-25th January 2008-
-Saturday
-6.10 pm
Yeah....baby, it's been ages since I last updated. It's been depressing lately without you around. I could be envious of you just because you are in Spain having a good time( Working). The truth is I just miss you alot. Your smile, your laughter, your stupid yet entertaining jokes*Sowie*, your stories about your IT gadgets, your smell, your hugs, your kisses, your touch...everything about you I just miss! Enough said! My rambling, my ranting about you coming back quickly sometimes just gets the better of me. I'm sorry if I kept complaining about you being far away from me and I know without fail you will just calmly tell me that You still love me and try all ways to comfort me during my emo times. Thanks baby!
As I read EJ's blog post, I was terribly reminded of my own funny characteristics and idiosyncrasies. Sometimes, when we gossip about others, there is always this chilling thought that perhaps one day somebody might be doing the same thing to me. Eg: "Oh, I just can't stand the way she speaks with that funny accent"..thank god I have no accent when I speak, or " My God, she looks so fat wearing that lil dress of hers plus I think she just doesn't have any sense of dressing" or worst case scenario, " I can't believe she is so bitchy and ignorant in class". I always believe the saying," Where they is human, there ought to be gossip".
I'm not sure how my friends think about me. I've heard enough of what SOMEBODY in my college tried to do by gossiping and back stabbing me to her bunch of friends who eventually became my good friends. She can say what she wants as they are just a bunch of bull s**t. I don't know what inspired her to do so but who cares as long my friends know that I'm not that sort of person and that I'm sincere in my friendships.
I know I'm not perfect...(seriously, I have so many bad habits and characteristics that you can't even imagine.
My dad's favourite quote goes like this....
" I wonder how James can tolerate you?" or
" If you don't change, James and your friends will eventually leave you"
I've began to change slowly in many ways...thank god for James who patiently thought me and guided me. Baby, I know currently your patient is at low peak but please be patient with me ok. You know I'm not good at controlling and couping with my feelings. I'm like this emotional bug who is so needy all the time. At times, I just question myself how can I be not so clingy and needy. Gosh, I'm a pest in the eyes of my bf!
So, I just can't wait to see my uncle(bf)..sowie nicknamed by my college mates. I've been waiting these four months for your return from Spain and finally my wait has arrived.
Home sweet home baby!!!!*winkz*
Monday, November 26, 2007
Tuesday, August 21, 2007
*A new beginning*
-21-08-2007
-Tuesday
-3.18pm
Life is such an unpredictable event in the chapter of our daily lives. Things come and go and sometimes we don't even know what might happen next. Our ignorance tends to lead us to our fall and unpredictable things naturally turns to become predictable events. 2 weeks back, I suffered a terrible breakup but yet he patched things back and asked me to give him another chance. Actually we both agreed to work and talk things out in future. Deep down during our talk, I was willing to let everything go and let him make the decision. Suddenly I was having all sorts of feelings eg: fear, disappointment, hurt, angry, sad....generally I was having mix feelings. On one hand, I wasn't willing to let him go but on the other hand, I was afraid of getting hurt again. Promises aren't promises that I used to know anymore. Promises can be broken and all we have to say is a SORRY!
Anyway, for us it's a new beginning, a new love life and a new hair cut for me :)
When I had long hair, I always wanted to perm and dye my hair but in the end, I got bored waiting and decided to just cut it off. I got a Rihanna look alike bob hairstyle...the most in hairstyle at the moment. Dyed my hair but didn't come out the way I wanted it to be so I guess the coming month I'll dye once again and this time highlight it also.*grinz* Some people say I look like a young school girl:( but some say I look fresh and nice. I just wanted a changed. That's all!
-Tuesday
-3.18pm
Life is such an unpredictable event in the chapter of our daily lives. Things come and go and sometimes we don't even know what might happen next. Our ignorance tends to lead us to our fall and unpredictable things naturally turns to become predictable events. 2 weeks back, I suffered a terrible breakup but yet he patched things back and asked me to give him another chance. Actually we both agreed to work and talk things out in future. Deep down during our talk, I was willing to let everything go and let him make the decision. Suddenly I was having all sorts of feelings eg: fear, disappointment, hurt, angry, sad....generally I was having mix feelings. On one hand, I wasn't willing to let him go but on the other hand, I was afraid of getting hurt again. Promises aren't promises that I used to know anymore. Promises can be broken and all we have to say is a SORRY!
Anyway, for us it's a new beginning, a new love life and a new hair cut for me :)
When I had long hair, I always wanted to perm and dye my hair but in the end, I got bored waiting and decided to just cut it off. I got a Rihanna look alike bob hairstyle...the most in hairstyle at the moment. Dyed my hair but didn't come out the way I wanted it to be so I guess the coming month I'll dye once again and this time highlight it also.*grinz* Some people say I look like a young school girl:( but some say I look fresh and nice. I just wanted a changed. That's all!
Thursday, August 02, 2007
Vera in Latin means "THE TRUTH"
-02-08-2007-
-Thursday-
-12.09 am
Found this link while reading a friends blog...Interesting!! If everything stated above were true, I'll be the perfect gf any guy would go after. okok...except the naive and insane part of course. Haha...
-Thursday-
-12.09 am
| What Vera Tay Jin Mei Means |
V is for Virile E is for Enlightened R is for Romantic A is for Articulate T is for Tender A is for Active Y is for Yummy J is for Joyous I is for Intelligent N is for Naive M is for Musical E is for Extraordinary I is for Insane |
Found this link while reading a friends blog...Interesting!! If everything stated above were true, I'll be the perfect gf any guy would go after. okok...except the naive and insane part of course. Haha...
Wednesday, August 01, 2007
From a guys perspective.....
-01-08-2007
-Wednesday-
-11.42pm
My Own Worst Enemy
I was annoyed when she kept calling me everyday, wanting to chat for hours. Yeah, she was persistent alright, she wanted me to spend some time on the phone with her as frequent as possible. I was irritated when she wanted me to keep on SMSing her every now and then, most of all, before I sleep and when I get up in the morning. Those were the times when I was far away from her. It happens every time I'm away from her.
Geez, it seemed so much like a routine to me already. It felt like I was in an office, with the boss wanting to monitor my every move that I have to report on my daily activities, or perhaps clock in and out. It was okay initially, but then it soon became a burden, a bother to me. I didn't like the idea of how she wants me to make it a point to inform her of my wellbeing everyday.
At one point, my patience ran out, and I snapped at her. I began SMSing her lesser and lesser everyday. I didn't even bother calling her, and when she called me, I turned her down. She would complain on why I wasn't SMSing her anymore, and questioned how important she was to me. And at that time, sadly, all I heard was bla bla bla, the end. I was busy with my friends, I hung out every day and night, with my busy schedule of activities.
Somehow I didn't see the need of contacting her that frequent, and I felt that she should think the same way too. I could go on for 3 to 4 days without any conversation with her at all, as I was too busy to even spare a thought about her. I was having so much fun, that she didn't even came across my mind, not even for a second.
I remember how she'd call me when I'm out with my friends, busy chatting and eating with them. She was trying to have a short but lovely conversation with me. But I felt irritated instead.... I chatted with her for a bit and then insisted that we hung up cos I wanted to get back to my friends. Then she begged me to talk just for a litle bit more, just that little bit more, so she can hear my voice and make herself happy. And you know what? I said no.... I said things to her, sentences, words that at that point, I didn't realize how hurtful they were. Yes, I said those...
"Nah, lets just talk tomorrow okay? U call me everyday anyway. Lets just continue tomorrow"
"I'm with my friends now, and I'm in the middle of a conversation with them, so I'd better get back to them okay."
