200 pounds beauty....a natural beauty

-31-07-2007-
-Tuesday-
8.45pm

Synopsis

Han-Na is a very big girl with a warm heart. She is also gifted with an unbelievable voice from God. Han-Na has always wanted to be a pop-singer, but due to her appearance, could only work as a faceless singer. She provides the vocals for a popular singer named Ami, a beautiful young lady that can’t carry a note to save her life.

Also, Han-Na is in love with Ami’s music producer, Sang-June, but it is a one-sided love. One day, Han-Na is invited to Sang-June’s birthday party and receives a red dress from him to wear to his party. Han-Na is excited, yet scared. The dress is revealing and quite extravagant. With her very large figure, she is not sure if she could wear such an outfit. She does eventually go to the birthday party in the red dress, but is mortified when petite Ami appears in the same red dress. During the course of the birthday party, Han-Na absorbs more emotional trauma and she simply disappears……..

One year later, after Han-Na’s extreme makeover (major plastic surgery), Han-Na takes on a new identity and becomes Jenny. Jenny has a near perfect body and face. Nobody recognizes her, even her best friend. Meanwhile, the producer Sang-Jung is searching for a replacement singer for Ami, but can’t find anyone close to the talents of Han-na. Han-na as Jenny, now comes back into the picture and auditions for the job. Sang-Jung is immediately floored by her. She has the absolute beauty and that stunning voice. Soon afterwards, her dream that Sung-June will fall in love with her, is about to come true. Unfortunately, Ami is now jealous of her and feels threatened by her sudden success. She researches into Jenny’s background and comes up with the truth about her true identity.

Will this ruin Jenny’s career?

I love the soundtracks from this movie...eg: All songs that I like are sang by Kim Ah Joong eg: Star(Byul), Maria and I'm a beautiful girl. I can really connect with this movie as Han-na is just like me desperately wanting to loose weight who eventually succeeded in doing so. I have managed to loose quite a bit of weight recently and I feel totally happy and delighted by it. I too wish I had the body of Han-na after her surgery...Super Sexy!

I have uploaded the Music Video of the song star(Byul) by Kim Ah Joong here and I hope you guys will enjoy. It's so touching it made me cry. Attached here is also the Lyrics....

Kim Ah Joong-Star(Byul)
param gyeoli changeul heundeulgo
nae gimalhan jakeun nawei pan weouro
areumduphge byulbijdeureul
kadeul chaewojuneyo
malhi aphahajimah
nalkkok aneunchae dadokyojumyeo
jakjara weouro haejuneyo
keodji mothalmankkeum himekyeowon aphawado
nunmuli apeul karyeowado
kajjimothal nae sarang aphedo nan useullaeyo
jamshimado kyeote haengboghattdeon giogdeureul
kashime kanjig halkeyo
du nune suno najin jeobyuldeul
cheoreom yeongwonhi

English Translation

the wind is shaking the windows,and over my small room,
the stars fill up the sky, shining brightly too many to count,
the stars reassure tired me
they wipe away the many tears that are deep inside me

don’t be hurt too much..they hug me tight and pamper me
and comfort me,
telling me to go to sleep

though I’m exhausted to the point where I can’t walk
though my tears blur my vision
I’ll still smile in front of my love that I’m not able to get

Even though our happy times were short, I’ll treasure it deep inside my heart
like those countless number of stars, forever

My dream is coming. though it is unusual that my one star is bright
it is very bright, even blinding..it comes down to my shoulder
stop being so sad..it holds my hand as it touches me
and gives me a warm hug

though I’m exhausted to the point where I can’t walkthough my tears blur my vision
I’ll still smile in front of my love that I’m not able to get

Even though our happy times were short, I’ll treasure it deep inside my heart
like those countless number of stars, forever

Only for today, I won’t cry though my eyes fill with tears
I want to laugh like those stars
Oh~ I want to cherish all my happy moments deep inside my heart
Like those countless number of stars, forever

My love poem

-28-07-2007-
-Saturday-
-3.06am

I found this Malay poem that I wrote ages ago when I was in Brazil like 3 years ago. I couldn't believe that my Malay then was so good. Haha...I must have been so bored in school that I wrote something like that. So I'm reposting it here again!

Cinta

Cinta yang aku melalui ni,
bukan mudah tapi amat sukar,
selama ni aku menyimpan dalam hati,
perasaan yang amat menyentuh jiwa ni.
Saya ingin melafazkan cintaku,
tapi sering dihantui perasaan ketakutan.

Apa ketakutannya?
mungkin cintaku tidak dibalas,
perasaan malu bila cinta ditolak.
Oh..............Apakah cinta?
Mengapakah kita harus melalui semua ni?
Kesengsaraan jiwa sering menghantuiku,
Kesakitan di hati bukannya orang tahu.

Tapi di akhir duniaku,
Walaupun apa terjadi padaku,
ia adalah berbaloi,
kerana kamu adalah cahaya hidupku dan,
saya tetap akan mencintai mu untuk selama-lamanya.

Today I went clubbing at some Indian club, Moksha in Bangsar with the Rotaractors from RAC Bangsar and RAC Kuala Lumpur. It was really a cultural shock...For the first time I'm entering an Indian club with just Indian people dancing to Indian techno music. Impressive!!! Had a drink of beer and that was it as I had to drive home...
I'm fine and doing just great...thanks for everyones concern. I'll recover in no time. I promise...Don't worry! Thanks Carol for being there.

When you're gone

-27-07-1007
-Friday
-1.10pm

I was listening to this song over and over again for the pass few days. I really liked it without even taking notice of the lyrics. Finally, yesterday the lyrics dawned on me that this is what I'm really going through. The lyrics just keeps repeating inside my head that I'm going off my mind soon. Nevertheless, I'm taking time off and thinking through everything that I've been through. I need a break!


When You're Gone
lyrics by Avril Lavigne.

I always needed time on my own
I never thought I'd
need you there when I cry
And the days feel like years when I'm alone
And the bed where you lie
is made up on your side

When you walk away
I count the steps that you take
Do you see how much I need you right now?

When you're gone
The pieces of my heart are missing you
When you're gone
The face I came to know is missing too
When you're gone
The words I need to hear to always get me through the day
And make it OK
I miss you

I've never felt this way before
Everything that I do
reminds me of you
And the clothes you left
they lie on the floor
And they smell just like you
I love the things that you do

When you walk away
I count the steps that you take

Do you see how much I need you right now?

When you're gone
The pieces of my heart are missing you
When you're gone
The face I came to know is missing too
When you're gone
The words I need to hear to always get me through the day
And make it OK
I miss you

We were made for each other
out here forever
I know we were
yeah, yeahhh

All I ever wanted was for you to know
Everything I do I give my heart and soul
I can hardly breathe I need to feel you here with me
Yeah

When you're gone
The pieces of my heart are missing you
When you're gone
The face I came to know is missing too
When you're gone
The words I need to hear will always get me through the day
And make it OK
I miss you

Love confessions

-26-07-2007
-Thursday-
-1.41am-

Well, James saw the previous blog entry and was so touched that this was our conversation in MSN.
Vera: Do you know how much I love you?
James: Yes, I know my baby sayang lovessss me soooooo much n I love you much much more you lil baby
James: I wish whn the time is there, I would wanna make you happy all the time and laughing away
James: My baby so cute
James: I always think of you when I do. Thinking of you makes me so alive
Vera: :)
He is always known to be that romantic guy that will write poems and blog entries when going after a girl. Well, at least that was how he managed to go after me. Hahaha! I recalled when he was chasing after me, he used to always expressed all his feelings through his blog entries or even writing sweet testimonials in friendster! Therefore, I will put up something like his best poems n testimonials...enjoy, have fun and be filled with emotions ya and lastly be touched by it!

First testi after first meet up
=.=" Lame stuff ? The words are kinda deep tho... It can mean one or another kie... We can yada yada yada from sunrise till sunset but we'll never realise it flies so fast. Meetin u for the first time is like knowing u for years back. Yeah u don't look like i would imagine u to be haha. I'll always have the first step towards bullying u. And yeah i remembered how ur aunt 'perli-ed' u for not introducing me hah... And yeah ur grandma... Told u SO !!! Haha... Well ur personality is so 'click' till i dunno where to begin or end. Words can't describe what we've indulged into and will never. I'm so touched with ur passion into Christ and ur 'International Action' thingy... Bout me and my inner stuff ? That's new :D Without u to spark up something, i won't think i'll even shine kie. It takes two to start up something :D Well space is kinda running out so i'll add up when i see fit it kie... Missing u too... HuGgIeS... =^.^=

Last testimonial so far....
Before I sleep and after I wake up and all the hours in between ... you occupy my mind. So, practically every moment of the day you are in my thoughts. I miss you.

