I realized I've not blogged for almost 1 and a half years and didn't even give much thought to the existence of my blog. Somehow instead of studying today, I spend the whole day reading minishorts . I find much joy in just reading each of her post. I prefer her blog to other blogs such as Ringo (Cheesy) and smashpop. I do not seem to understand the need of cam whoring with all those lala outfit and make up and also the use of broken English. I agree that my English is not 100% perfect either but at least I don't brag and boast about myself. I like minishorts as her entries are original, meaningful, intellectual and partly because I feel I can really connect to what she writes.
This year we will make the big 5 years together. Of course, ours is actually a very normal relationship. Slowly the ferocious flames of 'just-in-love' slows down, and the huge bonfire is now a calm flame giving just enough light to warm up our lives. Corny I know, but I'll also say this. It's not easy to keep the flame going. In recent months, it's getting harder to tolerate his idiosyncrasies, and I quite believe he feels the same way too. However, I know the fact is that we still love each other to bits.
Some people wonder why I put up with James, and likewise I wonder why he puts up with me. I know in our heads, we are Mr. right and Ms. right. I know, he wants an independent and confident girl who does not cry all the time or calls every few hours in a day and one who will often agree with every thing he says with no questions ask. Unfortunately, I'm strong-headed, very self opinionated, inquisitive, egoistic on the outside( which Chinese doesn't want face) but on the inside very emotional and crumbles easily. Apparently, I'm argumentative as well...
Truth to be told, relationships are just like roads. The new roads are smooth, squeaky clean and definitely an easy way to drive on but once it comes 5 years like ours, it will have potholes, gravels & sand and it will be such a bitch to just drive on it. The only way is to repave the road and go from there. The analogy of the road gives me great meaning. Our repaving of the road took place this year with deeper meaning and more promises and commitment to make it work.
I know this man, right now, he's just right for me. I'm not sure if he's going to be just right for me forever, but I do hope so. I have bigger plans for the future with him and through God we shall be there to the end of this road.
Darling, as our relationship matures, it is just like wine as it gets better and better through time. I pray that we will always remember our "2005 vintage" as it will be better and stronger as time passes.