"We can always talk tomorrow okay? Why are u so irritating? Moreover, this is only temporary, and when I get back there, you'll be so sick of me eventually!"
"Look, u're really getting on my nerves now. Dont you have friends as well? Go hang out with them or something okay? I've got my friends here, and it's rude to leave them for too long."
"Would you just hang up and stop bothering me? I need my space here okay, and u're definitely not giving me that. This is the only time I can really spend time with my friends, and when I get back, it'll be only you for the next 6 months!"
"Hey, why dont you do yourself a favor and go get a life man!"
"You want me to SMS you every damn minute or so, and when I don't reply, you'll call me and ask why. I find you very annoying you know that? Dont you have anything better to do?"
And all she could say was
"Dear.... just a little longer please...? I just wanna hear your voice for a while more. It makes me so happy, cos I miss you so much. Let me talk to you for a little longer okay? So that I can sleep tonight. Please dear? Please......"
She'd say those words again and again, begging me to prolong our conversation, even to the point where she broke down and wept pitifully. She cried begging me just to talk to her for a bit more, and yet I kept saying no to her, kept insisting that we hung up. At some point, I began to cut her off just like that. Then she'd call back, countless times..... just for me to reject her calls over and over again. I didn't realize what I've done, all the way, even after we ended.
Then when I got back, I got to know that she had spent a few hundred dollars on her phone bills itself. She paid it all through her meagrely small salary, which she saved up every month from working so hard on weekends. I could not believe what I saw... I could not believe the fact that she was willing to give so much for me, so much just to hear my voice. And what did I do in return???? I fuckin hurt her with my ignorance, with my mean words that I always seem to cleverly compose just to put her down. And what's worse, was that I didn't even realize what I've done!! Fuck !!!!
Over these past few days, things happened, and I spent a lot of time alone, just thinking. I finally realized..... what an asshole I was. What a jerk I was to her. I couldn't believe I said those things. I finally put myself in her shoes, and realized how hurtful it was to hear those words from someone you love so much. I realized a lot of things. I felt what she felt, that's all I can say.
I can now say, that it really stabs you when you miss someone so much, but yet that person don't seem to give a toss about you. Then you end up feeling lost and confused, on whether or not that thing called LOVE and SIGNIFICANCE still exists between you both. You start to question where you stand in their life. You feel like a fresh piece of shit. You feel so damn small, waiting by their feet, but yet they avoid you, cos u're a just a piece of shit anyway.
I know for sure now.... that it cuts so deep that it bleeds when you try so hard to call someone, blowing your phone bills just for the satisfaction of hearing their voice, only to find yourself being shoved away, brushed away. And worse.... being put down, by words that you wished you'd never wanted to hear, especially from them whom you loved so much.
I finally know how it feels.... to be treated like a huge fuckin pile of trash....
I was the biggest jerk ever, I admit, and nothing that I do now could change what I've done. That part of my life is called: Being an Asshole. A complete Asshole. Nothing more.
God, today I've realized a very significant mistake of my past. I've realized that what I did has brought so much pain to someone. I've realized that I kept blaming her for being 'inconvenient' to me, where all along, it was me who needed some correction.
I know I can't change the past..... but now that I'm with another person, I want to change. I wanna make sure she wont ever hear me say those words. I wanna make sure she gets all that I've failed to give in the past relationships.
Dear God... starting today, I promise I'll love her so much more that I can ever love someone, and believe me, that I'm constantly striving to treat her right, trying to be the best for her. And if I'm gonna have to end up falling hard over and over again, then so be it. I expect nothing in return from her.
So could You ever forgive me, for all the wrong things I've done before.....?
Could You?
I am my own worst enemy.
Enough said.....
Enough now.
This was written by a guy friend of mine and I can say that I cried after reading it. I can totally connect to it as I am totally the same as the girl in it and the guy is just like my guy. Well, most guys always feel that we girls are very irritating and blah blah blah. This just shows how much we sacrifice out of love. We sacrifice our time, money and it drains us mentally, physically and emotionally. It will be unfair to say the guys are not doing their part but well, to be honest, most of the time we girls put more effort into a relationship. One thing I'm very proud to say that at least my guy friend actually reflected on what he said and did to his girl. I wish my guy actually gave a thought to everything I did for him. I wished he appreciated and loved me as much as how I showed my love to him. I just hope this will give him a nudge!!! LOL! Truthfully, on the other hand I've began to realized that I actually gave him too much pressure and maybe I treated him like as if he was in a army boot camp and that he must report to me his entire schedule for the day. If my guy friend didn't give the illustration of the part where he felt like if he was being monitored by his boss in the office, It wouldn't have hit me so much on the head that I was exactly like that. I'm so sorry that I actually treated you like this. It never really struck me that I was capable of doing things that were just slowly pushing you away from me. Please forgive me!
My sadness, my madness, I'm my own saviour!!!!
-Wednesday-
-11.42pm
My Own Worst Enemy
I was annoyed when she kept calling me everyday, wanting to chat for hours. Yeah, she was persistent alright, she wanted me to spend some time on the phone with her as frequent as possible. I was irritated when she wanted me to keep on SMSing her every now and then, most of all, before I sleep and when I get up in the morning. Those were the times when I was far away from her. It happens every time I'm away from her.
Geez, it seemed so much like a routine to me already. It felt like I was in an office, with the boss wanting to monitor my every move that I have to report on my daily activities, or perhaps clock in and out. It was okay initially, but then it soon became a burden, a bother to me. I didn't like the idea of how she wants me to make it a point to inform her of my wellbeing everyday.
At one point, my patience ran out, and I snapped at her. I began SMSing her lesser and lesser everyday. I didn't even bother calling her, and when she called me, I turned her down. She would complain on why I wasn't SMSing her anymore, and questioned how important she was to me. And at that time, sadly, all I heard was bla bla bla, the end. I was busy with my friends, I hung out every day and night, with my busy schedule of activities.
Somehow I didn't see the need of contacting her that frequent, and I felt that she should think the same way too. I could go on for 3 to 4 days without any conversation with her at all, as I was too busy to even spare a thought about her. I was having so much fun, that she didn't even came across my mind, not even for a second.
I remember how she'd call me when I'm out with my friends, busy chatting and eating with them. She was trying to have a short but lovely conversation with me. But I felt irritated instead.... I chatted with her for a bit and then insisted that we hung up cos I wanted to get back to my friends. Then she begged me to talk just for a litle bit more, just that little bit more, so she can hear my voice and make herself happy. And you know what? I said no.... I said things to her, sentences, words that at that point, I didn't realize how hurtful they were. Yes, I said those...
"Nah, lets just talk tomorrow okay? U call me everyday anyway. Lets just continue tomorrow"
"I'm with my friends now, and I'm in the middle of a conversation with them, so I'd better get back to them okay."
"We can always talk tomorrow okay? Why are u so irritating? Moreover, this is only temporary, and when I get back there, you'll be so sick of me eventually!"
"Look, u're really getting on my nerves now. Dont you have friends as well? Go hang out with them or something okay? I've got my friends here, and it's rude to leave them for too long."
"Would you just hang up and stop bothering me? I need my space here okay, and u're definitely not giving me that. This is the only time I can really spend time with my friends, and when I get back, it'll be only you for the next 6 months!"
"Hey, why dont you do yourself a favor and go get a life man!"
"You want me to SMS you every damn minute or so, and when I don't reply, you'll call me and ask why. I find you very annoying you know that? Dont you have anything better to do?"
