-25th January 2008-
-Saturday
-6.10 pm
Yeah....baby, it's been ages since I last updated. It's been depressing lately without you around. I could be envious of you just because you are in Spain having a good time( Working). The truth is I just miss you alot. Your smile, your laughter, your stupid yet entertaining jokes*Sowie*, your stories about your IT gadgets, your smell, your hugs, your kisses, your touch...everything about you I just miss! Enough said! My rambling, my ranting about you coming back quickly sometimes just gets the better of me. I'm sorry if I kept complaining about you being far away from me and I know without fail you will just calmly tell me that You still love me and try all ways to comfort me during my emo times. Thanks baby!
As I read EJ's blog post, I was terribly reminded of my own funny characteristics and idiosyncrasies. Sometimes, when we gossip about others, there is always this chilling thought that perhaps one day somebody might be doing the same thing to me. Eg: "Oh, I just can't stand the way she speaks with that funny accent"..thank god I have no accent when I speak, or " My God, she looks so fat wearing that lil dress of hers plus I think she just doesn't have any sense of dressing" or worst case scenario, " I can't believe she is so bitchy and ignorant in class". I always believe the saying," Where they is human, there ought to be gossip".
I'm not sure how my friends think about me. I've heard enough of what SOMEBODY in my college tried to do by gossiping and back stabbing me to her bunch of friends who eventually became my good friends. She can say what she wants as they are just a bunch of bull s**t. I don't know what inspired her to do so but who cares as long my friends know that I'm not that sort of person and that I'm sincere in my friendships.
I know I'm not perfect...(seriously, I have so many bad habits and characteristics that you can't even imagine.
My dad's favourite quote goes like this....
" I wonder how James can tolerate you?" or
" If you don't change, James and your friends will eventually leave you"
I've began to change slowly in many ways...thank god for James who patiently thought me and guided me. Baby, I know currently your patient is at low peak but please be patient with me ok. You know I'm not good at controlling and couping with my feelings. I'm like this emotional bug who is so needy all the time. At times, I just question myself how can I be not so clingy and needy. Gosh, I'm a pest in the eyes of my bf!
So, I just can't wait to see my uncle(bf)..sowie nicknamed by my college mates. I've been waiting these four months for your return from Spain and finally my wait has arrived.
Home sweet home baby!!!!*winkz*