Wednesday, November 19, 2008

Lousy moments......

-19 November 2008
-Wednesday
-12.40 am

I'm still feeling lousy but of course much better compared to few days back.
Arggggg....how does one get rid of those kinda feelings inside? For sure I know I will never be able to get rid of it 100%. I just feel like chilling at home not doing anything. Lie in the whole day and laze at home. Unfortunately, I can't. Morning need to work then head off for dinner with Virata and gang at Cheras. It's gonna be another long and tiring day....:)
December isn't far off...finally my flight tickets are settled. The thing is I'm flying with Qantas and need to board the plane from Singapore and transit at Melbourne for freaking 10 hours then head off to Auckland. I'm still contemplating if I should actually get out of Melbourne Airport for some sight-seeing...hmmmmm? James-Auckland-Christchurch dieing to see you...Xoxox...
My name...Vera Tay if you say it fast it does sound like Virata actually.
Went clubbing last Sat at this superb club call twenty.one and Virata's friends were like ohh so finally we get to meet the girl who shares the same name as Virata.. *watever*

Tuesday, November 18, 2008

Shit happenssss....

-17 November 2008
-Monday
- 11.58 pm

When shit happens, no matter how and what we try to untangle the mess, it can never work so easily. As for me, I will take days, weeks, months before I eventually figure what I should do to clear this off my mind. I feel lousy, I feel happy, I feel excited, I feel down, I feel confused......
When I think about it, I feel happy, there is this glow in my face but deep down I doubt myself now. I'm unsure about everything I've plan. I never thought such a thing could happen to me. However, part me of never regretted it.
I can't stop thinking bout it till today. I wake up I ponder about it. I start to think maybe I shouldn't had done it or maybe I should have....I can only say that since stuff happened, we can only make the best out of it now. :)
Conclusion, at least for a moment, I felt different and had that tinge of happiness.
A burden is off my shoulder now....sigh of relieve!!!
LIFE still has to go on. It's difficult but I will pass it with flying colours

Ps: For those who loves watching Gossip Girl, FYI I love Dan Humphrey and Serena...
Certainly can't stand Chuck Bass..:)

Thursday, October 16, 2008

Crappy bus service

-16th October 2008
-Thursday
-11.22pm

Exhausted from such a tiring day. Today got really cheated by this stupid bus company named METRO bus. It all started when I decided to take the metro bus to college instead of my usual Rapid KL bus as I was catching the bus from Curve instead of 1U.
First event that shocked me was when I told the bus conductor my destination was KL central , immediately he said RM2.50. I was really shocked. The usual Rapid KL bus only charges RM2.00 for a whole day pass where else Metro's ticket is only Valid for a single trip. Nonetheless, I paid for the ticket without even trying to argue with him. No wonder Metro does not have as many passengers as compared to Rapid KL. Secondly,
on the way towards KL central, I over heard the bus conductor telling another passenger something like that they would bypass KL central's stop all together as it is very jammed during that hour. Next I knew, they took a short cut and stopped at Pasar Seni. I was so mad. Now, they charged me RM2.50 for going to Kl central and instead I had to go down at Pasar Seni and take a LRT to Kl central that cost me RM 1.00. All the hassle and instead of spending the usual RM 2.00 for transportation a day, I ended up spending RM 3.50 to go to college and another RM 2.10 to go home to Kelana Jaya as I was meeting my dad there.
Regarding Metro bus, I was furious. The promised destination was KL central and they dropped me off at Pasar Seni and I paid RM 2.50. That is really a breached of contract. How can they just tell the passengers that just because its jam so they would bypass that stop. They can't just act according to their wimps and fancy. I almost told the conductor off but because I was already running late I gave that a miss. So unreliable. Actually, before I even boarded the bus, I gave a thought whether I wanted to that the risk of taking Metro since they are so not reliable but like I because I was running late and afraid that the Rapid Bus would take some time thats why I took the risk...Never again....
For those who always takes METRO, I suggest you take Rapid KL in future as Metro is not only unreliable but they CHEATED me!!!! I feel so cheated!! Cheh.....

Tuesday, October 14, 2008

Sluggish & Lazy days

-14th October 2008
-Tuesday
-11.56 am

It's Tuesday & I feel so Saturdayish. Perhaps after taken a rest on Sunday and Monday, this is what happens. Feeling all lazy and dread the thought of going to college for Land and Trust tutorial and then Trust lectures. I have totally full schedule on Tuesdays which starts from 2.15pm to 3.45pm for Land tutorial, 4.00pm to 5.30pm for Trust tutorial, break 1 hour and finally 6.30pm to 9.30pm Trust lectures. What a tiring day ahead! Sigh.....
Just something happy to share. Just confirmed that instead of only going to Auckland,NZ to visit James, we've also planned to celebrate new years at Christchurch.
Well, since my best friends cousin lives over there, they actually invited us to visit the newly wed couple. I just can't wait. At first, I thought I would only be stuck in Auckland, North Island but now my dreams have come true and we will be able to fly in to the South Island as well. Eager for shopping, sigh-seeing, touring and of course spending Christmas and new years with my dear.
Of course before all this, lots of lectures and tutorials to overcome. I'm sure I can do it. Sometimes, just wish I had Hiro Nakamura's powers then I can bring myself to the future, make time go faster and even fly myself to NZ for free...haha.
I wouldn't need an air ticket of course...perhaps I need Mana too!!