And all she could say was
"Dear.... just a little longer please...? I just wanna hear your voice for a while more. It makes me so happy, cos I miss you so much. Let me talk to you for a little longer okay? So that I can sleep tonight. Please dear? Please......"
She'd say those words again and again, begging me to prolong our conversation, even to the point where she broke down and wept pitifully. She cried begging me just to talk to her for a bit more, and yet I kept saying no to her, kept insisting that we hung up. At some point, I began to cut her off just like that. Then she'd call back, countless times..... just for me to reject her calls over and over again. I didn't realize what I've done, all the way, even after we ended.
Then when I got back, I got to know that she had spent a few hundred dollars on her phone bills itself. She paid it all through her meagrely small salary, which she saved up every month from working so hard on weekends. I could not believe what I saw... I could not believe the fact that she was willing to give so much for me, so much just to hear my voice. And what did I do in return???? I fuckin hurt her with my ignorance, with my mean words that I always seem to cleverly compose just to put her down. And what's worse, was that I didn't even realize what I've done!! Fuck !!!!
Over these past few days, things happened, and I spent a lot of time alone, just thinking. I finally realized..... what an asshole I was. What a jerk I was to her. I couldn't believe I said those things. I finally put myself in her shoes, and realized how hurtful it was to hear those words from someone you love so much. I realized a lot of things. I felt what she felt, that's all I can say.
I can now say, that it really stabs you when you miss someone so much, but yet that person don't seem to give a toss about you. Then you end up feeling lost and confused, on whether or not that thing called LOVE and SIGNIFICANCE still exists between you both. You start to question where you stand in their life. You feel like a fresh piece of shit. You feel so damn small, waiting by their feet, but yet they avoid you, cos u're a just a piece of shit anyway.
I know for sure now.... that it cuts so deep that it bleeds when you try so hard to call someone, blowing your phone bills just for the satisfaction of hearing their voice, only to find yourself being shoved away, brushed away. And worse.... being put down, by words that you wished you'd never wanted to hear, especially from them whom you loved so much.
I finally know how it feels.... to be treated like a huge fuckin pile of trash....
I was the biggest jerk ever, I admit, and nothing that I do now could change what I've done. That part of my life is called: Being an Asshole. A complete Asshole. Nothing more.
God, today I've realized a very significant mistake of my past. I've realized that what I did has brought so much pain to someone. I've realized that I kept blaming her for being 'inconvenient' to me, where all along, it was me who needed some correction.
I know I can't change the past..... but now that I'm with another person, I want to change. I wanna make sure she wont ever hear me say those words. I wanna make sure she gets all that I've failed to give in the past relationships.
Dear God... starting today, I promise I'll love her so much more that I can ever love someone, and believe me, that I'm constantly striving to treat her right, trying to be the best for her. And if I'm gonna have to end up falling hard over and over again, then so be it. I expect nothing in return from her.
So could You ever forgive me, for all the wrong things I've done before.....?
Could You?
I am my own worst enemy.
Enough said.....
Enough now.
This was written by a guy friend of mine and I can say that I cried after reading it. I can totally connect to it as I am totally the same as the girl in it and the guy is just like my guy. Well, most guys always feel that we girls are very irritating and blah blah blah. This just shows how much we sacrifice out of love. We sacrifice our time, money and it drains us mentally, physically and emotionally. It will be unfair to say the guys are not doing their part but well, to be honest, most of the time we girls put more effort into a relationship. One thing I'm very proud to say that at least my guy friend actually reflected on what he said and did to his girl. I wish my guy actually gave a thought to everything I did for him. I wished he appreciated and loved me as much as how I showed my love to him. I just hope this will give him a nudge!!! LOL! Truthfully, on the other hand I've began to realized that I actually gave him too much pressure and maybe I treated him like as if he was in a army boot camp and that he must report to me his entire schedule for the day. If my guy friend didn't give the illustration of the part where he felt like if he was being monitored by his boss in the office, It wouldn't have hit me so much on the head that I was exactly like that. I'm so sorry that I actually treated you like this. It never really struck me that I was capable of doing things that were just slowly pushing you away from me. Please forgive me!
My sadness, my madness, I'm my own saviour!!!!
Tuesday, July 31, 2007
200 pounds beauty....a natural beauty
-31-07-2007-
-Tuesday-
8.45pm
Synopsis
Han-Na is a very big girl with a warm heart. She is also gifted with an unbelievable voice from God. Han-Na has always wanted to be a pop-singer, but due to her appearance, could only work as a faceless singer. She provides the vocals for a popular singer named Ami, a beautiful young lady that can’t carry a note to save her life.
Also, Han-Na is in love with Ami’s music producer, Sang-June, but it is a one-sided love. One day, Han-Na is invited to Sang-June’s birthday party and receives a red dress from him to wear to his party. Han-Na is excited, yet scared. The dress is revealing and quite extravagant. With her very large figure, she is not sure if she could wear such an outfit. She does eventually go to the birthday party in the red dress, but is mortified when petite Ami appears in the same red dress. During the course of the birthday party, Han-Na absorbs more emotional trauma and she simply disappears……..
One year later, after Han-Na’s extreme makeover (major plastic surgery), Han-Na takes on a new identity and becomes Jenny. Jenny has a near perfect body and face. Nobody recognizes her, even her best friend. Meanwhile, the producer Sang-Jung is searching for a replacement singer for Ami, but can’t find anyone close to the talents of Han-na. Han-na as Jenny, now comes back into the picture and auditions for the job. Sang-Jung is immediately floored by her. She has the absolute beauty and that stunning voice. Soon afterwards, her dream that Sung-June will fall in love with her, is about to come true. Unfortunately, Ami is now jealous of her and feels threatened by her sudden success. She researches into Jenny’s background and comes up with the truth about her true identity.
Will this ruin Jenny’s career?
I love the soundtracks from this movie...eg: All songs that I like are sang by Kim Ah Joong eg: Star(Byul), Maria and I'm a beautiful girl. I can really connect with this movie as Han-na is just like me desperately wanting to loose weight who eventually succeeded in doing so. I have managed to loose quite a bit of weight recently and I feel totally happy and delighted by it. I too wish I had the body of Han-na after her surgery...Super Sexy!
I have uploaded the Music Video of the song star(Byul) by Kim Ah Joong here and I hope you guys will enjoy. It's so touching it made me cry. Attached here is also the Lyrics....
Kim Ah Joong-Star(Byul)
param gyeoli changeul heundeulgo
nae gimalhan jakeun nawei pan weouro
areumduphge byulbijdeureul
kadeul chaewojuneyo
malhi aphahajimah
nalkkok aneunchae dadokyojumyeo
jakjara weouro haejuneyo
keodji mothalmankkeum himekyeowon aphawado
nunmuli apeul karyeowado
kajjimothal nae sarang aphedo nan useullaeyo
jamshimado kyeote haengboghattdeon giogdeureul
kashime kanjig halkeyo
du nune suno najin jeobyuldeul
cheoreom yeongwonhi
English Translation
the wind is shaking the windows,and over my small room,
the stars fill up the sky, shining brightly too many to count,
the stars reassure tired me
they wipe away the many tears that are deep inside me
don’t be hurt too much..they hug me tight and pamper me
and comfort me,
telling me to go to sleep
though I’m exhausted to the point where I can’t walk
though my tears blur my vision
I’ll still smile in front of my love that I’m not able to get
Even though our happy times were short, I’ll treasure it deep inside my heart
like those countless number of stars, forever
My dream is coming. though it is unusual that my one star is bright
it is very bright, even blinding..it comes down to my shoulder
stop being so sad..it holds my hand as it touches me
and gives me a warm hug
though I’m exhausted to the point where I can’t walkthough my tears blur my vision
I’ll still smile in front of my love that I’m not able to get
Even though our happy times were short, I’ll treasure it deep inside my heart
like those countless number of stars, forever
Only for today, I won’t cry though my eyes fill with tears
I want to laugh like those stars
Oh~ I want to cherish all my happy moments deep inside my heart
Like those countless number of stars, forever
-Tuesday-
8.45pm
Synopsis
Han-Na is a very big girl with a warm heart. She is also gifted with an unbelievable voice from God. Han-Na has always wanted to be a pop-singer, but due to her appearance, could only work as a faceless singer. She provides the vocals for a popular singer named Ami, a beautiful young lady that can’t carry a note to save her life.
