!!!

Oh C'mmon....please just get your shit together and be a man!!!!

Gahhhh....men = fail!



Monday, April 15, 2013

Psychedelic Neon Retro Bash

I had an absolutely awesome time celebrating my birthday! Besides the vague memory of cutting my own cake and the lost Iphone scare, it was an EPIC night! Everyone has loadssss of fun and it was simply a memorable party nonetheless. Couldn't had done it without my gorgeous party planners - Amanda & Aida. Love y'all to bits! xoxoxo

79 days to US!!!!! Woot woot......

Thursday, April 11, 2013

Throwback Thursday

Seems like Yesterday

I just realized that it's the eyes!!! All the men that I like all have that same kind of eyes! I loveeeee those dreamy and droopy eyes :)

No wonder I'm crazy in love with Ryan Gosling!!!!


Friday, April 05, 2013

Flasback Friday

Ahhh.....Italy is my favourite country thus far after Brazil!! Still get can't it off my mind even though it has been 6 months since my visit. It still feels like yesterday! I simply love the scenery, the architecture, the people and even the food...

Gotta go back soon....seems like I just want to travel everywhere around the world :(

Next up USA in 89 days....Wooooo hooo I can't wait :)


Tuesday, April 02, 2013

NZ calling again.....

Woke up today feeling that I miss NZ too much! Should I go in December for Christmas? Hmmmm...

I'm so tempted.


Monday, April 01, 2013

Grow the F*#@ up!

Whatever happen happened in the past! By letting yourself in this state or having some phobias will only fuck up your next relationship! Being a commitment phobic is one thing but being a charmer and sweet talking girls into falling for you and then after leaving them hanging like this is simply NOT cool.

All I can say is move on and let it go! Don't keep this inside. It will eventually eat you up someday!

It's not like everyday you meet an awesome and perfect girl for you......

Oh well, it's your loss! What can I say?

You will grow old being lonely and by then it will be too late! I'm sorry buddy!

Thursday, March 28, 2013

Never say never

Have you ever felt like you've just known someone but yet feel like you've known them for like FOREVER?  This is exactly how I feel together with Robin, Garima & Aben! I'm so glad I got to know them and within such a short time we all hit it off like a house on fire :)

I miss them very much because after spending an entire week with them, I'm back to my daily routine now! At times it feels like I'm suffering from some sort of withdrawal symptoms. LOL!  

Can't wait to see Robin and Garima this Sat and have an epic birthday celebration for him. Double black on the way buddy!

Monday, March 25, 2013


Why I stop blogging about NZ / Auckland anymore is because perhaps there are just some memories of that place that can never be forgotten! Some of it just too painful! Don't get me wrong I love NZ and Auckland has literally become my 3rd home away from home after Brazil but sometimes I try to block all the memories I had there in order to be less hurt. Maybe it's about time I create some new memories of NZ. Doing the things I've always wanted to do ie: Bungy jumping, Sky diving etc.

I wanna visit places I've never been too ie: Wellington, Rotorua, Napier, Tauranga, Paihia, 99 mile beach, Whangarei etc.

At times I feel like I've wasted all my trips because I never really made good use of it. I guess I could be the champion visitor of all malls in Auckland? I've been to Sylvia Park, Westfield Manukau, Dressmart Onehunga, Albany Town Centre, Westfield Albany, Westgate Mall, Britomart, Newmarket, Takapuna....Wow seems like a lot! 

I've visited NZ 4 times now and I still find myself falling in love with that place over and over again every time I'm there.

Maybe I'll blog about my favourite places and restaurants that I've been...

Favourite chill out restaurant - Goode Brothers (Botany Town Centre, Auckland)
Favourite Brazilian restaurant - Wild Fire (Viaduct Harbour. The one in Takapuna really sux bigtime)
Favourite Ribs - Hell's Pizza
Favourite Pancake - Capers restaurant (Dunedin)
Favourite SteakHouse - Broncos Steak House (Manukau, Auckland)
Favourite Redneck-ish restaurant - Lone Star Restaurant
Favourite Brewery - Speight's
Favourite Burger - Fergburger (Queenstown)

Favourite Look out point - One Tree Hill (Auckland)
Favourite lake - Lake Tekapo
Favourite view - Milford Sound
Favourite Historical building - Dunedin Railway Station

Lisa, I know I promised you to return to NZ this year! We will see ok? Gahhh I need a sponsored trip!

Missing Marc too much




Wednesday, March 20, 2013


"PS how many days are we at now?"

"107 days. So are you counting down now?"

"No. I don't countdown until under 100.."

Yiiippppeeeeeee!!! It shall be a memorable trip with full of AMAZING & CRAZY stories to tell our grand kids 1 day. LOL.

Monday, March 18, 2013

Tuesday, March 12, 2013

Who are you?

Yay! It's official...Booked my flight tickets to see Uncle Sam!

I'm uber excited! Counting down 113 days....

4th July...fireworks....sales!!! :)

So looking forward to Future Music Festival Asia this weekend! It will be EPIC!!!!

and yes at times I look at you and I wonder who are you? Why do I even care...


Wednesday, March 06, 2013

Eu nunca amei alguem como te amei

It’s when you finally realize this one person is someone you can always and want to tell everything to, and you want to ask and know everything of him as well. It’s when you actually want to share your life and trust your secrets with this person; and you can. This someone is the first person you think of when you’re happy, sad or when something significant happens. This same person is someone you can call at 1am in the morning and they’d drop everything to make time for you, staying by you till the sun rises or you’re better again - as you would for him as well. This person cares and will listen. Will really listen, giving you their undivided attention and genuine love; not necessarily every time but any time you need him. This one person makes your problem their problem and they go through it together with you just so you don’t have to go through the pain and tears alone. 

