200 pounds beauty....a natural beauty

-31-07-2007-
-Tuesday-
8.45pm

Synopsis

Han-Na is a very big girl with a warm heart. She is also gifted with an unbelievable voice from God. Han-Na has always wanted to be a pop-singer, but due to her appearance, could only work as a faceless singer. She provides the vocals for a popular singer named Ami, a beautiful young lady that can’t carry a note to save her life.

Also, Han-Na is in love with Ami’s music producer, Sang-June, but it is a one-sided love. One day, Han-Na is invited to Sang-June’s birthday party and receives a red dress from him to wear to his party. Han-Na is excited, yet scared. The dress is revealing and quite extravagant. With her very large figure, she is not sure if she could wear such an outfit. She does eventually go to the birthday party in the red dress, but is mortified when petite Ami appears in the same red dress. During the course of the birthday party, Han-Na absorbs more emotional trauma and she simply disappears……..

One year later, after Han-Na’s extreme makeover (major plastic surgery), Han-Na takes on a new identity and becomes Jenny. Jenny has a near perfect body and face. Nobody recognizes her, even her best friend. Meanwhile, the producer Sang-Jung is searching for a replacement singer for Ami, but can’t find anyone close to the talents of Han-na. Han-na as Jenny, now comes back into the picture and auditions for the job. Sang-Jung is immediately floored by her. She has the absolute beauty and that stunning voice. Soon afterwards, her dream that Sung-June will fall in love with her, is about to come true. Unfortunately, Ami is now jealous of her and feels threatened by her sudden success. She researches into Jenny’s background and comes up with the truth about her true identity.

Will this ruin Jenny’s career?

I love the soundtracks from this movie...eg: All songs that I like are sang by Kim Ah Joong eg: Star(Byul), Maria and I'm a beautiful girl. I can really connect with this movie as Han-na is just like me desperately wanting to loose weight who eventually succeeded in doing so. I have managed to loose quite a bit of weight recently and I feel totally happy and delighted by it. I too wish I had the body of Han-na after her surgery...Super Sexy!

I have uploaded the Music Video of the song star(Byul) by Kim Ah Joong here and I hope you guys will enjoy. It's so touching it made me cry. Attached here is also the Lyrics....

Kim Ah Joong-Star(Byul)
param gyeoli changeul heundeulgo
nae gimalhan jakeun nawei pan weouro
areumduphge byulbijdeureul
kadeul chaewojuneyo
malhi aphahajimah
nalkkok aneunchae dadokyojumyeo
jakjara weouro haejuneyo
keodji mothalmankkeum himekyeowon aphawado
nunmuli apeul karyeowado
kajjimothal nae sarang aphedo nan useullaeyo
jamshimado kyeote haengboghattdeon giogdeureul
kashime kanjig halkeyo
du nune suno najin jeobyuldeul
cheoreom yeongwonhi

English Translation

the wind is shaking the windows,and over my small room,
the stars fill up the sky, shining brightly too many to count,
the stars reassure tired me
they wipe away the many tears that are deep inside me

don’t be hurt too much..they hug me tight and pamper me
and comfort me,
telling me to go to sleep

though I’m exhausted to the point where I can’t walk
though my tears blur my vision
I’ll still smile in front of my love that I’m not able to get

Even though our happy times were short, I’ll treasure it deep inside my heart
like those countless number of stars, forever

My dream is coming. though it is unusual that my one star is bright
it is very bright, even blinding..it comes down to my shoulder
stop being so sad..it holds my hand as it touches me
and gives me a warm hug

though I’m exhausted to the point where I can’t walkthough my tears blur my vision
I’ll still smile in front of my love that I’m not able to get

Even though our happy times were short, I’ll treasure it deep inside my heart
like those countless number of stars, forever

Only for today, I won’t cry though my eyes fill with tears
I want to laugh like those stars
Oh~ I want to cherish all my happy moments deep inside my heart
Like those countless number of stars, forever

My love poem

-28-07-2007-
-Saturday-
-3.06am

I found this Malay poem that I wrote ages ago when I was in Brazil like 3 years ago. I couldn't believe that my Malay then was so good. Haha...I must have been so bored in school that I wrote something like that. So I'm reposting it here again!