Also, Han-Na is in love with Ami’s music producer, Sang-June, but it is a one-sided love. One day, Han-Na is invited to Sang-June’s birthday party and receives a red dress from him to wear to his party. Han-Na is excited, yet scared. The dress is revealing and quite extravagant. With her very large figure, she is not sure if she could wear such an outfit. She does eventually go to the birthday party in the red dress, but is mortified when petite Ami appears in the same red dress. During the course of the birthday party, Han-Na absorbs more emotional trauma and she simply disappears……..
One year later, after Han-Na’s extreme makeover (major plastic surgery), Han-Na takes on a new identity and becomes Jenny. Jenny has a near perfect body and face. Nobody recognizes her, even her best friend. Meanwhile, the producer Sang-Jung is searching for a replacement singer for Ami, but can’t find anyone close to the talents of Han-na. Han-na as Jenny, now comes back into the picture and auditions for the job. Sang-Jung is immediately floored by her. She has the absolute beauty and that stunning voice. Soon afterwards, her dream that Sung-June will fall in love with her, is about to come true. Unfortunately, Ami is now jealous of her and feels threatened by her sudden success. She researches into Jenny’s background and comes up with the truth about her true identity.Will this ruin Jenny’s career?
I love the soundtracks from this movie...eg: All songs that I like are sang by Kim Ah Joong eg: Star(Byul), Maria and I'm a beautiful girl. I can really connect with this movie as Han-na is just like me desperately wanting to loose weight who eventually succeeded in doing so. I have managed to loose quite a bit of weight recently and I feel totally happy and delighted by it. I too wish I had the body of Han-na after her surgery...Super Sexy!
I have uploaded the Music Video of the song star(Byul) by Kim Ah Joong here and I hope you guys will enjoy. It's so touching it made me cry. Attached here is also the Lyrics....
Kim Ah Joong-Star(Byul)
param gyeoli changeul heundeulgo
nae gimalhan jakeun nawei pan weouro
areumduphge byulbijdeureul
kadeul chaewojuneyo
malhi aphahajimah
nalkkok aneunchae dadokyojumyeo
jakjara weouro haejuneyo
keodji mothalmankkeum himekyeowon aphawado
nunmuli apeul karyeowado
kajjimothal nae sarang aphedo nan useullaeyo
jamshimado kyeote haengboghattdeon giogdeureul
kashime kanjig halkeyo
du nune suno najin jeobyuldeul
cheoreom yeongwonhi
English Translation
the wind is shaking the windows,and over my small room,
the stars fill up the sky, shining brightly too many to count,
the stars reassure tired me
they wipe away the many tears that are deep inside me
don’t be hurt too much..they hug me tight and pamper me
and comfort me,
telling me to go to sleep
though I’m exhausted to the point where I can’t walk
though my tears blur my vision
I’ll still smile in front of my love that I’m not able to get
Even though our happy times were short, I’ll treasure it deep inside my heart
like those countless number of stars, forever
My dream is coming. though it is unusual that my one star is bright
it is very bright, even blinding..it comes down to my shoulder
stop being so sad..it holds my hand as it touches me
and gives me a warm hug
though I’m exhausted to the point where I can’t walkthough my tears blur my vision
I’ll still smile in front of my love that I’m not able to get
Even though our happy times were short, I’ll treasure it deep inside my heart
like those countless number of stars, forever
Only for today, I won’t cry though my eyes fill with tears
I want to laugh like those stars
Oh~ I want to cherish all my happy moments deep inside my heart
Like those countless number of stars, forever
Saturday, July 28, 2007
My love poem
-28-07-2007-
-Saturday-
-3.06am
I found this Malay poem that I wrote ages ago when I was in Brazil like 3 years ago. I couldn't believe that my Malay then was so good. Haha...I must have been so bored in school that I wrote something like that. So I'm reposting it here again!
Cinta
Cinta yang aku melalui ni,
bukan mudah tapi amat sukar,
selama ni aku menyimpan dalam hati,
perasaan yang amat menyentuh jiwa ni.
Saya ingin melafazkan cintaku,
tapi sering dihantui perasaan ketakutan.
Apa ketakutannya?
mungkin cintaku tidak dibalas,
perasaan malu bila cinta ditolak.
Oh..............Apakah cinta?
Mengapakah kita harus melalui semua ni?
Kesengsaraan jiwa sering menghantuiku,
Kesakitan di hati bukannya orang tahu.
Tapi di akhir duniaku,
Walaupun apa terjadi padaku,
ia adalah berbaloi,
kerana kamu adalah cahaya hidupku dan,
saya tetap akan mencintai mu untuk selama-lamanya.
Today I went clubbing at some Indian club, Moksha in Bangsar with the Rotaractors from RAC Bangsar and RAC Kuala Lumpur. It was really a cultural shock...For the first time I'm entering an Indian club with just Indian people dancing to Indian techno music. Impressive!!! Had a drink of beer and that was it as I had to drive home...
I'm fine and doing just great...thanks for everyones concern. I'll recover in no time. I promise...Don't worry! Thanks Carol for being there.
-Saturday-
-3.06am
I found this Malay poem that I wrote ages ago when I was in Brazil like 3 years ago. I couldn't believe that my Malay then was so good. Haha...I must have been so bored in school that I wrote something like that. So I'm reposting it here again!
Cinta
Cinta yang aku melalui ni,
bukan mudah tapi amat sukar,
selama ni aku menyimpan dalam hati,
perasaan yang amat menyentuh jiwa ni.
Saya ingin melafazkan cintaku,
tapi sering dihantui perasaan ketakutan.
Apa ketakutannya?
mungkin cintaku tidak dibalas,
perasaan malu bila cinta ditolak.
Oh..............Apakah cinta?
Mengapakah kita harus melalui semua ni?
Kesengsaraan jiwa sering menghantuiku,
Kesakitan di hati bukannya orang tahu.
Tapi di akhir duniaku,
Walaupun apa terjadi padaku,
ia adalah berbaloi,
kerana kamu adalah cahaya hidupku dan,
saya tetap akan mencintai mu untuk selama-lamanya.
Today I went clubbing at some Indian club, Moksha in Bangsar with the Rotaractors from RAC Bangsar and RAC Kuala Lumpur. It was really a cultural shock...For the first time I'm entering an Indian club with just Indian people dancing to Indian techno music. Impressive!!! Had a drink of beer and that was it as I had to drive home...
I'm fine and doing just great...thanks for everyones concern. I'll recover in no time. I promise...Don't worry! Thanks Carol for being there.