I know this very person does exist in my life! 



Tuesday, March 05, 2013

Work hard, play hard and party hard

US visa...Yay!!!

Z: So fill me in. How it all went down?
V: I nailed it of course
Z: Ahh sweet cause u look like no terrorist!

So it's official! I'm going to US :)

I'm dead tired! So many things happened lately and I'm feeling down. I love the people around me and when shit happens to them it affects me! :(

On a another note, I don't want to be just awesome to you. No...lol

Well at least I did cheer you up today. The package arrived so timely when you are down! Glad you "love love love" your ikan bilis :)

Sunday, March 03, 2013

24 August

Today after 6 months, I stepped into a place I promised myself that I would never go back!

I couldn't breathe. Just sitting there made me uncomfortable. I never imagine that I could be so badly affected in this way. Memories.... Just too much!

I just wanted to run. I wanna run away from all this. The truth is I can hide my feelings but I can never run away from it!!

Just because you love someone doesn't mean you have to act on it!

"I miss u".....

 "I miss u too"....

Thursday, February 28, 2013

I knew you were trouble!!

Professional photo shoot for Company Profile :)

128 days to US and I'm really super excited that Amanda will be joining me in this trip :)

Crazy week at work but looking forward to the weekend for some girlie time with ma girls!


Monday, February 18, 2013

Blown away

Tequila is in our soul, in our songs, in our favourite men, its considered family!

Wednesday, February 06, 2013

Save me San Francisco

150 days to San Francisco, Los Angeles, Las Vegas & Tennessee!!!!!

but the trip would not be complete without visiting these precious people.....ain't going all the way to US and not seeing them...would be just a waste!!!


Monday, February 04, 2013


Viber call makes my day esp on a Monday!

So good to hear from him!!

In life some people are just meant to be together and some are meant to be just best friends!

I of course know which category I fall into. 

Can't wait 151 days to US!!!


Friday, February 01, 2013

These boots are made for walkin

154 countdown to US!

Visa application form done!

Visa application photo done!

Passport renewal photo done!

Now, i just got to renew my passport tomorrow then I can set an appointment with the US embassy and get my visa!

It's not that I'm anxious since I got lots of time to US...I'm worried of the waiting time to get the appointment and then the approval of the visa. I need to buy the air ticket quick in order to get a cheap ticket and in that way I can manage my expenses. After the paying for the visa which is RM520 which I've set aside I can fully concentrate on paying for the air ticket which is roughly RM4,200. After paying for all that I can then start saving for the trip itself. I think I need at least
RM6,000 say about USD 2,000 for just expenses.

Cowboy boots....sexy I can't wait!!!


Tuesday, January 22, 2013

I dreamed a dream

ROAD TRIP!!!!!!!

Yes we will!!!!!

Oh I can't wait!

Counting down 164 days~~~~

Tuesday, January 15, 2013

What you gonna do??

Marini's on 57....spectacular view :)

Who wakes you when the morning comes?
Who calls you every late night?
Who comforts you when you're in need?
And who always tries to treat you right?

Who gives you all he has to give?
And who would dedicate his heart to you?
Who fulfills all his promises?
And who sees the good in you?

Tell me, what you gonna do when I'm gone?
Oh, and where you gonna go when there's nobody home?
And who's gonna love you when you're all alone?

Tell me what you gonna do when I'm gone?
Yeah, what you gonna do when I'm gone?

I just wanna know

Who cries knowing you don't care?
And who worries what the future holds?
Who fears the road ahead?
And whose heart is turning into stone?

Who prays for your safe return?
And who misses you when you're away?
Who's tired of empty promises?
And who's tired of all the games you play?

Tell me, what you gonna do when I'm gone?
Oh, and where you gonna go when there's nobody home?
And whose gonna love you when you're all alone?

Tell me what you gonna do when I'm gone?

I just wanna know
What you gonna do, what you're gonna do
when I'm, when I'm gone

Tell me what you gonna do

Woah Oh Woah Oh

Tell me what you gonna do when I'm gone?
Oh, and where you gonna go when there's nobody home?
And who's gonna love you when you're all alone?
When you're all alone

Tell me what you gonna do when I'm gone?
Oh, what you gonna do when I'm gone?

I just wanna know
When I'm gone

When there's no one home
And you're all alone
Will you be just fine on your own?
Or will you cry when I'm gone?

I wanna know
I wanna know


(What you gonna do when I'm gone?)

Tell me what you gonna do when I'm gone?

Monday, January 14, 2013

What were we trying to do? I totally have no memory...

My lovely lovely gorgeous girls...muaaaaa

Self praise is no praise but I look amazing in this pic..LOL!

Drunken much? Just full of character :)

Brazilian BBQ King...Caio we will miss ya so much. Perhaps a trip to Papua New Guinea for a visit!!

Simply love this pic! Amanda you are gorgeous :)

Asnie, you are amazing and I love ya xx

There's always a plus point for being gorgeous! Met some Polish tourists last night at La Boca and we were the centre of attention :) Oh not to forget free round of Tequila Shots from them :) ....wait there's more....La Boca also gave us free rounds of Caipirinha shots and Brazilian Flag shots!!!!

Last night was just awesome! Who says girls can't have fun without the guys....xxx

I have the most amazing girls around and I'm so so blessed and I love you all very much!! xx