Sunday, October 12, 2008

Meanigless, lifeless, clueless

-12th October 2008
-Sunday
-12.36pm

It's been 2 months and 10 days since James left for New Zealand. It has not been easy for me either. Times are bad I would say it. I would be emo, I cry, I think, I miss him so much. Sometimes I wonder what I have gotten myself into. Why did I get a bf whose work forces him to travel around the world? Why can't he find a job here? We have gotten into many many arguments regarding this sensitive issue. Well, we all know that its for the better of our future but there will always be a "BUT"...
Let me see, since we dated in 2005 till today, he has traveled to Hong Kong, China & Macau various times for 3 to 4 weeks each trip; Spend 2 months in Germany, France, Turkey, Kuwait, Iran & Togo(not sure if was same trip); 3 months in Spain & now finally in New Zealand for 6 months. He will only be back in End of January 2009 for Chinese New Year. Looks like he has traveled all the continents except for North & South America. Just so you know, he graduated from University of Queesland, Australia so count that continent in too.
Every single time he is away, everyday is like a thousand years. He has only been in NZ for over 2 months but it already felt like half a year. One very thing I have not been asking him everyday when we speak on the phone is "Dear, when will you be coming back?" or "faster come back can or not?" is because I will be flying over to NZ in December with compliments from my baby:). I just can't wait!!!
One thing I would like to highlight is he never seemed to fail me in coming back for special occasions. Last year, he managed to come back in time from HK for CNY 2007 in February and this year CNY 2008 from Spain. What's more romantic is he gave me a surprise by coming back exactly on my birthday this April from China though he was very busy with a project there. There were many times I fell for the surprise when he said he was coming back in a week when actual truth he was at the airport flying back home. In many ways, he has flaws as we are just human beings but most of all since I chose to be with him, I will love him for who he is and not what he is. I was watching A walk to Remember ( I know its super old movie but I only got to watch it now as I managed to download it) just the other day and I came across a line in the movie which caught my attention..." Love is like the wind, we can't see it but we can very well feel it"---something to that effect lah. Awwwww....so romantic. Just love it!!!
Well, as a friend just commented...long distance relationships keeps the heart stronger..just like absence makes the heart grow fonder. Haha...I hope its true.

Saturday, August 30, 2008

I need a holie....

-30th August 2008-
-Saturday
12.12 am

So...finally after making all those frantic calls to the college, I eventually got my results via online. 28th August---After watching The Happening on my lappie, I decided that i should sleep early since I have to wake up at 7am for work at 8am. By then, it was around 12.30am almost 1 am. Suddenly...
*Maria...oh beng Maria....*
Me: looks at phone, unfamiliar number, however picks up call.
EM: Vera..our results are out. Can check online ad.
Me: Stunned and shocked...*Speechless*..Where? Where?
EM: Go to email and from there click on the london external link and key in registration number, examination number and birth date. Besides, A & J also passed.
ME: Frantically switching on lappie, connectin to internet is another issue *Curi line neighbour*..Lord Forgive me!!
ME: Ok...will check and let you know later. Bye and thanks
Me: Calls A and congratulated her.
A: "Faster check your results....I wanna know.
Me: Yeah, wait awhile..internet connecting sux..besides, I donno where is my examination docket..
After searching high and low *5 minutes later*..
A: okok....quickly check and key in.
A & ME : *Impatiently waiting for details to upload* swt
As the page loaded, I only managed to see the word PASSED before I even saw the individual results for all 4 subjects.
ME:*Screaming & shouting*....1.15am *sorry Esther(House mate)
A: Congratulations ya..*Both excited*
Talked for awhile then said our good nights.

Overall results I was shocked. I didn't expect to pass my public law paper. Nevertheless, my unexpected results really kicked in after I called my dad. I thought could have done better in CLR instead I only got 43 for it and also my Public. I was disappointed with my CLR results as I really studied what Mr. Rajasingham predicted and as true as it was..the questions really came out and I felt I did well for that paper..Sigh..As for public, I already predicted I would fail but praise the Lord I managed to scrapped through.
Contract has always been my strongest subject yet during the exam I felt otherwise. I wasn't sure and did not have confidence in how I answered the paper. Even so I got 50 marks...ok la. Lastly, Super shocker was criminal. I did answer all 4 questions but it was simply vague. Well, second highest of all papers..I got 48 for it. Crap lah...I know I can never be a Karpal Singh!!
Well, at least be thankful I passed and now looking forward to 1st year. I know its not gonna be easy so I have to really work my ass off as 1st and 2nd year results will be taken into account for my whole degree.
Having a great weekend ahead in peace and relieved...Might be getting my NZ trip end of the year as promise by my baby if I passed my exams as currently he is there on work. Can't simply wait till then...