Friday, July 27, 2007
When you're gone
-27-07-1007
-Friday
-1.10pm
I was listening to this song over and over again for the pass few days. I really liked it without even taking notice of the lyrics. Finally, yesterday the lyrics dawned on me that this is what I'm really going through. The lyrics just keeps repeating inside my head that I'm going off my mind soon. Nevertheless, I'm taking time off and thinking through everything that I've been through. I need a break!
When You're Gone
lyrics by Avril Lavigne.
I always needed time on my own
I never thought I'd
need you there when I cry
And the days feel like years when I'm alone
And the bed where you lie
is made up on your side
When you walk away
I count the steps that you take
Do you see how much I need you right now?
When you're gone
The pieces of my heart are missing you
When you're gone
The face I came to know is missing too
When you're gone
The words I need to hear to always get me through the day
And make it OK
I miss you
I've never felt this way before
Everything that I do
reminds me of you
And the clothes you left
they lie on the floor
And they smell just like you
I love the things that you do
When you walk away
I count the steps that you take
Do you see how much I need you right now?
When you're gone
The pieces of my heart are missing you
When you're gone
The face I came to know is missing too
When you're gone
The words I need to hear to always get me through the day
And make it OK
I miss you
We were made for each other
out here forever
I know we were
yeah, yeahhh
All I ever wanted was for you to know
Everything I do I give my heart and soul
I can hardly breathe I need to feel you here with me
Yeah
When you're gone
The pieces of my heart are missing you
When you're gone
The face I came to know is missing too
When you're gone
The words I need to hear will always get me through the day
And make it OK
I miss you
-Friday
-1.10pm
I was listening to this song over and over again for the pass few days. I really liked it without even taking notice of the lyrics. Finally, yesterday the lyrics dawned on me that this is what I'm really going through. The lyrics just keeps repeating inside my head that I'm going off my mind soon. Nevertheless, I'm taking time off and thinking through everything that I've been through. I need a break!
When You're Gone
lyrics by Avril Lavigne.
I always needed time on my own
I never thought I'd
need you there when I cry
And the days feel like years when I'm alone
And the bed where you lie
is made up on your side
When you walk away
I count the steps that you take
Do you see how much I need you right now?
When you're gone
The pieces of my heart are missing you
When you're gone
The face I came to know is missing too
When you're gone
The words I need to hear to always get me through the day
And make it OK
I miss you
I've never felt this way before
Everything that I do
reminds me of you
And the clothes you left
they lie on the floor
And they smell just like you
I love the things that you do
When you walk away
I count the steps that you take
Do you see how much I need you right now?
When you're gone
The pieces of my heart are missing you
When you're gone
The face I came to know is missing too
When you're gone
The words I need to hear to always get me through the day
And make it OK
I miss you
We were made for each other
out here forever
I know we were
yeah, yeahhh
All I ever wanted was for you to know
Everything I do I give my heart and soul
I can hardly breathe I need to feel you here with me
Yeah
When you're gone
The pieces of my heart are missing you
When you're gone
The face I came to know is missing too
When you're gone
The words I need to hear will always get me through the day
And make it OK
I miss you
Thursday, July 26, 2007
Love confessions
-26-07-2007
-Thursday-
-1.41am-
Well, James saw the previous blog entry and was so touched that this was our conversation in MSN.
Vera: Do you know how much I love you?
James: Yes, I know my baby sayang lovessss me soooooo much n I love you much much more you lil baby
James: I wish whn the time is there, I would wanna make you happy all the time and laughing away
James: My baby so cute
James: I always think of you when I do. Thinking of you makes me so alive
Vera: :)
He is always known to be that romantic guy that will write poems and blog entries when going after a girl. Well, at least that was how he managed to go after me. Hahaha! I recalled when he was chasing after me, he used to always expressed all his feelings through his blog entries or even writing sweet testimonials in friendster! Therefore, I will put up something like his best poems n testimonials...enjoy, have fun and be filled with emotions ya and lastly be touched by it!
First testi after first meet up
=.=" Lame stuff ? The words are kinda deep tho... It can mean one or another kie... We can yada yada yada from sunrise till sunset but we'll never realise it flies so fast. Meetin u for the first time is like knowing u for years back. Yeah u don't look like i would imagine u to be haha. I'll always have the first step towards bullying u. And yeah i remembered how ur aunt 'perli-ed' u for not introducing me hah... And yeah ur grandma... Told u SO !!! Haha... Well ur personality is so 'click' till i dunno where to begin or end. Words can't describe what we've indulged into and will never. I'm so touched with ur passion into Christ and ur 'International Action' thingy... Bout me and my inner stuff ? That's new :D Without u to spark up something, i won't think i'll even shine kie. It takes two to start up something :D Well space is kinda running out so i'll add up when i see fit it kie... Missing u too... HuGgIeS... =^.^=
Last testimonial so far....
Before I sleep and after I wake up and all the hours in between ... you occupy my mind. So, practically every moment of the day you are in my thoughts. I miss you.
Well, there are supposed to me more testimonials written to me inside friendster but I can't locate it so never mind about it.
Poems written by my lovely James
Friends and lover...
Platonic love is very much a part of any close friendship. But such a love doesn't always stay platonic. Sometimes it turns into passionate love. Crossing that line, between friendship and love, can be both beautiful and extremely difficult.
1.Love On The Internet
Though I wasn't looking for anyone new,
One day I got e- mail and in it was you.
Charming, sensitive and so debonair,
I strongly resisted it go anywhere.
But letters and stories captured my heart,
Filled me with passion almost from the start.
Love on the Internet, how could it be?
These things just don't happen to people like me.
But doves and butterflies flew into our lives,
Carrying messages we could not deny.
Each person has meaning and love to express,
And we could deny our hearts nothing less.
It's a beautiful love that has grown between us,
Something beyond any words we discuss.
Much deeper than LOL, cyber kisses and such,
Far down to our souls, beyond human touch.
My love's not confined by what it can see,
I feel you, I taste you, I experience your dream.
Close my eyes, and I envision what in my heart I can hear,
"Love knows no boundaries, no distance, no fear."
It's the soul that captures God's love in a way
That eternally melts hearts together to stay.
Fused and sealed forever as one,
Love has its way and new life is begun.
When two people communicate, love can happen anywhere, anytime, and often unexpectedly. The Internet only opens a new setting for an old drama. However, whenever, or wherever people get together, love will find a way. It found me and could not be denied.
2.Emotions...
I was inspired to write this poem when i sms-ed to a friend that really means a lot to me although we knew each other recently. She gives me the feelings inside that just spark my desire to write. I can't describe the feelings that came over me. So, i released them and express myself in this poem...
Blush...
You always make me blush
The tingling sensation that flows throughout my cheeks
As you flatter me with the sweet words you speak
Gasp...
Your touch; your embrace
They send goose bumps down my spine
So chilling it makes it hard to breathe
Love...
The love you express to me
And all the love that you give to me
I know now what I live for
To feel you
To hold you
To kiss your lips and
To try my best to reach your soul
Never wanting to be away from you
To let go of your body
To let your hand separate from my grasp
How I long to have you by my side
These are the moments
When time should have no existence
Where it should never end and
Bring to reality you have to leave
Please don't leave...
A warm kiss goodbye
A cool spring breeze
A tear from my eye
The time has come that I must leave
So alone now
I know I'm still in your heart
"Only a phone call away" I say to myself
To ease the loneliness I feel
You complete me
You make me whole
You're my other half
You're the happiness I've waited for
You chase away my cloudy days
You put a twinkle in my darkest nights
All these days I've spent with you
I still don't know how to express the
emotions I feel
The only words that come to mind
Are words so commonly used
I want them to be unique
To release everything I feel
To me, they aren't enough
But yet, they'll have to do...