Well, there are supposed to me more testimonials written to me inside friendster but I can't locate it so never mind about it.

Poems written by my lovely James
Friends and lover...

Platonic love is very much a part of any close friendship. But such a love doesn't always stay platonic. Sometimes it turns into passionate love. Crossing that line, between friendship and love, can be both beautiful and extremely difficult.

1.Love On The Internet

Though I wasn't looking for anyone new,
One day I got e- mail and in it was you.
Charming, sensitive and so debonair,
I strongly resisted it go anywhere.

But letters and stories captured my heart,
Filled me with passion almost from the start.
Love on the Internet, how could it be?
These things just don't happen to people like me.

But doves and butterflies flew into our lives,
Carrying messages we could not deny.
Each person has meaning and love to express,
And we could deny our hearts nothing less.

It's a beautiful love that has grown between us,
Something beyond any words we discuss.
Much deeper than LOL, cyber kisses and such,
Far down to our souls, beyond human touch.

My love's not confined by what it can see,
I feel you, I taste you, I experience your dream.
Close my eyes, and I envision what in my heart I can hear,
"Love knows no boundaries, no distance, no fear."

It's the soul that captures God's love in a way
That eternally melts hearts together to stay.
Fused and sealed forever as one,
Love has its way and new life is begun.

When two people communicate, love can happen anywhere, anytime, and often unexpectedly. The Internet only opens a new setting for an old drama. However, whenever, or wherever people get together, love will find a way. It found me and could not be denied.


2.Emotions...

I was inspired to write this poem when i sms-ed to a friend that really means a lot to me although we knew each other recently. She gives me the feelings inside that just spark my desire to write. I can't describe the feelings that came over me. So, i released them and express myself in this poem...

Blush...
You always make me blush
The tingling sensation that flows throughout my cheeks
As you flatter me with the sweet words you speak

Gasp...
Your touch; your embrace
They send goose bumps down my spine
So chilling it makes it hard to breathe

Love...
The love you express to me
And all the love that you give to me
I know now what I live for

To feel you
To hold you
To kiss your lips and
To try my best to reach your soul

Never wanting to be away from you
To let go of your body
To let your hand separate from my grasp
How I long to have you by my side

These are the moments
When time should have no existence
Where it should never end and
Bring to reality you have to leave

Please don't leave...

A warm kiss goodbye
A cool spring breeze
A tear from my eye
The time has come that I must leave

So alone now
I know I'm still in your heart
"Only a phone call away" I say to myself
To ease the loneliness I feel

You complete me
You make me whole
You're my other half
You're the happiness I've waited for

You chase away my cloudy days
You put a twinkle in my darkest nights
All these days I've spent with you
I still don't know how to express the
emotions I feel

The only words that come to mind
Are words so commonly used
I want them to be unique
To release everything I feel

To me, they aren't enough
But yet, they'll have to do...

I don't know why but from time to time I will always look back at these touching and passionate poems. I just love reading it and indulging myself with these love notes. James, I love you always. Without you coming to my life, I won't be as complete like now. You just feel my days with laughter, joy and happiness. I'm just so thankful to God for sending you to me. I'm just so happy........

Princess and her knight in shinning armour

-24-07-2007-
-Monday-
-11.21am-

3 years and 3 months ago, girl met boy online while chatting on IRC overseas...boy always made girl laughed. Girl felt that boy was so funny and a very nice and friendly guy.
Girl was lonely so girl always chatted in IRC with all her friends back home. Girl added boy in her MSN contacts and from then they kept in touch off and on. Both of them never met before but only through pictures they knew of each other. Time passed and after 1 year girl came back to her own country and from time to time boy would message her and see how girl was. They still never met up due to boy working in another state while girl was in their hometown. All this while, girl only treated boy as a friend. After 1 and a half years of communicating through MSN or sms, they decided to meet up as boy was back in their hometown.
Boy came to girl's house to pick her up that very night...it was a Saturday night, girl was feeling anxious as well as excited while dressing up but was happy that they finally had a chance to meet up. Boy arrived and girl got on the car, girl was surprisingly chatty and immediately clicked on well with boy. They spend every minute of the night chatting and getting to know each other better. Sparks flew and girl started to have a crush on boy without knowing and realizing it. Boy also had the same feeling but repressed it.
Boy came to girl's school every single day after that Saturday and they would have lunch together and would just sit down and yarn and yarn so much till sun set and still wouldn't want to go home. Girl was afraid to have any commitments with boy even though it seemed that boy made the first move to pursue girl. Occasionally, boy would send some lovey dovey messages but girl hesitated at first but one day when girl woke up from sleep, she realized too how much she was in love with boy. She messaged boy to declare her love for him and boy responded in the same manner too.
So, on the 22nd September, boy asked girl to be his girlfriend. Girl in a shy manner asked boy if he was very sure and if he was willing to wait for her because she was till in school. Guy with a very sure and positive manner gazed into girl's eyes and reassured girl that no matter how long it took he would wait for her and be by her side forever. So, from then on, it was no more boy and girl instead they were a couple and a perfect one too. It was known as [V][J] the perfect match.
Finally, girl became the princess she always wanted to be..the girl that is loved so much, the joy and happiness that someone can give her, mostly, the emotional security that she needs. Ever since then, boy became princesses knight in shinning armour. Even though occasionally they would have arguments and fights..well which relationship doesn't face difficulties, they would patch things up and be that happy and awesome couple that everyone envies *winkz*!
Today, princess and her knight in shinning armour celebrates 1 year, 10 months and 2 days being together with sad and happy moments. Gosh, time really flies and we've been together for nearly 2 years and it just seems like yesterday! I love my darling. There's no one else like him. Never found anyone so compatible, and so adorable and the most caring soul in the world. I know he loves me a lot. I've never "belonged" anywhere else. Here I am, Vera[V](Princess) dedicates my love to my dearest boyfriend, James[J](knight in shinning armour) with this song here. Darling, enjoy with all your love and hope that we may be together till eternity. Till then, I love my James!

Artist: Utada Hikaru
Song: First Love


Saigo no kisu wa ka ba tabako no flavor ga shita
Nigakute setsunai kaori

Ashita no imagoro ni wa
Anata wa doko ni irun darou
Dare wo omotterun darou

You are always gonna be my love
Itsuka darekato mata koi ni ochitemo
I'll remember to love you taught me how
You are always gonna be the one
Ima wa mada kanashii love love songu
Atarashii uta utaeru made

Tachidomaru jikan ga
Ugoki dasouto shiteru
Wasuretakunai kotobakari

Ashita no imagoro niwa
Watashi wa kitto naite iru
Anatawo omotterun darou

You will always be inside my heart
Itsumo anata dake no basho ga aru kara
I hope that I have a place in your heart too
Now and forever you are still the one
Ima wa mada kanashii love love song
Atarashii uta utaeru made

You are always gonna be my love
Itsuka darekato mata koi ni ochitemo
I'll remember to love you taught me how
You are always gonna be the one
Mada kanashii love love song
Now and forever

English Translation

In your final kiss
flavor of tabacco i could taste
a bitter and painful smell
about this time tomorrow

i wonder where you'll be at
i wonder who you'll be thinking of

You are always gonna be my love
even if someday you fall in love with someone else
I'll remember to love
you taught me how
You are always gonna be the one
Now it is still a sad love song
until i can sing a new one

The frozen time
is about to start
but there are things that i do not want to forget
about this time tomorrow

i know i will be crying
i probably will also be thinking of you

You will always be inside my heart
because it is forever only for you
I hope that i have a place in your heart too
Now and forever you are still the one
Now it is still a sad love song
until i can sing a new one

You are always gonna be my love
even if someday you fall in love with someone else
i'll remember to love
you taught me how
you are alwaya gonna be the one
it is still a sad love song
now and forever

Life has to go on

-27th January 2007-
-Saturday
-12.52 am

Dear God,
I have been feeling very down recently. Please cheer me up and make me look things on the brighter side. Please make me stronger. I don't seem to get everything I want at times and I feel so disappointed. Thank you always for being there with me through my hardest times of my life. Encourage me daily so I can pull through.
Thank you and I love you!

Amen!