Cinta

Cinta yang aku melalui ni,
bukan mudah tapi amat sukar,
selama ni aku menyimpan dalam hati,
perasaan yang amat menyentuh jiwa ni.
Saya ingin melafazkan cintaku,
tapi sering dihantui perasaan ketakutan.

Apa ketakutannya?
mungkin cintaku tidak dibalas,
perasaan malu bila cinta ditolak.
Oh..............Apakah cinta?
Mengapakah kita harus melalui semua ni?
Kesengsaraan jiwa sering menghantuiku,
Kesakitan di hati bukannya orang tahu.

Tapi di akhir duniaku,
Walaupun apa terjadi padaku,
ia adalah berbaloi,
kerana kamu adalah cahaya hidupku dan,
saya tetap akan mencintai mu untuk selama-lamanya.

Today I went clubbing at some Indian club, Moksha in Bangsar with the Rotaractors from RAC Bangsar and RAC Kuala Lumpur. It was really a cultural shock...For the first time I'm entering an Indian club with just Indian people dancing to Indian techno music. Impressive!!! Had a drink of beer and that was it as I had to drive home...
I'm fine and doing just great...thanks for everyones concern. I'll recover in no time. I promise...Don't worry! Thanks Carol for being there.

When you're gone

-27-07-1007
-Friday
-1.10pm

I was listening to this song over and over again for the pass few days. I really liked it without even taking notice of the lyrics. Finally, yesterday the lyrics dawned on me that this is what I'm really going through. The lyrics just keeps repeating inside my head that I'm going off my mind soon. Nevertheless, I'm taking time off and thinking through everything that I've been through. I need a break!


When You're Gone
lyrics by Avril Lavigne.

I always needed time on my own
I never thought I'd
need you there when I cry
And the days feel like years when I'm alone
And the bed where you lie
is made up on your side

When you walk away
I count the steps that you take
Do you see how much I need you right now?

When you're gone
The pieces of my heart are missing you
When you're gone
The face I came to know is missing too
When you're gone
The words I need to hear to always get me through the day
And make it OK
I miss you

I've never felt this way before
Everything that I do
reminds me of you
And the clothes you left
they lie on the floor
And they smell just like you
I love the things that you do

When you walk away
I count the steps that you take

Do you see how much I need you right now?

When you're gone
The pieces of my heart are missing you
When you're gone
The face I came to know is missing too
When you're gone
The words I need to hear to always get me through the day
And make it OK
I miss you

We were made for each other
out here forever
I know we were
yeah, yeahhh

All I ever wanted was for you to know
Everything I do I give my heart and soul
I can hardly breathe I need to feel you here with me
Yeah

When you're gone
The pieces of my heart are missing you
When you're gone
The face I came to know is missing too
When you're gone
The words I need to hear will always get me through the day
And make it OK
I miss you

Love confessions

-26-07-2007
-Thursday-
-1.41am-

Well, James saw the previous blog entry and was so touched that this was our conversation in MSN.
Vera: Do you know how much I love you?
James: Yes, I know my baby sayang lovessss me soooooo much n I love you much much more you lil baby
James: I wish whn the time is there, I would wanna make you happy all the time and laughing away
James: My baby so cute
James: I always think of you when I do. Thinking of you makes me so alive
Vera: :)
He is always known to be that romantic guy that will write poems and blog entries when going after a girl. Well, at least that was how he managed to go after me. Hahaha! I recalled when he was chasing after me, he used to always expressed all his feelings through his blog entries or even writing sweet testimonials in friendster! Therefore, I will put up something like his best poems n testimonials...enjoy, have fun and be filled with emotions ya and lastly be touched by it!

First testi after first meet up
=.=" Lame stuff ? The words are kinda deep tho... It can mean one or another kie... We can yada yada yada from sunrise till sunset but we'll never realise it flies so fast. Meetin u for the first time is like knowing u for years back. Yeah u don't look like i would imagine u to be haha. I'll always have the first step towards bullying u. And yeah i remembered how ur aunt 'perli-ed' u for not introducing me hah... And yeah ur grandma... Told u SO !!! Haha... Well ur personality is so 'click' till i dunno where to begin or end. Words can't describe what we've indulged into and will never. I'm so touched with ur passion into Christ and ur 'International Action' thingy... Bout me and my inner stuff ? That's new :D Without u to spark up something, i won't think i'll even shine kie. It takes two to start up something :D Well space is kinda running out so i'll add up when i see fit it kie... Missing u too... HuGgIeS... =^.^=

Last testimonial so far....
Before I sleep and after I wake up and all the hours in between ... you occupy my mind. So, practically every moment of the day you are in my thoughts. I miss you.