I don't know why but from time to time I will always look back at these touching and passionate poems. I just love reading it and indulging myself with these love notes. James, I love you always. Without you coming to my life, I won't be as complete like now. You just feel my days with laughter, joy and happiness. I'm just so thankful to God for sending you to me. I'm just so happy........
-Thursday-
-1.41am-
Well, James saw the previous blog entry and was so touched that this was our conversation in MSN.
Vera: Do you know how much I love you?
James: Yes, I know my baby sayang lovessss me soooooo much n I love you much much more you lil baby
James: I wish whn the time is there, I would wanna make you happy all the time and laughing away
James: My baby so cute
James: I always think of you when I do. Thinking of you makes me so alive
Vera: :)
He is always known to be that romantic guy that will write poems and blog entries when going after a girl. Well, at least that was how he managed to go after me. Hahaha! I recalled when he was chasing after me, he used to always expressed all his feelings through his blog entries or even writing sweet testimonials in friendster! Therefore, I will put up something like his best poems n testimonials...enjoy, have fun and be filled with emotions ya and lastly be touched by it!
First testi after first meet up
=.=" Lame stuff ? The words are kinda deep tho... It can mean one or another kie... We can yada yada yada from sunrise till sunset but we'll never realise it flies so fast. Meetin u for the first time is like knowing u for years back. Yeah u don't look like i would imagine u to be haha. I'll always have the first step towards bullying u. And yeah i remembered how ur aunt 'perli-ed' u for not introducing me hah... And yeah ur grandma... Told u SO !!! Haha... Well ur personality is so 'click' till i dunno where to begin or end. Words can't describe what we've indulged into and will never. I'm so touched with ur passion into Christ and ur 'International Action' thingy... Bout me and my inner stuff ? That's new :D Without u to spark up something, i won't think i'll even shine kie. It takes two to start up something :D Well space is kinda running out so i'll add up when i see fit it kie... Missing u too... HuGgIeS... =^.^=
Last testimonial so far....
Before I sleep and after I wake up and all the hours in between ... you occupy my mind. So, practically every moment of the day you are in my thoughts. I miss you.
Well, there are supposed to me more testimonials written to me inside friendster but I can't locate it so never mind about it.
Poems written by my lovely James
Friends and lover...
Platonic love is very much a part of any close friendship. But such a love doesn't always stay platonic. Sometimes it turns into passionate love. Crossing that line, between friendship and love, can be both beautiful and extremely difficult.
1.Love On The Internet
Though I wasn't looking for anyone new,
One day I got e- mail and in it was you.
Charming, sensitive and so debonair,
I strongly resisted it go anywhere.
But letters and stories captured my heart,
Filled me with passion almost from the start.
Love on the Internet, how could it be?
These things just don't happen to people like me.
But doves and butterflies flew into our lives,
Carrying messages we could not deny.
Each person has meaning and love to express,
And we could deny our hearts nothing less.
It's a beautiful love that has grown between us,
Something beyond any words we discuss.
Much deeper than LOL, cyber kisses and such,
Far down to our souls, beyond human touch.
My love's not confined by what it can see,
I feel you, I taste you, I experience your dream.
Close my eyes, and I envision what in my heart I can hear,
"Love knows no boundaries, no distance, no fear."
It's the soul that captures God's love in a way
That eternally melts hearts together to stay.
Fused and sealed forever as one,
Love has its way and new life is begun.
When two people communicate, love can happen anywhere, anytime, and often unexpectedly. The Internet only opens a new setting for an old drama. However, whenever, or wherever people get together, love will find a way. It found me and could not be denied.
2.Emotions...
I was inspired to write this poem when i sms-ed to a friend that really means a lot to me although we knew each other recently. She gives me the feelings inside that just spark my desire to write. I can't describe the feelings that came over me. So, i released them and express myself in this poem...
Blush...
You always make me blush
The tingling sensation that flows throughout my cheeks
As you flatter me with the sweet words you speak
Gasp...
Your touch; your embrace
They send goose bumps down my spine
So chilling it makes it hard to breathe
Love...
The love you express to me
And all the love that you give to me
I know now what I live for
To feel you
To hold you
To kiss your lips and
To try my best to reach your soul
Never wanting to be away from you
To let go of your body
To let your hand separate from my grasp
How I long to have you by my side
These are the moments
When time should have no existence
Where it should never end and
Bring to reality you have to leave
Please don't leave...
A warm kiss goodbye
A cool spring breeze
A tear from my eye
The time has come that I must leave
So alone now
I know I'm still in your heart
"Only a phone call away" I say to myself
To ease the loneliness I feel
You complete me
You make me whole
You're my other half
You're the happiness I've waited for
You chase away my cloudy days
You put a twinkle in my darkest nights
All these days I've spent with you
I still don't know how to express the
emotions I feel
The only words that come to mind
Are words so commonly used
I want them to be unique
To release everything I feel
To me, they aren't enough
But yet, they'll have to do...
I don't know why but from time to time I will always look back at these touching and passionate poems. I just love reading it and indulging myself with these love notes. James, I love you always. Without you coming to my life, I won't be as complete like now. You just feel my days with laughter, joy and happiness. I'm just so thankful to God for sending you to me. I'm just so happy........
Tuesday, July 24, 2007
Princess and her knight in shinning armour
-24-07-2007-
-Monday-
-11.21am-
3 years and 3 months ago, girl met boy online while chatting on IRC overseas...boy always made girl laughed. Girl felt that boy was so funny and a very nice and friendly guy.
Girl was lonely so girl always chatted in IRC with all her friends back home. Girl added boy in her MSN contacts and from then they kept in touch off and on. Both of them never met before but only through pictures they knew of each other. Time passed and after 1 year girl came back to her own country and from time to time boy would message her and see how girl was. They still never met up due to boy working in another state while girl was in their hometown. All this while, girl only treated boy as a friend. After 1 and a half years of communicating through MSN or sms, they decided to meet up as boy was back in their hometown.
Boy came to girl's house to pick her up that very night...it was a Saturday night, girl was feeling anxious as well as excited while dressing up but was happy that they finally had a chance to meet up. Boy arrived and girl got on the car, girl was surprisingly chatty and immediately clicked on well with boy. They spend every minute of the night chatting and getting to know each other better. Sparks flew and girl started to have a crush on boy without knowing and realizing it. Boy also had the same feeling but repressed it.
Boy came to girl's school every single day after that Saturday and they would have lunch together and would just sit down and yarn and yarn so much till sun set and still wouldn't want to go home. Girl was afraid to have any commitments with boy even though it seemed that boy made the first move to pursue girl. Occasionally, boy would send some lovey dovey messages but girl hesitated at first but one day when girl woke up from sleep, she realized too how much she was in love with boy. She messaged boy to declare her love for him and boy responded in the same manner too.
So, on the 22nd September, boy asked girl to be his girlfriend. Girl in a shy manner asked boy if he was very sure and if he was willing to wait for her because she was till in school. Guy with a very sure and positive manner gazed into girl's eyes and reassured girl that no matter how long it took he would wait for her and be by her side forever. So, from then on, it was no more boy and girl instead they were a couple and a perfect one too. It was known as [V][J] the perfect match.
Finally, girl became the princess she always wanted to be..the girl that is loved so much, the joy and happiness that someone can give her, mostly, the emotional security that she needs. Ever since then, boy became princesses knight in shinning armour. Even though occasionally they would have arguments and fights..well which relationship doesn't face difficulties, they would patch things up and be that happy and awesome couple that everyone envies *winkz*!