Vera


EVERYDAY I LOVE YOU

I don't know but I believe
That some things are meant to be
And that you'll make a better me
Everyday I love you
I never thought that dreams came true
But you showed me that they do
You know that I learn somethng new
Everyday I love you
'Cos I believe that destiny
Is out of our control (don't you know that I do)
And you'll never live until you love
With all your heart and soul.
It's a touch when I feel bad
It's a smile when I get mad
All the little things I am
Everyday I love you
Everyday I love you boy
Everyday I love you
'Cos I believe that destiny
Is out of our control (don't you know that I do)
And you'll never live until you love
With all your heart and soul
If I asked would you say yes?
Together we're the very best
I know that I am truly blessed
Everyday I love you
And I'll give you my best
Everyday I love you

ps: Was listening to this sound on windows media player and just thought that it's a
very nice and touching song. Hope you all agree with me also.

KL, here I come!

-22nd January 2007-
-Monday-
-11.55 pm

20 years of my life have just gone by in a blink of an eye! I cant believe that I will be turning 21 in less than 3 months. At this turning point of my life, lots of decision making will have to be done etc: which college? what degree? where to stay? By doing so, I've decided to enroll myself at Brickfields Asia College for the June intake to pursue a LLB University of London external degree. Law is not an easy subject as it requires lots of reading up and memorizing various court cases. I'm determined to push myself to meet the standards of being a law student and also not to disappoint the hopes my parents have for me! As for now, I got a job at Thank God It's Friday (TGIF) 1 Utama shopping centre in KL and will be starting this Thursday before I start my course in June. The thought of starting my course so early really makes me think twice since I just completed my STPM last December. I guess I deserve a break right?

Last Friday, 9 Rotaractors including me went down to Singapore to attend the Rotaract District Conference from 19-21 January. It was held at a girl guides camp site-Camp Christine at Lim Chu Kang area. The journey down from Melaka would usually take around 3 and a half to 4 hours. Guess it took us how long? I think you would be shock to hear that we got there within 2 and a half hours. 2 cars drove up in which Yik Chuang, our Immediate Past president and Eugene, current Community Service Director so kindly volunteered to drive everyone there. These Formula 1 drivers were going at around 170 km/h but because they had super cars -volvo with turbo engine and Honda Accord, the journey went on so smoothly.

Camp was fun as the team was Rotaract Survivor and we got to know so many other Rotaractors within our district eg: Malaysia,Singapore and Brunei.

Rotaract District Conference opening ceremony ala "Survivor" style

Games, lessons, fellowship, singing was everything about fun. There was some emotional moments while Zack, District Rotaract Representative was giving his speech. Actually there's lots to write so I will just let my pictures do the talking. Memories like these will last a century!

Survivor Cooking-Roasted chicken,lemang aka Bamboo rice and eggs

Our chicken turned out semi cooked only as it was more of a smoked chicken. Our fire wasn't strong enough..how sad!Nevertheless, our bamboo rice and eggs turned out well cooked. The technique for cooking the egg is to wrap the eggs with at least 1 cm of mud or soil then only you will get a hard boil egg. If the mud is not thick enough, the egg will explode anytime.

My team---Orang Laut(Back row L-R):Fay, Wei Yun, Dawn, Winnie and me
(Front row L-R): Sorensen, Benedict, Picasso and Wei Siong

"Eugene in orange as Botak the Batik man"--Go RAC Kota Melaka!

The winner Of the Rotaract Soul survivor goes to the "Batik" Group......

The contingent from RAC Kota Melaka which consist of 7 members and 2 guest

Finale!!!! On that faithful Sunday, we took our photographs, said our goodbyes and left for Melaka. It only took us 2 and a half hours to get back to Melaka...see like I told you!

Yes....no uniforms and no Mr Siew.

-14th December 2006-
-Thursday-
-4.32pm-

Finally my STPM and my Form 6 life is over...I couldn't be happier than this. No more those horrible looking school uniforms in my entire life. 7th December 2006 was the last day I wore it and yeah I was just glad that my school life is finally over. So to speak, it wasn't just about the uniforms or being look upon as a school girl just because you say you are in Form 6 aka 20 years old...ehem! It wasn't about the school either as I grew to like it...let me say for the Interact Club, friends and of course for certain teachers but NOT ALL.

Let me tell you....there are just certain teachers in school that are just nerve wrecking. Mr Siew being the ever so "KIND" AND "NICE" discipline teacher is always heard shouting on the speaker every single morning as we line up for the morning assembly. His famous lines will be something like :" Boy, why are you shaking and moving? Can't you keep still and quiet? Didn't you take your medicine today?" or :"Girl, shut up or else I will call your family. I know you can't stop talking to your friends as you lack your family's love you so are finding it in school"

He is just totally absurd to the maximum at times. I really admire the courage that my friend had when he told Mr Siew off. After hearing that, my heart was delighted!

For now, I'm so free but I'm planning to work in KL in January. Next week I will be going to Penang on the 20th - 24th December and definitely will be back in time for Christmas eve Service in Church.

My resolution...: Loose as much weight as I can! Yeah! haha

Great memories that will stay on forever!

-23/06/2006
-Friday
-6.25 pm


I've been so super busy lately running here and there...School, Interact, Rotaract, friends, studies..my goodness the list goes on and on[ "on and on and on" reminds me of Jack Johnson's song].Anyway, not to long ago, Rotary organised an annual Interact World Understanding Day Celebrations that took place at SMK Notre Dame Convent with participation by 5 Interact Clubs from SMK Canossa Convent (Morocco), Gajah Berang (Norway), Katolik (Myanmar), Notre Dame Convent (Spain) and SMKJ Tinggi Cina (Turkey). Due to their concern over the mid-year examinations for their students, the Interact Club of SMK Gaffar Baba was sadly, unable to participate in the project. This project was jointly sponsored by R.C. Kota Melaka and A'Famosa to help Interactors to appreciate international peace and harmony as part of the development of our youths. It was really fun that night but honestly, I was totally down to my feet as the preparation for this Competition almost killed me off. Fortunately, my ever supporting W.U Director, Board of Directors, members and dear ones pulled me through.
We actually had not much time to prepare as we were having our exams and the last minute decition to continue with this competition after we pulled out due to certain reasons months ago. Nevertheless, it was a really worthwhile project as I could see my members having so much fun and the glow in their faces just made me feel satisfied with what we put in towards this competition. I guess it was an eye opener for my members as it was the first time for many of them to participated in these kind of competition. For me, it was exciting but I'm used to it as this year was my 6th year taking part in this W.U competiton.The event was full of drama with an exciting and colourful concert programme put up by the participating Interact Clubs, featuring an item from each of their representative country. We witnessed a tale of love from ancient Morocco to a terror Norwegian Viking raid, a Myanmarese wedding to comic bull-fights in Spain and to a bloody ancient battle at Troy. We had lots of mouth watering food as it was a buffet and around 250 students and guess turned up...not even my teacher advisor gave it a miss. Finally, the crucial time arrived, my heart was uncertain about our victory as the whole stage performance on Norway was such a last minute thing and to think about it, we were rather nervous! For the stage concert event, runner-up was SMK Katolik who won RM150 with their Myanmarese wedding and the winner's prize of RM300 went to..... SMK Gajah Berang for their Viking raid and "snap-shots" of Norway! What? I was so shocked and surprised as to what was announced! My W.U Director was literally pulling me up stage to collect the prize money... I heart was totally filled with joy and all I could see and hear were my members cheering and dancing with joy! I was indeed dumb founded.
It was a most successful project, full of excitement and fun and to boot, a free buffet dinner for over 250 Interactors and their respective Teacher-Advisers, Rotarians and guests to celebrate World Understanding Day!

Songs to fill me in...

PETERPAN-MUNGKIN NANTI
Sahajaku berkata
Mungkin yang terakhir kalinya
Sudahlah lepaskan semua
Ku yakin inilah waktunya
Mungkin saja kau bukan yang dulu lagi
Mungkin saja rasa itu telah pergi

Reff:
Dan mungkin bila nanti
Kita kan bertemu lagi
Satu pintaku jangan kau coba
Tanyakan kembali
Rasa yang kutinggal mati
Seperti hari kemarin
Saat semua di sini

Dan bila hatimu termenung
Bangun dari mimpi-mimpimu
Membuka hatimu yang dulu
Cerita saat bersamaku
Mungkin saja kau bukan yang dulu lagi
Mungkin saja rasa itu telah pergi

Bridge:
Tak usah kau tanyakan lagi
Simpan untukmu sendiri
Semua sesal yang kau cari
Semua rasa yang kau beri

Donno why lately this song has been runnin through my head day and night. Maybe it's because this song is currently the number 1 song in town and everyone in school is singing it. You can practicaly hear ppl playing in on their guitar, in the malls and even on the net. Well, I somehow downloaded this song and ever since been stucked with it...It's a very meaningfull song and if I could, I would have put the video clip here but I seriously can't find the video codes for it..sigh!!!