Saturday, May 10, 2008

Turn the left cheek.......

-10th May 2008
-Saturday
-6.28pm

Exams exams exams....Argg just round the corner! Its actually in another 11 days! Been studying a lot but lately I've gone into a "Slumber" mood! I feel exhausted all the time and my migraine keeps coming back. I guess its just pre - examinations syndrome(PES). Haha. I just pray and hope that exams will turn out ok and that I do not have to repeat my papers next year. Gosh, I'm 22 already and if I have to repeat my papers again all the years, I think by the time I'm 26 I won't even be done with my law degree.
Lately, for no particular reason I've this dream of becoming a MP. I guess RPK ( Raja Petra Kamaruddin) has made me realised that one can make a difference in our country.
I really admire and look highly upon him coz this guy doesn't even have a University degree. Nevertheless, his writing skills and sarcastic remarks on his blog are just beyond words to describe. Oh yeah, lately, James has been visiting me quite often as he flies a lots lately to China. He is always on the go. As per James" I live on a suitcase". As for me, I feel like a widow..haha. A lonely Gf as my bf is always not around. Well, I guess if I want to be his gf then I have to accept the fact that this is the nature of his job.
Criminal law keeps ringing in my head...all the cases, Cox V Riley, DPP V Kay, DPP V Newbury & Jones....arggggg! Gosh, I'm going mad! Even in my sleep I can recite them
God, give me strength! Amen

Monday, February 18, 2008

Valentine's Day...D-Day

-18th February 2008
-Monday
-12.11 am

Sorry again to my friends who actually takes interest in my blog for taking so long to come out with another post. I've been struggling to get a stabble internet connection to the extend of actually trying to curi internet connection from my neighbours(shhhhhh). So that's why I'm always slow in posting a new post. Do forgive me ya peeps.

Last week was first week of classes after the CNY holidays. I was really looking forward to it as I thought my Panda will be coming up to celebrate Valentine's Day with me.(BTW, my panda is back from Spain and is now back in our hometown, Melaka) Well, before I came up to KL last Monday, he promised me that he will be up sometime that week. I was so full of excitement as I really relied on his promise. To cut a long story short, he never turned up. I was sad indeed but actually I was disappointed more than anything else. I wouldn't be so disappointed if he just told me straight to the face that he couldn't make it due to reasons blah blah blah but in fact, I had to ask and feel more disappointed myself.

1) I'm a girl who loves to receive flowers on any type of occassion be it Valentine's Day itself:). Unfortunately, I have a bf who thinks that flowers are a waste of money and doesn't see a point in getting them (Minimize cost) for me unless like he says.."if we have extra money" . Well, a stalk of rose on normal days whould just cost around RM3.00 and for that price you get to make your gf happy. Isn't that well worth your money? I didn't ask for like 999 stalks of roses. A stalk will totally make my day.

2)Come to think about it, I've never celebrated Valentine's day with my Panda before. Not even once. For the 3 years we've been together, I can't quite recall what reasons we had but we've always failed to celebrate it. This year of course you can clearly see why he couldn't make it to celebrate with me(work). Last year, was of course work again(Hong Kong)but fortunately what saved his ass was the swaroszki crystal cross pendant he bought for me which cost HKD 600 which means RM 300. The year before last, I seriously can't quite remember.

3)I've tried to convince myself that Valentine's Day is just a date and that we can celebrate it any day as to us couples who are competely in love, Valentine's Day is everyday .."Love is in the air"! But, I just can't come to terms that it is still a a special day where couples go out to celebrate where they have a nice meal, receive flowers and nice presents. Maybe I'm being very idealistic. Perhaps, I've been brainwashed by all those Valentine's Day adverts and propagandas where people think of Valentine's Day as a day to earn money. As a girl, I think any girl would agree with me that it is still a nice feeling to receive something from the one you love. Unfortunately again, I have a very pragmatic bf who says that presents are only given when we have extra money to buy it and if we buy a present when we don't have the extra money, what are we gonna live on for the rest of the month. I see his point but STILL.....can save what right?

So, that was my perfect V-Day. Fortunately, my best friend being single of course made up to my super sad day by treating me to Chilis at 1 Utama. We had a great time. We had a fajita combo and a caesar salad. To end the "Perfect" day, our dessert was strawberry and mash mallows dipped in a chocolate fountain. We were walking around the concourse area and the chocolate exhabition just caught our eye. We just couldn't resist not having them in our mouth. Hehe.

Anyway, I'm looking forward to this week again as my Panda PROMISED to make it up to me by coming up. Coincidently, I have no Criminal class this Wed and Thursday so just as well, I can spend more time with him. I'm just so excited. I just hope he doesn't fail me again.