Today, princess and her knight in shinning armour celebrates 1 year, 10 months and 2 days being together with sad and happy moments. Gosh, time really flies and we've been together for nearly 2 years and it just seems like yesterday! I love my darling. There's no one else like him. Never found anyone so compatible, and so adorable and the most caring soul in the world. I know he loves me a lot. I've never "belonged" anywhere else. Here I am, Vera[V](Princess) dedicates my love to my dearest boyfriend, James[J](knight in shinning armour) with this song here. Darling, enjoy with all your love and hope that we may be together till eternity. Till then, I love my James!
Artist: Utada Hikaru
Song: First Love
Saigo no kisu wa ka ba tabako no flavor ga shita
Nigakute setsunai kaori
Ashita no imagoro ni wa
Anata wa doko ni irun darou
Dare wo omotterun darou
You are always gonna be my love
Itsuka darekato mata koi ni ochitemo
I'll remember to love you taught me how
You are always gonna be the one
Ima wa mada kanashii love love songu
Atarashii uta utaeru made
Tachidomaru jikan ga
Ugoki dasouto shiteru
Wasuretakunai kotobakari
Ashita no imagoro niwa
Watashi wa kitto naite iru
Anatawo omotterun darou
You will always be inside my heart
Itsumo anata dake no basho ga aru kara
I hope that I have a place in your heart too
Now and forever you are still the one
Ima wa mada kanashii love love song
Atarashii uta utaeru made
You are always gonna be my love
Itsuka darekato mata koi ni ochitemo
I'll remember to love you taught me how
You are always gonna be the one
Mada kanashii love love song
Now and forever
English Translation
In your final kiss
flavor of tabacco i could taste
a bitter and painful smell
about this time tomorrow
i wonder where you'll be at
i wonder who you'll be thinking of
You are always gonna be my love
even if someday you fall in love with someone else
I'll remember to love
you taught me how
You are always gonna be the one
Now it is still a sad love song
until i can sing a new one
The frozen time
is about to start
but there are things that i do not want to forget
about this time tomorrow
i know i will be crying
i probably will also be thinking of you
You will always be inside my heart
because it is forever only for you
I hope that i have a place in your heart too
Now and forever you are still the one
Now it is still a sad love song
until i can sing a new one
You are always gonna be my love
even if someday you fall in love with someone else
i'll remember to love
you taught me how
you are alwaya gonna be the one
it is still a sad love song
now and forever
-Monday-
-11.21am-
3 years and 3 months ago, girl met boy online while chatting on IRC overseas...boy always made girl laughed. Girl felt that boy was so funny and a very nice and friendly guy.
Girl was lonely so girl always chatted in IRC with all her friends back home. Girl added boy in her MSN contacts and from then they kept in touch off and on. Both of them never met before but only through pictures they knew of each other. Time passed and after 1 year girl came back to her own country and from time to time boy would message her and see how girl was. They still never met up due to boy working in another state while girl was in their hometown. All this while, girl only treated boy as a friend. After 1 and a half years of communicating through MSN or sms, they decided to meet up as boy was back in their hometown.
Boy came to girl's house to pick her up that very night...it was a Saturday night, girl was feeling anxious as well as excited while dressing up but was happy that they finally had a chance to meet up. Boy arrived and girl got on the car, girl was surprisingly chatty and immediately clicked on well with boy. They spend every minute of the night chatting and getting to know each other better. Sparks flew and girl started to have a crush on boy without knowing and realizing it. Boy also had the same feeling but repressed it.Boy came to girl's school every single day after that Saturday and they would have lunch together and would just sit down and yarn and yarn so much till sun set and still wouldn't want to go home. Girl was afraid to have any commitments with boy even though it seemed that boy made the first move to pursue girl. Occasionally, boy would send some lovey dovey messages but girl hesitated at first but one day when girl woke up from sleep, she realized too how much she was in love with boy. She messaged boy to declare her love for him and boy responded in the same manner too.
So, on the 22nd September, boy asked girl to be his girlfriend. Girl in a shy manner asked boy if he was very sure and if he was willing to wait for her because she was till in school. Guy with a very sure and positive manner gazed into girl's eyes and reassured girl that no matter how long it took he would wait for her and be by her side forever. So, from then on, it was no more boy and girl instead they were a couple and a perfect one too. It was known as [V][J] the perfect match.
Finally, girl became the princess she always wanted to be..the girl that is loved so much, the joy and happiness that someone can give her, mostly, the emotional security that she needs. Ever since then, boy became princesses knight in shinning armour. Even though occasionally they would have arguments and fights..well which relationship doesn't face difficulties, they would patch things up and be that happy and awesome couple that everyone envies *winkz*!
Today, princess and her knight in shinning armour celebrates 1 year, 10 months and 2 days being together with sad and happy moments. Gosh, time really flies and we've been together for nearly 2 years and it just seems like yesterday! I love my darling. There's no one else like him. Never found anyone so compatible, and so adorable and the most caring soul in the world. I know he loves me a lot. I've never "belonged" anywhere else. Here I am, Vera[V](Princess) dedicates my love to my dearest boyfriend, James[J](knight in shinning armour) with this song here. Darling, enjoy with all your love and hope that we may be together till eternity. Till then, I love my James!
Artist: Utada Hikaru
Song: First Love
Saigo no kisu wa ka ba tabako no flavor ga shita
Nigakute setsunai kaori
Ashita no imagoro ni wa
Anata wa doko ni irun darou
Dare wo omotterun darou
You are always gonna be my love
Itsuka darekato mata koi ni ochitemo
I'll remember to love you taught me how
You are always gonna be the one
Ima wa mada kanashii love love songu
Atarashii uta utaeru made
Tachidomaru jikan ga
Ugoki dasouto shiteru
Wasuretakunai kotobakari
Ashita no imagoro niwa
Watashi wa kitto naite iru
Anatawo omotterun darou
You will always be inside my heart
Itsumo anata dake no basho ga aru kara
I hope that I have a place in your heart too
Now and forever you are still the one
Ima wa mada kanashii love love song
Atarashii uta utaeru made
You are always gonna be my love
Itsuka darekato mata koi ni ochitemo
I'll remember to love you taught me how
You are always gonna be the one
Mada kanashii love love song
Now and forever
English Translation
In your final kiss
flavor of tabacco i could taste
a bitter and painful smell
about this time tomorrow
i wonder where you'll be at
i wonder who you'll be thinking of
You are always gonna be my love
even if someday you fall in love with someone else
I'll remember to love
you taught me how
You are always gonna be the one
Now it is still a sad love song
until i can sing a new one
The frozen time
is about to start
but there are things that i do not want to forget
about this time tomorrow
i know i will be crying
i probably will also be thinking of you
You will always be inside my heart
because it is forever only for you
I hope that i have a place in your heart too
Now and forever you are still the one
Now it is still a sad love song
until i can sing a new one
You are always gonna be my love
even if someday you fall in love with someone else
i'll remember to love
you taught me how
you are alwaya gonna be the one
it is still a sad love song
now and forever
Saturday, January 27, 2007
Life has to go on
-27th January 2007-
-Saturday
-12.52 am
Dear God,
I have been feeling very down recently. Please cheer me up and make me look things on the brighter side. Please make me stronger. I don't seem to get everything I want at times and I feel so disappointed. Thank you always for being there with me through my hardest times of my life. Encourage me daily so I can pull through.
Thank you and I love you!
Amen!