Chinese New Year.....

-21st February 2006-
-Tuesday
-4.04 pm


New year has been over for a week now but it was really fun (I guess)..haha! The first 3 days of New Year was really tiring as I was Mak Minah( Driver) for my sis to go round visiting as she DOES NOT DRIVE!
(My little cute bro who is only 10 years old)

Yeah...so this is my sis(look left) with me during New Year's Eve dinner. So who looks older? Me or her? hahaha..She is 28 this year but doesn't look it right? Anyway, everytime New Year comes, first thing we look forward to is alwayz the ANG PAO (RED PACKET that contains money). As growing up, children would be children and everytime someone gives me an ANG PAO, I would first thing open it up to see how much I got. This year I collected bout RM 300 and well...it wasn't bad considering the bad economic situation that everyone are facing. I'm happy at least!!! :)
Carol, shea ling and I visited Suet Yin at her home on the 4th day of New Year just to catch up each other and to yadayada as usual. A BBQ party was also held at a friend's house and it was great fun. We were doing all sorts of crazy stuff that night like taking a hair dryer to keep the charcoal burning, barbequeing banana and chocolate( It really tasted awesome) and etc! Yin, Alicia and I were the only girls and it really takes effort to satisfy those guys man..sigh.. Besides
scrumptious chicken wings, different types of sausages, fish balls, taukee, potatoes and fruit cocktail juice specially made by Alicia, the important and mouth watering dish of the day was the YEESANG..It's a dish specially eaten by the Chinese and it will bring good luck and longevity. Well, I enjoyed my New Year as it was my first in two years now... since last year I was in Brazil. I hope you did enjoyed yours?

Happy New Year..2006 here we come!

-28th December 2005
-Wednesday
-6.49 pm

Wow! That was fast!! Christmas just passed me with a wooshhh and after this, the year is gonna end very fast!! Can't imagine that It's been 9 months since I came back from Brazil...Being back in school(Form 6), joining Rotaract, being Interact President and meeting friends that I've not seen in ages has definitely changed my whole life. Life has been quite good to me but above all is GOD that I should be grateful and thankful to. Well, this Christmas was a blast and it also brought back good Christmas memories I had in Brazil. Really Miss my host family so much.
X'mas eve dinner was at home with our menu : Chicken Chop served with boiled carrots, cucumber and of course my aunts famous potato salad and Dessert was Jelly served with mix fruits from the can. Jelly didn't turn out so well cause the chef was a lousy one( ME)..haha.Dad and granny didn't join in for dinner as they had to attend one of our relatives daughter's wedding dinner. .Picture from (L-R):Lil cuz, Sister,Me;Uncle,aunt and my nanny since I was born.After such a delicious dinner, sis and I rushed to get ready for X'mas eve 10.30 pm church service at Wesley Church. Met JInWang there and I decided to sit with him while sis catch up with some old friends! Felt bad leaving the service half way through since Suet Yin called to go Pure Bar. I had to since she was picking me up if not I won't have any transport there. I really wanted to go to some place like Friends Cafe but because James, Takara, Alicia, Suet Yin were all in Pure so I had to obliged! Sigh..I'm not really a clubber so being upstairs Pure looking at them dancing and drinking made me felt really bored..I'm the type of person that prefers chilling out at some place and have a chat over coffee. But in the end, It's all about the fellowship( Yeah fellowship in a club?)Met JinWang later at Pure and we were supposed to go Yamcha but halfway I was too tired so after sending me home poor guy went to eat alone. Anyway,thanks dude for taking me all the way home!!(Picture below is taken at church with JinWang).
Since sis doesn't come home that often from KL so we yadayadayada till 4 plus in the morning.. Next day, we actually planned to go to church but ended up sleeping in till bout 11 plus..felt so bad coz I promised JinWang I'll be there as it was his brother's baptism! So, lunch was at friend's open house! At Night we had a X'mas Dinner at home too but this time with roast turkey,lamb and pork,homemade seafood soup, buttered potatoes and finally cheese cake for dessert!:)
The whole family including my cousin's gf were present and it was such a memorable X'mas dinner eventhought granny and aunt's family aren't Christians!Gosh..I think after this Christmas season I must seriously think of going on a DIET!! Been eating so much and I don't even know if I still fit into my school uniform lol! The following day went out with Caroline and Shereena to Friends Cafe. As usual, we girls yadayadayada,talked and laugh soooo loud till everyone could here us. It was just so nice to catch up with them.
Exchanged presents, took stupid and funny pictures while waiting for Carol's AMERICAN burger that took like 40 minutes to come! Must complaint to FRIENDS man.. luckily it tasted quite good if not.... I ordered some drink which I can't remember the name..sounded like some Japanese name.Well, it was a mixture of coffee late(I think so), vanilla ice-cream and bananas! It was very creamy..Oopppss fattening but well delicious!!! I think that's about it lah...Wishing everyone a Happy New Year and may 2006 be a wonderful year and may good things be ahead of everyone!!! Take care!

A Walk To Remember

-1st December 2005
-Thursday
-2.21 pm


(L-R): Lilian, me and Suet Yin

Today is Lilian's 19th Birthday!!!! Just wanted to blog something bout her and how we've come to be good friends since school days. It all started when she joined the Interact Club of MGSS when we were in Form 1. I've always thought of her as non other than my classmate in 1A and also knew she JUST existed in the Interact Club. The years went by and by Form 3, we were separated as I was demoted to 3B and she still remained in 3A. I still can remember clearly that year we took part in our Interact International Understanding Competition (IU Day) which is known now as the World Understanding Day (WU Day). We were representing England and our main stage show was the Ascot(where English women were all dress in their Sunday best to witness the horse racing competition)and the singing of the English national anthem "God Save the Queen". Lilian, played a young gentleman in the stage show and it was a marvelous show eventhough we didn't win that year which to me was just unfair! Form 4 came and she was elected as the Secretary of the Interact Club and I was the Community Service Director. Since then, we've become closer than usual as we always worked closely during club activities,projects and competitions. I will never forget those great memories when we took part in the IU day the following 2 years. I really had great fun during the year when we were representing Tanzania. Lilian was an African warrior and I was a village girl. The whole show was amazing and as expected we won! That was the best year among our 5 years. In 2003, our last year since we were in Form 5, we were representing France and guess what? Lilian was 1 of our greatest Can-can dancer. I wish I had pics to post here as all the pictures are in the normal printed type.
That year was also something to remember and to never forget. It was the year Lilian accepted the Lord and I was really happy for her. Our friendship blossomed and till today I'm forever grateful to this friendship that turned out to be a awesome one. Interact has brought many friendships to higher levels and I always believe that "Fellowship brings friendship"!!!Thank you Lilian for your kindness and care towards me all these years.
Let's take another gorgeous pic of Lilian..I've alwiz knew she was a star from the start esp. when she has the looks..Pretty right? I'm so jealous for her sometimes as I'll never be as thin and petty as her.Hehehe... Anyway, u take care and have a awesome birthday today ok? Huggies and kisses.
Ps:// I took this pic from her friendster..hehehe.

What Kinda Seducer are you???/ What Kinda Kisser are you??

-26th November 2005
-Monday
-4.31 pm

Your Seduction Style: Fantasy Lover

You know that ideal love that each of us dreams of from childhood? That's you! Not because you posess all of the ideal characteristics, but because you are a savvy shape shifter. You have the uncanny ability to detect someone's particular fantasy... and make it you. You inspire each person to be an idealist and passionate, and you make each moment memorable Even a simple coffee date with you can be the most romantic moment of someone's life By giving your date exactly what he or she desires, you quickly become the ideal lover. Your abilities to make dreams come true is so strong, that you are often the love of many people's lives. Your ex's (and even people you have simply met or been friends with) long to be yours. No doubt you are the one others have dreamed of... your biggest challenge is finding *your* dream lover.

What Kind of Seducer Are You?

You're an Passionate Kisser

For you, kissing is about all about following your urges If someone's hot, you'll go in for the kiss - end of story You can keep any relationship hot with your steamy kisses A total spark plug - your kisses are bound to get you in trouble

What Kind of Kisser Are You?

Bored to tears!!!