Well, there are supposed to me more testimonials written to me inside friendster but I can't locate it so never mind about it.

Poems written by my lovely James
Friends and lover...

Platonic love is very much a part of any close friendship. But such a love doesn't always stay platonic. Sometimes it turns into passionate love. Crossing that line, between friendship and love, can be both beautiful and extremely difficult.

1.Love On The Internet

Though I wasn't looking for anyone new,
One day I got e- mail and in it was you.
Charming, sensitive and so debonair,
I strongly resisted it go anywhere.

But letters and stories captured my heart,
Filled me with passion almost from the start.
Love on the Internet, how could it be?
These things just don't happen to people like me.

But doves and butterflies flew into our lives,
Carrying messages we could not deny.
Each person has meaning and love to express,
And we could deny our hearts nothing less.

It's a beautiful love that has grown between us,
Something beyond any words we discuss.
Much deeper than LOL, cyber kisses and such,
Far down to our souls, beyond human touch.

My love's not confined by what it can see,
I feel you, I taste you, I experience your dream.
Close my eyes, and I envision what in my heart I can hear,
"Love knows no boundaries, no distance, no fear."

It's the soul that captures God's love in a way
That eternally melts hearts together to stay.
Fused and sealed forever as one,
Love has its way and new life is begun.

When two people communicate, love can happen anywhere, anytime, and often unexpectedly. The Internet only opens a new setting for an old drama. However, whenever, or wherever people get together, love will find a way. It found me and could not be denied.


2.Emotions...

I was inspired to write this poem when i sms-ed to a friend that really means a lot to me although we knew each other recently. She gives me the feelings inside that just spark my desire to write. I can't describe the feelings that came over me. So, i released them and express myself in this poem...

Blush...
You always make me blush
The tingling sensation that flows throughout my cheeks
As you flatter me with the sweet words you speak

Gasp...
Your touch; your embrace
They send goose bumps down my spine
So chilling it makes it hard to breathe

Love...
The love you express to me
And all the love that you give to me
I know now what I live for

To feel you
To hold you
To kiss your lips and
To try my best to reach your soul

Never wanting to be away from you
To let go of your body
To let your hand separate from my grasp
How I long to have you by my side

These are the moments
When time should have no existence
Where it should never end and
Bring to reality you have to leave

Please don't leave...

A warm kiss goodbye
A cool spring breeze
A tear from my eye
The time has come that I must leave

So alone now
I know I'm still in your heart
"Only a phone call away" I say to myself
To ease the loneliness I feel

You complete me
You make me whole
You're my other half
You're the happiness I've waited for

You chase away my cloudy days
You put a twinkle in my darkest nights
All these days I've spent with you
I still don't know how to express the
emotions I feel

The only words that come to mind
Are words so commonly used
I want them to be unique
To release everything I feel

To me, they aren't enough
But yet, they'll have to do...

I don't know why but from time to time I will always look back at these touching and passionate poems. I just love reading it and indulging myself with these love notes. James, I love you always. Without you coming to my life, I won't be as complete like now. You just feel my days with laughter, joy and happiness. I'm just so thankful to God for sending you to me. I'm just so happy........