Vera
EVERYDAY I LOVE YOU
I don't know but I believe
That some things are meant to be
And that you'll make a better me
Everyday I love you
I never thought that dreams came true
But you showed me that they do
You know that I learn somethng new
Everyday I love you
'Cos I believe that destiny
Is out of our control (don't you know that I do)
And you'll never live until you love
With all your heart and soul.
It's a touch when I feel bad
It's a smile when I get mad
All the little things I am
Everyday I love you
Everyday I love you boy
Everyday I love you
'Cos I believe that destiny
Is out of our control (don't you know that I do)
And you'll never live until you love
With all your heart and soul
If I asked would you say yes?
Together we're the very best
I know that I am truly blessed
Everyday I love you
And I'll give you my best
Everyday I love you
ps: Was listening to this sound on windows media player and just thought that it's a
very nice and touching song. Hope you all agree with me also.
-Saturday
-12.52 am
Dear God,
I have been feeling very down recently. Please cheer me up and make me look things on the brighter side. Please make me stronger. I don't seem to get everything I want at times and I feel so disappointed. Thank you always for being there with me through my hardest times of my life. Encourage me daily so I can pull through.
Thank you and I love you!
Amen!
Vera
EVERYDAY I LOVE YOU
I don't know but I believe
That some things are meant to be
And that you'll make a better me
Everyday I love you
I never thought that dreams came true
But you showed me that they do
You know that I learn somethng new
Everyday I love you
'Cos I believe that destiny
Is out of our control (don't you know that I do)
And you'll never live until you love
With all your heart and soul.
It's a touch when I feel bad
It's a smile when I get mad
All the little things I am
Everyday I love you
Everyday I love you boy
Everyday I love you
'Cos I believe that destiny
Is out of our control (don't you know that I do)
And you'll never live until you love
With all your heart and soul
If I asked would you say yes?
Together we're the very best
I know that I am truly blessed
Everyday I love you
And I'll give you my best
Everyday I love you
ps: Was listening to this sound on windows media player and just thought that it's a
very nice and touching song. Hope you all agree with me also.
Monday, January 22, 2007
KL, here I come!
-22nd January 2007-
-Monday-
-11.55 pm
20 years of my life have just gone by in a blink of an eye! I cant believe that I will be turning 21 in less than 3 months. At this turning point of my life, lots of decision making will have to be done etc: which college? what degree? where to stay? By doing so, I've decided to enroll myself at Brickfields Asia College for the June intake to pursue a LLB University of London external degree. Law is not an easy subject as it requires lots of reading up and memorizing various court cases. I'm determined to push myself to meet the standards of being a law student and also not to disappoint the hopes my parents have for me! As for now, I got a job at Thank God It's Friday (TGIF) 1 Utama shopping centre in KL and will be starting this Thursday before I start my course in June. The thought of starting my course so early really makes me think twice since I just completed my STPM last December. I guess I deserve a break right?
Last Friday, 9 Rotaractors including me went down to Singapore to attend the Rotaract District Conference from 19-21 January. It was held at a girl guides camp site-Camp Christine at Lim Chu Kang area. The journey down from Melaka would usually take around 3 and a half to 4 hours. Guess it took us how long? I think you would be shock to hear that we got there within 2 and a half hours. 2 cars drove up in which Yik Chuang, our Immediate Past president and Eugene, current Community Service Director so kindly volunteered to drive everyone there. These Formula 1 drivers were going at around 170 km/h but because they had super cars -volvo with turbo engine and Honda Accord, the journey went on so smoothly.
Camp was fun as the team was Rotaract Survivor and we got to know so many other Rotaractors within our district eg: Malaysia,Singapore and Brunei.
Rotaract District Conference opening ceremony ala "Survivor" style
Games, lessons, fellowship, singing was everything about fun. There was some emotional moments while Zack, District Rotaract Representative was giving his speech. Actually there's lots to write so I will just let my pictures do the talking. Memories like these will last a century!
Survivor Cooking-Roasted chicken,lemang aka Bamboo rice and eggs
Our chicken turned out semi cooked only as it was more of a smoked chicken. Our fire wasn't strong enough..how sad!Nevertheless, our bamboo rice and eggs turned out well cooked. The technique for cooking the egg is to wrap the eggs with at least 1 cm of mud or soil then only you will get a hard boil egg. If the mud is not thick enough, the egg will explode anytime.
My team---Orang Laut(Back row L-R):Fay, Wei Yun, Dawn, Winnie and me
(Front row L-R): Sorensen, Benedict, Picasso and Wei Siong
"Eugene in orange as Botak the Batik man"--Go RAC Kota Melaka!
The winner Of the Rotaract Soul survivor goes to the "Batik" Group......
The contingent from RAC Kota Melaka which consist of 7 members and 2 guest
Finale!!!! On that faithful Sunday, we took our photographs, said our goodbyes and left for Melaka. It only took us 2 and a half hours to get back to Melaka...see like I told you!
-Monday-
-11.55 pm
20 years of my life have just gone by in a blink of an eye! I cant believe that I will be turning 21 in less than 3 months. At this turning point of my life, lots of decision making will have to be done etc: which college? what degree? where to stay? By doing so, I've decided to enroll myself at Brickfields Asia College for the June intake to pursue a LLB University of London external degree. Law is not an easy subject as it requires lots of reading up and memorizing various court cases. I'm determined to push myself to meet the standards of being a law student and also not to disappoint the hopes my parents have for me! As for now, I got a job at Thank God It's Friday (TGIF) 1 Utama shopping centre in KL and will be starting this Thursday before I start my course in June. The thought of starting my course so early really makes me think twice since I just completed my STPM last December. I guess I deserve a break right?
Last Friday, 9 Rotaractors including me went down to Singapore to attend the Rotaract District Conference from 19-21 January. It was held at a girl guides camp site-Camp Christine at Lim Chu Kang area. The journey down from Melaka would usually take around 3 and a half to 4 hours. Guess it took us how long? I think you would be shock to hear that we got there within 2 and a half hours. 2 cars drove up in which Yik Chuang, our Immediate Past president and Eugene, current Community Service Director so kindly volunteered to drive everyone there. These Formula 1 drivers were going at around 170 km/h but because they had super cars -volvo with turbo engine and Honda Accord, the journey went on so smoothly.
Camp was fun as the team was Rotaract Survivor and we got to know so many other Rotaractors within our district eg: Malaysia,Singapore and Brunei.
Rotaract District Conference opening ceremony ala "Survivor" styleGames, lessons, fellowship, singing was everything about fun. There was some emotional moments while Zack, District Rotaract Representative was giving his speech. Actually there's lots to write so I will just let my pictures do the talking. Memories like these will last a century!
Survivor Cooking-Roasted chicken,lemang aka Bamboo rice and eggsOur chicken turned out semi cooked only as it was more of a smoked chicken. Our fire wasn't strong enough..how sad!Nevertheless, our bamboo rice and eggs turned out well cooked. The technique for cooking the egg is to wrap the eggs with at least 1 cm of mud or soil then only you will get a hard boil egg. If the mud is not thick enough, the egg will explode anytime.
My team---Orang Laut(Back row L-R):Fay, Wei Yun, Dawn, Winnie and me(Front row L-R): Sorensen, Benedict, Picasso and Wei Siong
"Eugene in orange as Botak the Batik man"--Go RAC Kota Melaka!
The winner Of the Rotaract Soul survivor goes to the "Batik" Group...... 
The contingent from RAC Kota Melaka which consist of 7 members and 2 guestFinale!!!! On that faithful Sunday, we took our photographs, said our goodbyes and left for Melaka. It only took us 2 and a half hours to get back to Melaka...see like I told you!
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