-12th November 2005-
-Saturday
-6.47 pm

Nothing much to say except that today has a been a terrible and horrible day!! The holidays started today but well it still doesn't seem like any holiday mood to me! It's Saturday and I'm doing nothing except been on9 the whole day doing lame and stupid stuff. I'm just so bored....argggggghhhh! People alwiz say, you don't alwiz get what you want. This is how I'm feeling exactly right now. I'm 19 going on 20 and sometimes ppl especially my dada still treats me as if I'm still some small girl! Parents sometimes should learn how to let go or loosen up abit in their relationship with their children. I just donno...I'm just feelin very moody currently and wish i could just talk and be with someone *winkz*! I need a person to talk to and where are you?????? Is as though my world has just fallen apart. My broad smile on my face doesn't alwiz mean I'm ok you know? So don't judge a book by it's cover. I may be happy but under my skin ......sigh!!! Life can be difficult at times!

That's just the way of life.....

s-2nd November 2005
-Thursday
-11.32 pm

Day in day out I've been just pottering round the house doing nothing! Sigh...so bored ar! Damn, I'm in Kl now!! Shouldn't it be more fun than to be in Melaka? Wow, those shopping, yummy food, nice places, meeting up with friends...etc. Shouldn't it be fun and entertaining? I used to think so too till I actually found somethin more worthy of my time in Melaka! Somethin that made me realize that ermm...well, Melaka isn't a bad place to live in after all..hahahha! Worst thing of all is I'm so sick now...wish I could hug and cuddle someone to sleep *winkz*. After Raya holidays, I still have to go back to school for 3 days and damn it...ppl are all enjoying their holidays already but ME? I still have to suffer 3 more days.Sigh! Wish life could be just so much easier..No Stress and No worries!! Wish someone could just kidnap me and never return me home..sobz sobz!!! Wanna run away from real life or rather i would say dissapear from this terrible world!! Being sick is no joke esp. when someone else has to share ur pain and fall sick as well too.. Feel so bad bout everything that happened yesterday...I'm so sorry!! Hope you forgive me!
Missing everyone back in Melaka..Take care friends! Cheers

Sonnet 18

Sonnet 18

Shall I compare you to a summer's day?
You are more lovely and more moderate:
Harsh winds disturb the delicate buds of May,
and summer doesn’t last long enough.
Sometimes the sun is too hot,
and its golden face is often dimmed by clouds.
All beautiful things eventually become less beautiful,
either by the experiences of life or by the passing of time.
But your eternal beauty won’t fade,
nor lose any of its quality.
And you will never die,
as you will live on in my enduring poetry.
As long as there are people still alive to read poems,
this sonnet will live, and you will live in it.

*missing you already*...

Love or Infatuation*winkZ*

-1st November 2005
-Tuesday
-3.39 pm

Love or Infatuation

Infatuation is instant desire. It is one set of glands calling to another. Love is friendship that has caught fire. It takes root and grows - one day at a time.

Infatuation is marked by a feeling of insecurity.

You are excited and eager but not genuinely happy. There are nagging doubts, unanswered questions, little bits and pieces about your beloved that you would just as soon not examine too closely, It might spoil the dream.

Love is quiet understanding and the mature acceptance of imperfection. It is real. It gives you strength and grows beyond you - to bolster your beloved. You are warmed by his presence, even when he is away. Miles do not separate you. You want him nearer. But near or far, you know he is yours and you can wait.

Infatuation says," We must get married right away. I can't risk losing you."

Love says," Be patient. Don't panic. Plan your future with confidence.

Infatuation has an element of sexual excitement. If you are honest, you will admit it is difficult to be in one another's company unless you are sure it will end in intimacy. Love is maturation of friendship. You must be friends before you can be lovers.

Infatuation lacks confidence. When he's away, you wonder if he's cheating. Sometimes you check.

Love means trust. You are calm, secure and unthreatened. He feels that trust, and it makes him even more trustworthy.

Infatuation might lead you to do things you'll regret later, but love never will.

Love is an upper. It makes you look up. It makes you think up. It makes you a better person than you were before.

I Love you whoever is reading this.....

Life's so Unpredictable!!!

-31st August 2005
-Thursday
-6.10 pm

"Just Want You To Know"

Looking at your picture from when we first met
You gave me a smile that I could never forget
And nothing I could do could protect me from you that night

Wrapped around your finger, always on my mind
The days would blend 'cause we stayed up all night
Yeah, you and I were everything, everything to me

I just want you to know that I've been fighting to let you go
Some days I make it through and then there's nights that never end
I wish that I could believe that there's a day you'll come back to me
But still I have to say I would do it all again
Just want you to know

All the doors are closing I'm tryin' to move ahead
And deep inside I wish it's me instead
My dreams are empty from the day, the day you slipped away

I just want you to know that I've been fighting to let you go
Some days I make it through and then there's nights that never end
I wish that I could believe that there's a day you'll come back to me
But still I have to say I would do it all again
Just want you to know

That since I lost you, I lost myself
No I can't fake it, there's no one else

I just want you to know
That I've been fighting to let you go
Some days I make it through and then there's nights that never end
I wish that I could believe that there's a day you'll come back to me
But still I have to say I would do it all again
Just want you to know

That I've been fighting to let you go
Some days I make it through and then there's nights that never end
I wish that I could believe that there's a day you'll come back to me
But still I have to say I would do it all again
Just want you to know

Strangers to Friends!!!

-28 August 2005
-Sunday
-5.40 pm


Last day of school holidays....darn bored! Fortunately, 2 memorable things happened within the same week to me.Isn't that wicked? Sometimes, we always say that things happens at times we never expect it..Thats exactly what occurred to me! I've known 2 cool dudes(Gerald and James)for quite some time, about 1 and a half years but the funny thing is, would u believe it that I actually never met them before in my life? Yeah, weird isn't it? Anyway, just by coincidence, 1 of them(Gerald) is studying in MMU so out of the blue, Andrew just invites me to their MMU CF last Tuesday! So, there I went! So the scene goes like this, I ask Sandra(another friend) whether she knew who Gerald was? she went to him and says "Hey, Gerald do you know someone call Vera?" and he goes "Yeah, we knew each other through IRC but have never seen each other." All of a sudden, Andrew shouts across the hall " Vera, this is my friend CP". The amazed Gerald turns his head to my direction and starts getting up from his seat and walked towards me. We both just laugh it off by saying " what a place to finally meet"..hahaha. WE and the whole gang went for mamaking later that night and we had fun..especially coining up a nickname for him!Gerald to JiaLat..hahahah
James...James...can also consider as my cool, funny and weirdo kor kor lah! We've been smsing each other quite often but I'll always wonder when will the day come that I'll eventually meet him. Yesterday we finally got together n wow..we really got on like a house on fire.Today also invited him to Gateway Church and man it was wicked..Although it wasnt long before we had to part but it was still nice getting to know that no matter where u are, you'll always have a dear friend like JAMES!Cheers. Willl be missing ya!

Moments like this.......

-06-06-2005
-Monday
-1.55 pm

I'm in KL now!!!!! What? Again? Yeah, the truth is ever since I came back from Brazil I've been going up to KL quite often since Malacca will forever remain a "DEAD TOWN" and also coz I needed to visit some relatives and friends that I've not seen for AGES..1Year and since I'm in KL, might as well take the opportunity to SHOP la...man...SHOP la!!! This time round it's my 6th time here within 2 months..WOW! I can't believe that.At least, I have a good reason for being here..well quite lame reason lah.Actually, my aunt asked me to come down from Malacca just to Jaga Rumah(Look after her house) since she and her family are going on a cruise holiday from Singapore,Penang,Phuket and back. Looks like I'm the security officer in charge of her house..*YaHOO**I've got the whole entire house to myself and the maid only since my sis is working in the afternoons and will only be at home during the nights! "Let's get the party started in here"!!!hahahahaha. I jolly good make full use of her home*wink*...my aunt will faint when she returns this Wednesday!!!Muahahahaha.
Eh...I'm a good girl k? Do you really believe that I'll turn my aunts house upside down? No of course!!! Was just pulling your leg..........As usual attended church,DUMC(Damansara Utama Methodist Church) with my sis yesterday morning and I'm sure you must be thinking man..a METHODIST CHURCH??? Praise and Worship must be very lame and stuff but I assure you that this church is no ordinary Methodist Church!!! It's worship is just superb and basically just like any other charismatic church where you see ppl dancing and jumping during worship and the singers and dancers are just filled with the holy spirit and have the *Ooom* for GOD! Even the music instruments are so sophisticated!! It's always fun going there for services*grin*!
Came back after lunch and guess what?I dropped of to dreamland at about 3.30 pm and didnt wake up until about 5.30 pm and that's when my sis came back from her church meeting.
Eric, 1 of my sister's church friend and also my so called MSN messenger chat friend picked us up at about 10 pm to go out for an ice-cream. To his *horror*, Amirul,Jaja and Jeremy were coming along so everybody ended up at McD, The Curve . It just felt so good meeting up with Amirul and gang again after soooo long and also finally meeting up with ERIC aka "Sith Lord"..hahaha. This guy here is just way damn hilarious,witty,funny and whatever it is don't ever argue with him coz his vocab is too "Powderful" for even us as normal human beings to keep up with him!!! I seriously enjoyed yesterday's moments with Eric and gf,Amirul and gf;Jaja,Jeremy,Lionel and sis!!! Can't imagine 2 different age groups of friends could just blend in so well...Amirul& gang and I are from the 19,20 age group and Eric& gang and sis from the Young adults;26-29 group. Come to think about it, we were the only group at McD making the most noice and fortunately we were not ask to leave or kick out by the management*sigh*!!
So I guess that's about all for the day...going out with Danial later!!Tchau

Which road will we eventually take?

