Emotional Coma

I'm missing you badly :(





I'm incapable of structuring my thoughts as how to describe the feeling of missing you. I'm only capable of only using word but sometimes words just don't do justice to how a person is feeling!





Another 8 months to go....That seems pretty long at this moment. I guess that will just do for now...Counting down the day till we meet again :)




Por que? Tenho muito saudades de voce. Grande Beijos e abracos. XOxoxxoXO

5 years & 1 month

Well....I'm not kiasu in counting the days, months and years I've been with him. I know my previous post I said that what's the point in counting when you know that we will be together forever. Yeah , I know I said that but I can't help but to feel that Wow...we've been together for so long already.. 5 years!!! Looking back , time really flies! :)


So now it's the 5th year...8th year then 20th year and so on......





“Grow old along with me! The best is yet to be, the last of life, for which the first was made. Our times are in his hand who saith, 'A whole I planned, youth shows but half; Trust God: See all, nor be afraid!'”
-Robert Browning-

The little black dress

I bought a dress!!!! A black one to say. I'm never a black person...I've always bought clothes in other colours and not black! I was at little black book, Hartamas and came across a black dress and the design was superb. It is seldom that you come across an empire line little black dress nowadays. I loved it so much but I didn't have black in mind. I immediately asked the salesgirl if she had some other colour other than black..sadly I was so disappointed when she said NO! Nevertheless, I tried on the dress. Syazmeen was quite insistent that I buy the dress as it really fitted me nicely. Wow!!! I can't believe I could fit into an M size....*grinning*. Thanks to the diet :) However, I'm still not too happy bout my *Butt*. More exercise needed but I think it will be quite hard to have a smaller butt as I come from a family of big butt and big thighs genes. The price wasn't that bad. It was reasonable..only RM39.90.


The rest is history. I finally bought the dress. You know the saying that every girls closet has to have a black dress? I actually do own a black dress but it's a long one so I decided why not just get a knee lenght black dress this time...Yeah!!! I got a dress to wear for the PRCAM dinner at MO :)

Hollywood diet

I've been just sipping juice and drinking cabbage soup through out the whole week and I've lost 2kg so far :)


This is happiness yet crazy!!! I need to go back to an average of 55kg. 2 kg more then toning up!


Yes..I need to be able to fit into my dresses again ^_^


It's a torture to go on a diet but for the sake of beauty, we girls would do anything..

Baby can I hold you

Baby can I hold you
"i'm sorry,"
It's all that you can say
Years gone by and still
Words don't come easily
Like "sorry" (like "sorry"..like "sorry"..)
"forgive me,"
Is all that you can say
Years gone by and still
Words don't come easily
Like "forgive me" ("forgive me"..."forgive me"..)
Forgive me..

But you can say, baby
Baby can I hold you tonight?
Baby, if I told you the right words
Oooh, at the right time
You'll be mine

I love you
Is all that you can say
Years gone by and still
Words don't come easily (words don't come easily..)
Like "i love you", I love you..

But you can say, baby
Baby can I hold you tonight?
Baby, if I told you the right words
Oooh, at the right time
You'll be mine

(baby can I hold you...)
But you can say, baby
Baby can I hold you tonight?
Baby, if I told you the right words
Oooh, at the right time
You'll be mine

(baby, if I hold you..)
(baby, can I hold you..) you'll be mine..
(baby if I told you..)
(baby, can I hold you..)
You'll be mine..
(baby if I told you..)
Baby, can I hold you.

Ps:// Baby you can't just choose one, if you want both, then you have to learn how to balance out your time coz I miss you too much! I will not make you choose...Ultimately it's your choice but just so you know, I'm here!

Awessssooooomenessssss!

I think this guy really has alot of talent! I admire people like this. At first, I thought this will be the typical ABC who doesn't know Chinese but I was so impressed by his cover of Lee Hom's song. Can't have enough of his songs now...I'm so addicted to Jason Chen :). He is such a heart breaker!

Now...I too have to find what is my hidden talent!

Cheat my feelings

I've recently come to realize that you can never put your hopes and expectation on someone so much becasue there will come a time that you will feel disappointed if that expectation is not met. We can only trust in God because our heavenly father will never ever fail us..Just believe and pray!

It's been a week that I'm feeling down. I know I should never let my emotions be affected by others and yet this is happening to me becasue it really matters to me esp when it has got to do with someone you love and care very much for. You asked me to understand and think about your feelings. I'm proud to say that I've changed alot and been more understanding and considerate. Since you wished for me to see things from your point of view, have you ever thought about my feelings? I'm all alone here without you. I only asked for you to call me or the very least text me once in a day. I think it is only fair we make compromises. Don't you think it's fair? I've gone through alot lately and been thinking hard about our relationship. If you can't even give me 5 minutes of your time in a day, then do you even have the time to spend the rest of your life with me?

I'm a girl, I'm a beautiful one, I'm smart, I'm funny, I'm loving and most of all I'm your gf. I'm nothing close to being irritating, disturbing or a bugging gf . If you see or feel this as who I am then you don't know how to appreciate me for who I am. No one loves you more than I do..*exclusion clause..your MUM, DAD & GOD*. All I'm asking is to treat me better, with respect and love. I just need reassurances from you. It makes a different because you are so far away. I only want you to have some form of communication with me. Don't forget, my only way of communication with you is by phone. I can't swim or fly to NZ anytime to see you. My way of "lepas rindu" is to only talk to YOU and when I say YOU means a proper reciprocal conversation. Not just you listening to me talk. At times, It's nice to have someone be concern and ask how was my day and just to see how I am...It would be nice:)