Princess and her knight in shinning armour

-24-07-2007-
-Monday-
-11.21am-

3 years and 3 months ago, girl met boy online while chatting on IRC overseas...boy always made girl laughed. Girl felt that boy was so funny and a very nice and friendly guy.
Girl was lonely so girl always chatted in IRC with all her friends back home. Girl added boy in her MSN contacts and from then they kept in touch off and on. Both of them never met before but only through pictures they knew of each other. Time passed and after 1 year girl came back to her own country and from time to time boy would message her and see how girl was. They still never met up due to boy working in another state while girl was in their hometown. All this while, girl only treated boy as a friend. After 1 and a half years of communicating through MSN or sms, they decided to meet up as boy was back in their hometown.
Boy came to girl's house to pick her up that very night...it was a Saturday night, girl was feeling anxious as well as excited while dressing up but was happy that they finally had a chance to meet up. Boy arrived and girl got on the car, girl was surprisingly chatty and immediately clicked on well with boy. They spend every minute of the night chatting and getting to know each other better. Sparks flew and girl started to have a crush on boy without knowing and realizing it. Boy also had the same feeling but repressed it.
Boy came to girl's school every single day after that Saturday and they would have lunch together and would just sit down and yarn and yarn so much till sun set and still wouldn't want to go home. Girl was afraid to have any commitments with boy even though it seemed that boy made the first move to pursue girl. Occasionally, boy would send some lovey dovey messages but girl hesitated at first but one day when girl woke up from sleep, she realized too how much she was in love with boy. She messaged boy to declare her love for him and boy responded in the same manner too.
So, on the 22nd September, boy asked girl to be his girlfriend. Girl in a shy manner asked boy if he was very sure and if he was willing to wait for her because she was till in school. Guy with a very sure and positive manner gazed into girl's eyes and reassured girl that no matter how long it took he would wait for her and be by her side forever. So, from then on, it was no more boy and girl instead they were a couple and a perfect one too. It was known as [V][J] the perfect match.
Finally, girl became the princess she always wanted to be..the girl that is loved so much, the joy and happiness that someone can give her, mostly, the emotional security that she needs. Ever since then, boy became princesses knight in shinning armour. Even though occasionally they would have arguments and fights..well which relationship doesn't face difficulties, they would patch things up and be that happy and awesome couple that everyone envies *winkz*!
Today, princess and her knight in shinning armour celebrates 1 year, 10 months and 2 days being together with sad and happy moments. Gosh, time really flies and we've been together for nearly 2 years and it just seems like yesterday! I love my darling. There's no one else like him. Never found anyone so compatible, and so adorable and the most caring soul in the world. I know he loves me a lot. I've never "belonged" anywhere else. Here I am, Vera[V](Princess) dedicates my love to my dearest boyfriend, James[J](knight in shinning armour) with this song here. Darling, enjoy with all your love and hope that we may be together till eternity. Till then, I love my James!

Artist: Utada Hikaru
Song: First Love


Saigo no kisu wa ka ba tabako no flavor ga shita
Nigakute setsunai kaori

Ashita no imagoro ni wa
Anata wa doko ni irun darou
Dare wo omotterun darou

You are always gonna be my love
Itsuka darekato mata koi ni ochitemo
I'll remember to love you taught me how
You are always gonna be the one
Ima wa mada kanashii love love songu
Atarashii uta utaeru made

Tachidomaru jikan ga
Ugoki dasouto shiteru
Wasuretakunai kotobakari

Ashita no imagoro niwa
Watashi wa kitto naite iru
Anatawo omotterun darou

You will always be inside my heart
Itsumo anata dake no basho ga aru kara
I hope that I have a place in your heart too
Now and forever you are still the one
Ima wa mada kanashii love love song
Atarashii uta utaeru made

You are always gonna be my love
Itsuka darekato mata koi ni ochitemo
I'll remember to love you taught me how
You are always gonna be the one
Mada kanashii love love song
Now and forever

English Translation

In your final kiss
flavor of tabacco i could taste
a bitter and painful smell
about this time tomorrow

i wonder where you'll be at
i wonder who you'll be thinking of

You are always gonna be my love
even if someday you fall in love with someone else
I'll remember to love
you taught me how
You are always gonna be the one
Now it is still a sad love song
until i can sing a new one

The frozen time
is about to start
but there are things that i do not want to forget
about this time tomorrow

i know i will be crying
i probably will also be thinking of you

You will always be inside my heart
because it is forever only for you
I hope that i have a place in your heart too
Now and forever you are still the one
Now it is still a sad love song
until i can sing a new one

You are always gonna be my love
even if someday you fall in love with someone else
i'll remember to love
you taught me how
you are alwaya gonna be the one
it is still a sad love song
now and forever