-13-04-2005
-Wednesday
-2.27 am




Come to think about it, the effect on this slogan is just remarkable!!! Life is a journey of different,different roads and as some ppl put it.."Life is like a roller coster" n we cannot predict what's gonna happend in the future but only GOD! I still remember one poem I did in Form 5 SPM, The Road Not Taken by Robert Frost and it talks about a traveller deciding which road to take at a fork road..the road less travelled or the road more travelled, we soon find that he chooses the road less travelled. Who KNows, I might be like him taking the road less travelled in life and nobody can say I'm wrong just becoz I decided to make that difficult decision!! Where do go from here....? life is all about making decisions and sometimes being human, we tend to make mistakes and yet God being so forgiving still forgives us entirely of all the sin we did...THat's how wonderful our Lord Father is!WEll, I just wanted to show this part of a testi what my friend wrote for me in friendster:--
>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>V ~ Vivacious<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<< >>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>E ~ Elegant<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<< >>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>R ~ Remarkable<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<< >>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>A ~ Appealing<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<

Life isn't all that great after all!!!!

-12-04-2005
-Wednesday
-2.19 am

After carrying that burden for 3 weeks, I've decided to let it all out!! Sometimes things are just better out than keeping it inside oneself!!! I've always felt better sharing it with my guy friends that trully and really understands me than just telling it to any Tom,Dick and Harry. We are human and we do have weaknesses...so what is so wrong in just liking HIM? I do blame myself sometimes for liking him coz it has cause me hurts and made me suffer, but after all who ever said liking a person was easy! WHY? WHY? WHY? WHY GOD? HOnestly, HE has been such a dear to me,treating me like his baby princess, calling me from time to time and also smsing me but why on earth did I REJECT HIM? WHY? WHY? WHY? Eventhough he still calls me from time to time and knowing that the feelings I have for HIM wouldn't fate off just so easily, I still soften my heart and accept his calls!!! After all, I'm still HOT blooded right?*wink*! I just feel like bursting into tears now but too bad Andrew, my crying shoulder isn't with me so I guess I still have to wait till I eventually get back to MLK this Friday to accomplish that..(NOW IN KL)!
PPL just have no idea the pain,hurts,sufferings,frustrations and etc we human go through when we are in LOVE. The thought of the word LOVE will definitely come to many ppl's attention to as why a 19 year old girl like me would use such a strong word to describe her feelings...? I'm still confused as to why I REJECTED HIM coz if this decision was made 1 year ago by the old VERA TAY, it would just seem and look so bizarre but now after coming back from Brazil and being more matuared a girl, I feel that this is just not the time to be serious and to have a relationship eventhough I really like HIM coz now I just have to concentrate on my FORM 6 and nothing else! WE will still be forever best of friends but If HE really does like and love me , I'm sure given a chance, HE will definitely wait for me until the right time comes!

I'm lost in the world of my own!!!

-31/03/2005
-Thursday
-10.29 pm

Time really does fly huh? In a flash, I've been back here in Malaysia for just over 10 days. Can you just believe this? Personally I just can't. I still can remember very well when I was just about to fly off to Brazil to start my Rotary Exchange Programme and now after 1 year everything has just come back to the original way that it used to be, back in old mouldy Melaka and getting to know that most of my friends are up in KL either studying or working *sigh*! Caroline is up there working in Starbucks, Maju Juntion and I dont know when will be the next time I'll be able to see her since she does not come back often but thank goodness for Jeremy who is currently studying at KDU comes back every weekend so at least I still have 1 more Mamak Partner to go out with.Anyway, so far I've gone out with ppl like Suet yin,Carol,Andrew,Jeremy,Sandra and also not forgetting my precious mei mei, Rebekah,the first person that I saw after arriving back here in Mlk. What a life!!!
Last monday, I gave my presentation about Brazil to the Rotary club here and fortunately everything came out well!!! I guess everyone were most fascinated with those very sexy Samba Pics especially of the moving picture!!!

Here are some good examples for you ppl to see!!!
And as for now......just hanging around, going out with friends and just waiting to go into Form 6 which will only start in mid May!!!!

During my happier days back in Brazil.aka Farewell Party....

Carnaval next week...huhu

-Day 314 in Brazil-
-02-02-2005
-Tuesday
-3.04 am

So Carnaval is starting this Friday and everyone is still busy preparing for the Grand event through out the whole country.
I'm so excited as I will be celebrating it in the Carnaval stadium together with all the exchange students and also together with some Rotarians. All the Samba schools in Sao Paulo will be taking part and I'm sure this will be the best thing that will happen before I leave Brazil!!!!
AS I am blogging now,it's already 3.40 am and I'm using the comp in Rodolfo's house in which I'm spending a few days here from last Sunday until today so sad to always leave someone that you really like so much and inside,you know that you don't know when we will ever see them again!!!!Anyway, yeah I'm in Rodolfo's city which is in Juquitiba,SP and so far I've been able to get out from the polluted Guarulhos and get some good and fresh air here in this small city down south of Sao Paulo.Eventhough we didn't do much due to the bad weather which rained every single day here,in which we planned to go river rafting, we somehow managed to visit a mushroom farm owed by 1 of the Rotarians and also did some sight-seeing at the waterfalls in the jungle. Last night,I even went for their monthly Rotary meeting and even presented my Host Rotary Club Banner from Malaysia to the President of the club here in Juquitiba.My stay here is just wicked and I really enjoy Rodolfo's accompany not mentioning that his mother is just an angel!!!!She's like the sweetest women I ever met in my life of course not forgetting my own mother back in Malaysia:)
After Rotary, Rodolfo and I were so bored and we just fooled around his camera and managed to take some very nice pics....First, this i have to say, his Rotary Blazer is just sooooooooo damn cool
.I really envy him so much because while on exchange in Malaysia last year,he was lucky enough to go for the Rotary International convention in Japan and therefore he got so many pins from around the world so put on his Blazer. Well, I must say that my Blazer is rather awesome too.Too bad I don't have a pic here to show to you guys. Time flies and without knowing it,it's time for me to say my goodbyes to all my close friends in Brazil and leave for an even better place in this world call MALAYSIA!!!!!! 6 weeks and thats all you guys have to wait for my return back where I truly belong......

Andrew....Andrew...thanks for always beeing there!!!

-Day 303 in Brazil-
-22-01-2005
-Saturday
-6.12 pm

ERmmm...so I just finished blooging and here I am bloggin again!!!! Why? Because of someone who is bugging me to write more things in my blog........So, since I have nothing to do now, I guess I´ll just write something about a friend of mine call Andrew Liu!WEll, I guess writting down in words about him is rather tough since both of us are actually chatting in MSN now. I´ve known this guy here for like ages,ermm let me see how long?I guess more than 5 years....yeah I guess thats it!!!! We started of as just friends but slowly the friendship blossomed into something so marvellous that everyone thought that we were a couple....*kekekeke* How ridiculous! Anyway, yeah....in February when he had to leave for NS, I was so worried that I´ll never get to see him before I go off to Brazil but guess what? He came out from NS the weekend I was supposed to leave....WEll, I don´t really know if he did come out just to see me off or it was just a coincidence.Andrew, you got to answer this question ok? I don´t know what to say more about him? He has been there for me during hard times and I guess I can´t live without him. He has been my listening ear and my shoulder to cry on and eventhough me being half the globe away from home, that friendship between us is still as strong as before and I guess now it´s even "STRONGER". AS he just told me :You're always "higher class" than the rest of my frends> I guess this has made it clear that we are really close friends and nothing can bring our friendship to an end...right? Andrew? I know I´ve I told you this, but I really like to write it down here. I donno why I got really jealous when I found out that you were together with Sue Ping. I guess sometimes, we are just afraid that we´ll loose a good friend..... But seriously, I´m cool with it now so you don´t have to worry about it anymore ok? I need to go now, but I´ll write more stuff later on....Andrew, I love you and Miss you so much ok.....Big hugs and kisses..

