-12-04-2005
-Wednesday
-2.19 am
After carrying that burden for 3 weeks, I've decided to let it all out!! Sometimes things are just better out than keeping it inside oneself!!! I've always felt better sharing it with my guy friends that trully and really understands me than just telling it to any Tom,Dick and Harry. We are human and we do have weaknesses...so what is so wrong in just liking HIM? I do blame myself sometimes for liking him coz it has cause me hurts and made me suffer, but after all who ever said liking a person was easy! WHY? WHY? WHY? WHY GOD? HOnestly, HE has been such a dear to me,treating me like his baby princess, calling me from time to time and also smsing me but why on earth did I REJECT HIM? WHY? WHY? WHY? Eventhough he still calls me from time to time and knowing that the feelings I have for HIM wouldn't fate off just so easily, I still soften my heart and accept his calls!!! After all, I'm still HOT blooded right?*wink*! I just feel like bursting into tears now but too bad Andrew, my crying shoulder isn't with me so I guess I still have to wait till I eventually get back to MLK this Friday to accomplish that..(NOW IN KL)!
PPL just have no idea the pain,hurts,sufferings,frustrations and etc we human go through when we are in LOVE. The thought of the word LOVE will definitely come to many ppl's attention to as why a 19 year old girl like me would use such a strong word to describe her feelings...? I'm still confused as to why I REJECTED HIM coz if this decision was made 1 year ago by the old VERA TAY, it would just seem and look so bizarre but now after coming back from Brazil and being more matuared a girl, I feel that this is just not the time to be serious and to have a relationship eventhough I really like HIM coz now I just have to concentrate on my FORM 6 and nothing else! WE will still be forever best of friends but If HE really does like and love me , I'm sure given a chance, HE will definitely wait for me until the right time comes!
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