A new year ahead......A new life ahead too!!!!!

-Day 292 in Brazil-
-11-01-2005
-Tuesday
-2.13 pm

As I look back and think of the year 2004.....many good and I consider bad things has happened to me but by the grace of God, somehow I managed to go through the year to a NEW YEAR ahead of me!!!! Well, last year was absolutely a awesome and wonderful year from me if I must say so. Let me just list out what I did :
1)Worked at GSC Mahkota Parade!( Was the best working experience)
2)Andrew and Nara went to NS.....*sob sob*
3)Went to Brazil for my Rotary Youth Exchange Program.
4)Celebrated my birthday in Brazil...It was ok though
5)Went on a Easter Holiday together with my Brazilian family.
6)Went on my trip to the Northeast of Brazil with 45 others exchange students.
7)Got to Know my 4 best friends, Emmãnuel,Kofi,Kate and Claire during the trip
8)Went out with exchange students for a tour round Sao Paulo city and to a dutch
city called Holambra.
9)Went to OCTOBERFEST in Blumenau and Florianópolis in Santa Catarina, Cascavel
and Toledo in Paraná to visit Kofi,Camila and kate.
10)Went for a Rotary Party with other exchange students too.
11)Went to the Airport to welcome Rodolfo back from Malaysia.
12)Went for my sister ,Marina´s University Prom.
13)Went to Amparo for the Farewell Party for all the exchange students who are going
back this month."It was really sad
14)Went to BELO HORIZONTE to visit Emmãnuel and Raphael(ex exchange student to
Malaysia
15)Spend Christmas with my 2nd Brazilian family here in Brazil and guess what? I
received so many presents.
a)Leather purse from my dad
b)A pair of shoes from my mum
c)A hair Straightener from my older sis
d)A Palmeiras,a football club FLAG from my second sis
e)A Palmeiras official Jersey and tower from my bro
16)Spend New year with my Brazilian family at home and it was really nice.

So...that was like a summary of what I basically did last year!!!I´m sure this year will be a even better year for me!Definitely I´ll face challenges but the good part of it is that I´ll learn something out of it.Yeah!!!!

Belo Horizonte here I come...

-Day 265 in Brazil-
-14-12-2004
-Wednesday
-6.20 pm

Huhu.........Finally I´m going to Belo Horizonte to visit Emmãnuel and some of the exchange students who went to Malaysia last year!!!!!!Raphael,rafael,Bernado,Fernanda...Can´t wait to see you guys :)Anyway, the biggest reason that I´m actually going to BH is because of my Good friend,Emmãnuel!!! This dude here has brightened my exchange year here in Brazil and thanks to all his cute and sweet SMS..I made it through until now! Well, actually let me give you guys a brief story on how I met him. It was during the Northeast trip that I went on with some other 44 exchange students that we knew each other. He was bringing along some other short term exchange students from India from BH to visit Brasilia and so being me I started the convo with him and without knowing it he was actually Jeremy´s Good friend while he was in Brazil.Jeremy was an ex exchange student to Brazil last year from Malaysia.What a small world!!! From then onwards, we started to communicate with each other through MSN ,ICQ and also though SMSes.So this is the story of our great friendship.....Weird right our amazing story? Anyway,from tomorrow night until next Tuesday, I won´t have the time to on9 because I´ll be away in BH.So you guys will only see me back on Wednesday ok......I love everyone!!!!

Make A Joyful Noise / I Will Not Be Silent
David Crowder, Terry Butler

Key:G
Verse:
Bm D E Bm D E
Make a joyful noise to the Lord all the earth
Bm D E Bm D E
Make a joyful noise to the Lord all the earth
Bm D E Bm D E
Make a joyful noise to the Lord all the earth
Bm D E Bm D E
Make a joyful noise to the Lord all the earth


PreChorus:
C9 G/B C
The flowers of the field are crying to be heard
C9 Dsus G/B D
The trees of the forest are singing
C9 G/B C
And all of the mountains with one voice
C9 G/B D C G/B C Amsus
Are joining the chorus of this world
C9
Oh, yeah
G/B
Oh, yeah


Chorus:
G D/F#
And I will not be silent, no
Em7 C9 G
And I will not be quiet anymore
C9 D/F# Em
Running through the forest Dive into the lake
C9 G
Bare feet on beaches white
C9 D/F#
Standing on the canyon
Em C9
Painted hills around And the wind against my skin
G D/F#
Every ocean, every sea Every river, every stream
Em7 C
Every mountain, every tree Every blade of grass will sing


Chorus 2:
G D Em7 C9
Make a joyful noise to the Lord all the earth
G D Em7 C9
Make a joyful noise to the Lord all the earth
G D Em7 C9
Make a joyful noise to the Lord all the earth
G D Em7 C9
Make a joyful noise to the Lord all the earth
(repeat)


I really wanna thank Kofi and Kunyalala for sharing great Christian woshrip songs with me....You guys have changed my life!!!*Blessed be the Lord*....Remember he rulesss and rockssss foreva....
Ps://Andrew, I really want you to teach me how to play this song when I go home..The chords and lyrics are all here...Take care!

I´m ready to go home!!!!!

-Day 263 in Brazil-
-13-12-2004
-Monday
-3.56 pm

I´ve been going out for the last 4 days in a row and I´m just so drained.......Went out with my host family last Wednesday and Thursday for Christams shopping and last Friday went Christmas shopping with another exchange student from Indonesia, Esti to 25 March. Esti stayed a night in my house on Friday and we were busy wrapping Christams presents from the Secret friend,a game that we were supposed to play on Saturday, A Christams Party and farewell party for exchange Students who came this January that was organized by ROTEX!
Basically, I´m still feeling the jinx from the Farewell Party last Saturday! The whole event was so Emo and everyone was crying during the speech the each of us had to give.*Sigh*! But somehow suddenly at that moment, I felt that I am ready to go home! Anyway, yeah....Finally I´m ready to leave all my good friends and family here and go home to my friends and family back there and to go back to my normal life!!!
Pai,mãe,irmã,irmão...amigos...EU TE AMO!!!!!

Thank you Kofi....................

-Day 259 in Brazil-
-09-12-2004
-Thursday
-11.32 am

Third Day
Love Song

I've heard it said that a man would climb a mountain
Just to be with the one he loves
How many times has he broken that promise
It has never been done
Well I never climbed the highest mountain, but I walked the hill of Calvary
Just to be with you I'd do anything
There's no price I would not pay
Just to be with you I'd give everything
Oh I'd give my life away
And I've heard it said that a man would swim the ocean
Just to be with the one he loves
All of those dream are empty motion
It has never been done
Well I've never swam the deepest ocean, but I've walked upon the raging sea
Just to be with you I'd do anything
There's no price I would not pay
Just to be with you I would give everything
I would give my life away
And I know that you don't understand the fullness of my love
How I died upon the cross for your sins
And I know that you don't realize how much that I give you
And I promise I would do it all again
Just to be with you I've done everything
There's no price I did not pay
Just to be with you I gave everything
Yes I gave my life away
I gave my life away
Just to be with you

ps://Andrew, I´m not sure if you know Third Day but I´m sure you must have...Anyway, their songs rocksssss too..Especially this is here...*hugssss and kisses*

We are totally Words Apart!!!!!!

-Day 254 in Brazil-
-04-12-2004
-Saturday
-3.05 pm

Jars of Clay
Worlds Apart
I am the only one to blame for this
Somehow it all adds up the same
Soaring on the wings of selfish pride
I flew too high and like Icarus I collide
With a world I try so hard to leave behind
To rid myself of all but love
to give and die

To turn away and not become
Another nail to pierce the skin of one who loves
more deeply than the oceans,
more abundant than the tear
Of a world embracing every heartache

Can I be the one to sacrifice
Or grip the spear and watch the blood and water flow

To love you - take my world apart
To need you - I am on my knees
To love you - take my world apart
To need you - broken on my knees

All said and done I stand alone
Amongst remains of a life I should not own
It takes all I am to believe
In the mercy that covers me

Did you really have to die for me?
All I am for all you are
Because what I need and what I believe are worlds apart

[Additional lyrics:]

I look beyond the empty cross
forgetting what my life has cost
and wipe away the crimson stains
and dull the nails that still remain
More and more I need you now,
I owe you more each passing hour
the battle between grace and pride
I gave up not so long ago
So steal my heart and take the pain
and wash the feet and cleanse my pride
take the selfish, take the weak,
and all the things I cannot hide
take the beauty, take my tears
the sin-soaked heart and make it yours
take my world all apart
take it now, take it now
and serve the ones that I despise
speak the words I can't deny
watch the world I used to love
fall to dust and thrown away
I look beyond the empty cross
forgetting what my life has cost
so wipe away the crimson stains
and dull the nails that still remain
so steal my heart and take the pain
take the selfish, take the weak
and all the things I cannot hide
take the beauty, take my tears
take my world apart, take my world apart
I pray, I pray, I pray
take my world apart

-Vera Tay-

I´m tired, I´m sick, I´m fedup!!!!!!

-Day 252 in Brazil-
-2-12-2004
-Thursday
-4.50 pm

I have been so lazy with my blogging these days that someone..ermmm*hinting* who ar? had to put pressure on me just to blog today!!!!Well, I guess they just miss me..Don´t you Andrew?kekekekkek!!!Ok..Basically, from the last update, what did I do? I can´t even remember..that´s bad!!!I guess I just lazed around at home,eat ,do nothing and grow fat...hauhauauihahaia, Doesn´t this sound like Garfield? Oh, have you guys watch the Galfield film? It´s totally hilarious and funny.I guess those that hasn´t watched it, better go now...I bet you guys will laugh till you drop!!!kekekekekke..Oh ya, where was I? So, let me see? I went out with Rodolfo(Brazilian boy who just came back on a 1 year YEP in Malaysia)for the whole day yesterday. We went to Bienal(it´s the biggest Art exebition in Brazil) but after a while Rodolfo was like "Let´s go to some other place to talk, it seems that we are in this place but we are actually not looking at anything"!! He just came back from Malaysia last Thursday and we have lotsssssssss of things to talk about(i.e), his experiences in Malaysia and mine in Brazil,his travels in Malaysia and lots more!!! Actually,when I was still in Malaysia, he came to Melaka for a visit and he stayed at my place,it was really weird at that time because he couldn´t speak English and I couln´t speak Portuguese.Time flies and here I am now, in Brazil speaking Portuguese and him speaking fluent English and BM!!!! So, there we were at this Shopping place call Shopping Ibapuera, thinking of going to BURGER KING(The first in Brazil that just recently opened) to eat but as we arrived at the foodcourt, you would never imagine how many people were there and the line was just so longggggggggggggg..So, idea 1) forget about it, let´s go somewhere to eat. We got ourself a sandwich and sat down on a bench and just started to chat about everything under the sky....It was just so good! It was around, 2.30 pm, let´s go for a movie? Why not? ok....so, we went to watch Captain Sky and the World, which to me was the biggest fiction ever in history!!!It´s actually a movie based on a cartoon book! Later, we went to some place for a drink and Guess what? Both of us found something very interesting...AÇAI!! I guess Malaysian will never know what´s that.It´s a Brazilian fruit made into a dessert. We usually eat it with bananas and Granolas.I guess In Rodolfo´s case he misses it so much after a year and for me basically I have never eaten it so it was a new adventure for me! Not soon later, it was slowly getting dark, I still didn´t have the feeling to go home, so we just walked and talked, and walked to no destination along Paulista Avenue( The Wall Street of Brazil)until can you imagined that we walked as far as 4 metro stops.At 8 pm, it was literally jet black and we decided that it was time to go home...I went my way to catch the metro back and he took a bus to his University!!!The day was great and I guess it was perfect!!!!
My recent ups and downs:::::::::::::::::::::
18/11/2004>>>>>>>> A party to celebrate the Proclamation of the Republic of Brazil
The Rotary Club Of Sumaré
20/11/2004>>>>>>>>>I visited the Malaysian Trade Center at Paulista Avenue
21/11/2004>>>>>>>>>Football game at Morumbi Stadium(São Paulo vs Juventudes)
23/11/2004>>>>>>>>>My first Presentation about Malaysia at The Rotary Club
24/11/2004>>>>>>>>>Went to the Airport to receive Rodolfo back from Malaysia
25/11/2004>>>>>>>>>Went for my host sister,Marina´s prom!!!
01/12/2004>>>>>>>>>Went out with Rodolfo going round town, basically to everywhere

Today, I received an email from AirFrance about my flight scedules Back to Malaysia*sigh*!!!!! I´ll be leaving Brazil on the 9th March 2005 and from today onwards it´s only about another 3 months....I don´t wanna go back but what can I do? Anyway, Christmas is coming and the Christmas mood is everywhere around Brazil....Including my house>>>>>>Note: The Chritsmas Tree was put up even before November!!!!!!
Anyway, to end this blog, I´ll like to wish all the following people here a very very Merry Christmas and a Happy New Year and may all your dreams come true:
1)My family=Dad,mum,bro and sis
2)Andrew and AAron Liu
3)Sandra Sim
4)Rebekah Tan
4)Joanne Ang
5)Justin Tan
6)Mr and Mrs. Jason Teh
7)Caroline Chan
8)Cherzzz
9)Emmãnuel Campos
10)Camila Gnoato
11)Gabriella
12)Rodolfo Ismael
13)Kofi Zwana
14)Kate my mate
15)Claire
& All my good friends in Malaysia,in Brazil and all the Gatewayans back in Melaka,Malaysia and last but not least,to all the Rotary Exchange Students in Brazil.

Cascavel.....Kofi and Gang

-Day 229 in Brazil-
-9-11-2004
-Tuesday
-5.10 pm

So...where was I...oh ya, just after Florianópolis!!!! Jana had to go back to São Paulo as she was supposed to go for the Pantanal trip so I went to Cascavel alone!!!While on the bus trip, guess who I was sitting beside? It was an English Boy!!!I couldn´t believed it but it was true...He was traveling around Brazil alone for 6 weeks and he was heading for the Falls!!!What a coincidence!!!Anyway, I stayed in Cascavel for a week and the first day when I arrived, I decided to give Kofi and Kate a surprise!! I called Kofi and he just couldn´t believed that I was in town!!! All I could here in the background...shouts of Excitement I guess...Kofi and kate were shouting like the world could fall down anytime!!!I guess I´m special somewhere inside them *cheeky smile*...I went for Kofi´s band practices, his school,getting to know all his goody friends and even went round town sight seeing with him and Gang!!!!I was staying at Camila´s place(she went to Malaysia last year) and we had so much fun.I went to Uni with her and even hung out together with her friends!!!I just couldn´t believe that finally I was meeting the famous Camila from Cascavel! She was so famous back than In Malaysia as she was a very nice,sweet,wonderful,respecful,kind exchange student from Brazil to Malaysia!!Even my dad and the YEP coordinator have said that she is a very polite student*wink*! I also had a great opportunity meeting the other Malaysian girl,Paramesvari who is from another city,Fransisco Beltrão near Cascavel!!!I was just so contented with life at that moment but wait a minute...No one in this world is ever contented with life? "Weird hei?".....She came down from her city just to meet up with me after hearing so much about the other famous Malaysian girl living in São Paulo *wink*..lol!We decided it was time to show our culture to Camila´s parents by cooking our famous "Curry Chicken"!! "Yum Yum....it was just delicious!!!Just miss Malaysian food so much!!!Fortunately,Camila brought home some Baba´s curry powder so this really made our cooking so much easier *wink*! So, Sunday came and I had to leave Cascavel....*sob sob*!!!But anyway, I was going to Toledo, the city where Rafael comes from..He is currently in Malaysia under a 1 year exchange too!!His family was just awesome especially Moiz(exchange student from India)who is staying at their house...I stayed at their place for 2 days and during those time...Moiz brought Paramesvari and I out to town for sigh-seeing and shopping of course!!!Prices down south are just so CHEAP...this word is very important to gurls you know? Besides, I went for a Rotary meeting there and met 4 other exchange students!!!I guess it was time to leave for São Paulo...I was reluctant and tried to extend my stay but...you know? I had to leave no matter what *sob sob*
So, this is the end of my South trip and I really had a wonderful time.....
Love you guys so much......